longlostmaiden

[longlostmaiden]

I healed! 🎧 (Audio poem)

Dive into the calming experience of pure poetry flowing through your ears and watch it consume your head and soul.

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One day I woke up

And I didn't create bubbles of grief;

I accepted the truth,

With no time for make-believe .

I made my bed

And I didn't let a tear fall;

I didn't flinch at my reflection,

With puffed chest, I stood so tall.

One day I felt light

And I didn't hope you'd return;

I smiled for the first time in a while,

With a spark that didn't burn.

I pictured you,

And I didn't feel the pain;

I didn't feel my heart ripping apart,

With a sorrow I couldn't explain.

One day I wasn't sad

And I didn't keep myself from loving me;

I wrote my name on the clouds,

With stars so that the world could see.

I squealed in joy

And I didn't supress my feelings;

I didn't shut myself up,

With silence, I welcomed new beginnings.

Much love,

Long Lost Maiden ♥

[longlostmaiden]

Wounds and lullabies

~To the ones who loved and lost

It scares me

how so much hope can fit inside

this little heart of mine .

How I tend to you as if

you're the only wound I want

On my skin and soul ; inside.

I've got rivers of love

And you're scared of drowning deep

So I sing you lullabies instead

And put you back to sleep.

Your fingers filled the gap between mine

But our soul couldn't stay aligned

I wanted you enough to still want you

At your weakest too

Now I am addicted to every shade of blue.

I wait patiently for the time to come

When your eyes would sparkle

And heart will swell

For you would start loving me

For who I am.

You can't make homes out of people

But your embrace is soothing enough

To keep the doubt from creeping in

To assure me that I am loved.

We got too far in thinking I guess

Our destinies were written long ago

But if you're not in my stars

I don't want it to be anyone else too.

[longlostmaiden]

To love you

~To the ones lost in the lavender haze

To love you,

I had to find my own definition of love

For I refused to believe the one

Given by people who didn't had the chance

To love you.

To love you,

I had to learn that love isn't unconditional

But it was least conditioned

And my only condition was to be loved back,

To love you.

To love you,

I had to believe in the most nonsensical stuff

For who would've believed

That angels walked around on earth

But I believed, for I had the chance

To love you.

[longlostmaiden]

Selling my bones

~To the ones who yearn to trace their steps back

My mind echoes

With the thoughts of grief

Of pain and suffering

And,

The promises I had to keep.

The promises that I had to keep

But are long forgotten

Buried deep under my skin

The scars are concealed

Still,

The wound won't heal.

The wound won't heal

'Cause the memories bind me

My regrets, they blind me.

I'd sell my own bones

If I could be human again

And safeguard my soul

From the burden of

Suffering and pain.

[longlostmaiden]

I fall for you even more

~ To the ones lost in the lavender haze

The way your eyes shine

As you laugh in glee

Makes me realise

We were meant to be.

I like how your hands

Fit right into mine

And everytime we're together

We run out of time.

Isn't it pretty how we always,

Have something to talk about?

How you always let your heart out

And I fall for you even more.

Late at night, I fantasize

'Us' under the stary sky

I promise to keep you warm

If you promise to be mine.

I like the way you breathe

The way you just exist

And if I could never give you peace

Would you still take the risk?

Isn't it just so beautiful

How I can't take my eyes off of you?

I love your crooked teeth

The way you snore

And I fall for you even more.

My dramatic talks

And your knowing smile

The way your eyes

Stare right into mine.

You shut me up

And I mess your hairs

In love and war

Its all fair.

I make you blush

You make me hide

I love how your name feels

Right next to mine.

And when you reach out for me

Makes me weak on my knees

I want to be the only one you adore

'Cause everytime we talk

I fall for you even more.

[longlostmaiden]

Learn to hate

~To the ones who wake up covered in memories

I hope you're better

And I wish you're fine

I know you'd move on

But I still dream you were mine.

It wasn't easy, but I guess

Your memories are finally fading away

But it gets hard sometimes

I still wish you'd have stayed.

It was hard to get you off my mind

Harder to keep myself from falling apart

Now I can stop my tears from flowing

And pick up the shattered pieces of my heart.

Guess I got braver,

Or maybe you made me strong

Now I can push your thoughts away

Yet you're still where I belong.

I buried the good times

The bad memories have surfaced

If I can't forget to love you

Let me learn to hate.

Often on nights like these

I talk to the moon

I share all my words and tears

As if I was talking to you.

It makes my heart feel heavy

The name that once made me feel at ease

Yet I can't stop my mind from

Playing your voice like a lullaby as I sleep.

I write sometimes,

About the things I'd have said

I fold my unspent love in letters

The ones that'll never be read.

I wish you're okay

And I hope you miss me sometimes

Even though my heart bleeds and hands are bloody

You'll always be my favourite crime.

[longlostmaiden]

Languish

~ To the ones who loved and lost

Your memories are fading

Away they fly,

The strings are broken

Broken are all the ties.

Even though I shouldn't

I vividly dream about you

I crave your ghostly touches

Trying to make it through.

Life's like a mirror

It reflects what you show

I gave you all my love

Yet hatred's all I got.

My heart's already broken

And history repeats,

I still hear your name

As the pieces beat.

Words that I write

Distracting myself from the blues

No matter how much I try

All my poems lead to you.

Hoping against hope

I stare at the door,

Who leave, they don't return

Yet my heart yearns.