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last time i was here i was 24 now im 30... still shitty

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“what do you know about quantum entanglement?”

i had the pleasure of working with @supercorpzine to raise money for the Trevor Project (more than $6000!) and i’m finally able to post the comic i contributed!

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Hi, while I think it's great that you want to rec fics that you liked, I don't think you should copy-paste the actual story text into your posts. Linking to the story is great! But pasting it into a post diverts attention that would normally have gone to the ao3 link, where the author meant for their fics to be read and appreciated. If the author explicitly gives you permission to copy their fics into a post, that's cool! But otherwise, please just link the fics you like!

Hi! So I only link the stories that I write, so if you click there you'll see the same name (lostinamazon, that's me). I actual think about posting the link but I keep thinking people will lose interest and they won't read it so I copy-paste here, but I'll think about the advice! Thank you!

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You can't say you hadn't see that coming. You're not surprised. You saw the signs maybe even before Kara did.  Hell, even before Maggie and that's saying something. She's your little sister, after all. Your best best friend, your family, your hero. You know Kara like the back of your hand, she always wore her heart on her sleeve, her emotions easily readable through her facial expressions and body language.  And she can't hide the fact that she's completely in love with Lena Luthor. Not anymore. But of course, you already knew that. . "Clark's in National City!" You look up just in time to see Kara sliding inside your lab, her red cape flowing graciously behind her and you try to stifle a laugh when you notice she's trying her best to not start jumping up and down in excitement.  "Yeah, I know, I just saw him outside remember?" You respond with a light chuckle. "And I still think he s-" "Stop talking about my cousin's smell!" Kara quickly cuts you. "He asked me to help him, can you believe that? I'll visit Lena Luthor with him later to see if she had anything to do with the Venture explosion." You frown at that because... well, you don't exactly trust the Luthors. You were there when Lex tried to kill Superman for the last time almost three years ago with the blade made of kryptonite, his war suit making him almost as strong as Clark. Fortunately, the DEO was there and they managed to get him in jail for the rest of his miserable life.  But still, your sister was Supergirl and there was a Luthor in the city. Of course you were worried.  "Just be careful, okay?"  Kara smiled and kissed your cheek. "Always." Then she walked out. Later that evening she texted you saying that apparently Lena was clear, and she had a feeling the young woman was really just looking for a fresh start for herself and her company. Plus, she was really pretty. Agent Danvers [18:46]: And how does that make her innocent?  Lil' Sis [18:47]: It doesn't! It was just a comment, Rao... You only roll your eyes at your sister. . Lena Luthor shot Corben to save your life. So not a villain. Maybe. Kara decided to become a reporter and you're very happy for your sister, because you know she can't be a superhero 24/7, and the whole gang celebrates her first article about the Luthor alien detection device with a special Game Night. "She talked about Lex today." Kara says after you both start to clean her kitchen.  "What?" You raise your eyebrow at Kara from your spot at the sink. "Lena. I went to visit her at her office." You see the way she bites her bottom lip nervously, as if waiting for you to yell at her for going there, but when you don't, she keeps saying, "She was adopted too. She said Lex was such a good brother and now... she looks so lonely." You don't say anything because you don't now what to say. Kara has always taken people's burdens as her own, but this time you realize it hits very close to home. Then she smiles and suprises you with a tight hug. "Thank you for being such a incredible big sister!"  . For the next couple of weeks you don't have too much time to think about Lena Luthor, and about how Kara was right when she said she was very pretty, because you already have too much in your hands trying to get the alien fight club down with another pretty girl.  Wait. You didn't mean that. Detective Maggie Sawyer was insufferable! Completely insufferable... and okay maybe a little pretty, but only a little! You're surprised when Kara says she asked for Lena's help to get the next fight club location, because you still don't know how to feel about Lex's sister. You don't think she's a threat but she's still a Luthor.  But then again, you have all those new feelings inside you and you need to talk with your sister about how lost you are and about how you think you're in lo- And Lena Luthor gets in your way. Again. And... maybe you're not as straight as you think you were, but did you just spot the gay in Lena's eyes as she glared at you? "She's my sister." Kara says and Lena visibly relaxes when she looks back at your sister with soft eyes. You're so silly.  Just because you realized you're a lesbian it doesn't mean every woman you'll meet is too.  After that, you're very glad to hear from Winn that Lena saved everyone's asses (including Kara's) with her field generator. He and Kara keep gushing on and on about how smart and brave and pretty she was in that black dress and you pretend you didn't see the way they blushed after agreeing to that.  You also pretend you're not heartbroken because you didn't get the girl, but that's just life. . You totally get girl. You're here and you're queer and you've never felt so happy in your entire life because you have a girlfriend! A very hot and very badass girlfriend. You walk in Kara's apartment without knocking like you usually do to give her the news, but she's not expecting you like she usually is after hearing your familiar heartbeat from the corner of the street. She's distracted as she types away a text on her phone, giggling when she reads the response. "Kara?" She suddenly looks at you with widen eyes.  "Alex! I didn't hear you coming." She pats the spot beside her and you move to sit there as Kara types something quick in her phone with a small smile, before leaving it on the coffee table. "Who were you texting?" You ask with a smirk because you know your sister and her silly smiles.  "Oh! No one!" She replies too quickly and too loudly for you to believe that. "You're a horrible liar." You say with a chuckle and she blushes. "Was that Mon-El?" You know that not too long ago Kara finally got over James and you're happy they're still good friends. (You're happy you didn't have to punch his face.) You see the way the dexamite keeps staring longingly at your sister and how she sometimes stares back, as if thinking about the possibility that that could be something, that she could have what Clark has. Maybe Mon-El wouldn't be your first choice for someone you'd want your sister to fall for, actually you don't think there's anyone worthy of Kara, your precious innocent baby sister, but you're in love and you want her to have it too.  "What?! No! That's not Mon-El!" Kara says, scrunching up her nose. "Okay..." you bite your lip. "James then?" "What are yo- no! It's not James. It's Lena." Oh.  Unexpected.  "Lena Luthor?" "Yes." She admits. "We traded numbers after the police sent her mother to jail. I wanted to thank her for saving the entire alien population in National City. I mean... I told her Supergirl told me that, because... you know." You nod. You were ready to tell Kara 'I told you' when Lena surprised all of you, including J'onn, by betraying her mother.  She saved hundreds of innocent lives and Kara was the one with a smug smile after everything. "How is she?" "She has been better. She sent her mother to jail, so it wasn't easy, but she told me she's glad no one died because of a Luthor this time."  You notice Kara's very proud of Lena for that, if the smile she's trying to hold back it's any indication, and after everything Lena did for the the past few months, you decide to give her a chance from now on, after all, Kara trusts her. "Anyway, you wanted to talk to me about something?"  You smile. "Guess who got the girl?"  She squeals and wraps you in a hug. . All of the evidences tell Lena's guilty. But Kara is having none of that. You've never seen your sister defend someone so much to the point of going against everyone, punching cement blocks all over the training room.  And that's how you find her. "Kara." She's breathing heavily and you approach her slowly, looking down at her hands closed in fists.  "I don't want to talk right now, Alex." You cross your arms over your chest, but you don't leave. And she's not pushing you away either, so that's something.  "You need to calm down." She smiles bitterly, surprising you, because the last time Kara acted like that she was under the influence of Red-K. "You want me to calm down? Lena is inocent and now she's stuck in a cell all alone because your girlfriend arrested her without even letting her explain and you want me to calm down?!" Kara yells, pointing a finger a you. "Hey!" You yell back. "Maggie was only doing her job, she has nothing to do with it! "She has everything to do with it!" "Kara!" She shakes her head, moving to sit on a bench, elbows on her knees as she rubs her face with her hands.  "She's innocent, I know she is." Kara whispers. You sit next to your sister, trying to calm down too, before wrapping an arm around her shoulders.  "Everything's gonna be fine." But you don't know that. Not when later Kara flies after Lena without even considering Metallo might explode everything around him.  Of course she succeeds and carries and injured Lena in for the DEO doctors to check on her. Through the infirmary's glass you see the way your sister's running her hands carefully through Lena's hair and how she caresses the CEO's cheek with the tips of her fingers, before walking away with a pained expression, probably so Lena couldn't see Supergirl if she woke up. You're not sure why you feel like you're intruding in a very intimate moment.  (In the back of your mind, you know why.) When you visit Kara the next day after reading the amazing article she wrote about Lena being innocent, it feels like you just stepped inside a flower shop.  There are so many flowers. You're very confused when Kara tells you later she kissed Mon-El. .  Game Night was full of tension that week. Kara still refused to share a full sentence with Maggie since the day she arrested Lena, and both of them were too proud to be the one to say sorry first.  Mon-El had been all over Kara and yet, somehow, she didn't seem all that interested anymore. You remember seeing him move to kiss her mouth and she quickly using her superspeed to turn her head and laughing at something Winn had said, the dexamite planting a kiss on her cheek instead. When you're alone in your apartment with Maggie after everyone leaves, you feel your girlfriend poking your ribs to get your attention. "Babe, I have a theory I want to share with you... but brace yourself because it might come as a shock." You frown. "O...kay?" Maggie took a deep breath for the drama effect and you can only smile at your girlfriend's antics. "I think little Danvers has the hots for little Luthor!" She says quickly. You blink. "Oh. That." "What do you mean 'that'? It's a big deal, right? Wait..." Maggie gasps. "You knew already!" "I had a feeling." You confess. "But she's with Mon-El, so... I'm confused." Maggie chuckles. "I'm not. You Danvers girls and the gay panic walk hand in hand apparently." "Hey!" You shove her away playfully and Maggie gives one of those laughs that shows off her dimples, making your heart melt deliciously.  "Seriously, though. She wants nothing to do with that outer space man child and I still feel like she might split me in two with her laser eyes. And I'm pretty sure I managed to see her planning a date with Lena through a text." "They're trying something called kombucha." "It's a lesbian drink, honey." You laugh, leaning in against Maggie and letting her wrap her arms around your body. "I just want her to be happy." "I know, baby." You're both not surprised when Kara sends you text not even ten minutes later saying she broke things off with Mon-El. . Your head moves from side to side as you follow Kara pacing around the training room.  "She has a boyfriend!" Kara grumbles. "Ex-boyfriend." You say. "They were together for five years!" She whines. "But only dated for two."  "They made science together!" "Are we talking about science or se-" "I don't like him!" Kara interrupts you. "And I don't trust him! I know he's up to something and I'll find out what it is." She started to pace again. "He won't fool me with that beard of that hair or those eyebrows. Lena deserves better... but the way she looks at him..." You can't stand it anymore. "Kara, do you want to tell me something?" She looks surprised at you, like only now she understands her own words and how she just spilled them out for you. "I-I... No." Then she walks out of the room, bumping against J'onn on her way out.  You've never seen him uncomfortable, not even when he had to pretend to be Kara as Cat's assistant, but the way blushes all the way to the tips of his ears when he looked in shock at Kara's back... You're just so grateful you're not psychic.  . Getting kidnapped and almost dying wasn't in your plans.  But you can't help but feel happy when your sister and your girlfriend join forces to save you. You really have the best family. It takes a week for you to fully recover and go home, and all of your friends celebrate with Game Night, like always. Only this time, Lena Luthor is there too. "Agent Danvers." She greets you after walking inside your apartment, offering you a beautiful bouquet of flowers.  "Oh, I'll give Kara those..." "No, please... these are for you." She says, cheeks turning pink. "Kara told me you got injured on one of your missions, I'm glad to see you're okay." You can't say you're not surprised, but before you open your mouth you feel Maggie's hand on your waist. "Trying to steal my girl, little Luthor?" Maggie says and you're glad Lena smiling, raising her hands in surrender.  "Wouldn't think of that." "Get a Danvers to yourself." Maggie winks at her and this time Lena doesn't say anything. "Lena!" Kara walks out of the bathroom and quickly wraps her arms around the CEO tightly. "I'm so glad you came!" "That's what she says." Maggie mumbles feigning a cough.  "Maggie! Behave." You say, pointing at finger at her. "Yes, ma'am." You observe Lena through the night. She surprises everyone by paying for the food (the best pizzas from the most expensive Italian restaurant in National City), and you giggle as you watch James and Kara teaching her how to eat her slice with her bare hands and not with a fork and knife. Maggie loves the vegan flavored ones the CEO bought specially for the two of them, saying they could be best friends forever, and you almost choke when Kara accepts a piece of the spinach pizza Lena offered her. (Kara and healthy food? Yeah, right.) You notice your sister's hand touching Lena's tentatively as they eat in silence and how they talk in soft whispers, smiling brightly as they look into each other's eyes. You've never seen Kara this happy.  "Babe..." Maggie mumbles after you're both under the covers.  "What?" "I ship it." "Go to sleep, Maggie." You say with a smile.  "Yes, ma'am." . "Do you want to get lunch together?" You ask Kara after a training session. She offers you an apologetic look, already taking off her cape.  "I'm so sorry, Alex. Lena's finally free today, since she's been busy with this new project, so I'm having lunch with her. But we can totally have a sister night, if you're up to it?"  You nod. "Yeah, sure." Kara folds her cape slowly and carefully, and you recognize the famous crinkle between your sister's eyebrows. You know Kara wants to tell you something but she keeps chickening out in the last moment and changing the topic, and you don't want to pressure her. You don't want he to admit something she's not ready to. Kara sighs loudly, and you pretend you're busy checking your gun.  "Alex." She finally says. "Yes?" Kara folds her arms over her chest, approaching you nervously. "I... I just wanted to... I-I mean, there's this thing..." You can't help but smile and touch your sister's shoulder, before pulling her into a gentle hug. She's such a baby sometimes. "You know you can tell me anything, right?" You say, holding her tightly. "Relax." "I'm scared." She mumbles against your shoulder. "Scared of what?" You ask, pulling away to look into her blue eyes. "I think I'm in love with Lena."  Finally. "You think?" You say with a small smile, and she relaxes, clearly relieved you're not biting her head off. "I am in love with Lena." "Well, you just won me fifty bucks. Maggie was betting it would take you much longer to admit it." She gasps. "You knew?" "Kara, when Lena's around you, you're not very subtle." You laugh. "You stare at her boobs like... a lot." Kara has the decency to blush brightly at that. "I do not!" "You do, and I don't blame you. Maggie thinks she has amazing boobs too." "Hey!" Kara points a finger at you, but she's smiling. "But they really are amazing..."  "And she makes you eat kale." "It tastes disgusting." "She listens N'Sync with you." "She's amazing at lip sync." "And she's in love with you too." She blinks.  "You think so?" She asked, eyes shining with hope. "I know, Kara. The way she looks at you sometimes..." You smile. "Wanna tell me about her?" Kara offers you a lovesick smile.  "She's so beautiful, Alex! And so smart... when she talks about science it's so full of passion! But she also loves poetry, classic music, and kids, oh Rao she loves kids! She says they're curious and honest and have the brightest minds, and I'm so in love with her!" You laugh when she finishes almost out of breath, because you're very happy for your sister. "I think its time for you to get the girl." . Clark and J'onn are holding Kara back using all of their strength as she screams loudly, trying to get away from them, trying to fly straight to Rhea's ship consequences be damned.  Lena is up there. "GET OFF OF ME!" "Supergirl, you need to calm down!" J'onn screams back. You see Clark squeezing her arms tightly as he makes her look into his eyes. "Kara, listen to me! We're getting Lena back, I promise you!" She groans loudly, the veins around her eyes making themselves visible before she's hitting Superman with her laser eyes, throwing him away against the DEO's wall and managing to get away from J'onn's grip.  Clark shakes his head from his spot on the floor, before standing up and superspeeding towards Kara, breaking through the wall to the other side of the bulding. They're hitting each other so fast you only see blurs of red and blue, a glimpse of a punch here and there, flashes of quick heat vision, Kara kicking Clark in the chest so hard that the vibrations sends everyone to the ground.  Including you. Before you know what's happening, Clark has Kara on her knees, trapped in his arms as he holds her from behind, and you run to your sister when you realize she's crying. "Kara..." You whisper. Superman finally releases her from his grip and Kara falls with her hands against the ground, tears running down her cheeks. "Lillian was right... she'll hate me, Alex... she'll hate me when she finds out..." And you finally understand. You understand what she meant when she told you she was scared. She was scared Lena wouldn't love her back after realizing Kara was in fact Supergirl.  "She won't. You're her hero, remember? She won't hate you, sweetheart." . Clark brings Lena back as promised. And Lena saves the world with Lillian's help. The city is destroyed, but you can't go another day without making sure Maggie is yours and you're hers, so you ask her to marry you. That's your happy ending.  But not Kara's.  Mon-El was a man child, but he was still their friend and she let him go. And she's been avoiding Lena since Clark carried the CEO back safely to the ground. You're not sure she should be alone right now, so you pay your sister a visit, but someone's already there. "Lena, please..." you hear Kara's voice through her door. "So you lied to me?" Oh shit. "N-No... I-I'm sorry..." "You've been lying to me since the day we met and now you're sorry?" Lena spits out, her voice trembling. "You made me feel like I could trust you, like I meant more to you than just my name but you were the one who couldn't trust a Luthor!" "Lena, you got it all wrong, of course I trust you, please, believe me!" "And why would I believe you?" "Because I love you!" You gasp. "Well, now is too late." The door opens and suddenly a teary-eyed Lena is standing in front of you, before she briskly walks past you towards the elevator.  You walk inside Kara's apartment and she's sitting in her couch.  "Kara..." "Just.. don't." . Maggie tells you it's better to wait for them to figure things out on their own, and you agree to wait. You wait for three months. And then you're walking inside Lena's new office. She doesn't take her eyes away from her computer screen until you're standing right in font of her desk, but apparently she's not surprised to see you there. "Agent Danvers." Lena greets you, sitting up straighter in her chair, one of her eyebrows raised. "Lena." You say back. "I don't remember seeing you on my schedule." "There are some perks of being a federal agent." You smile smugly. "Except you're not a federal agent, right?" Lena asks defiantly. You sigh and decide to make yourself comfortable on the chair in front of Lena's desk, before looking right into those green eyes that seemed to have the power to scan her like Kara did. "I'll be honest here, Lena." She scoffs and you ignore her. "Kara lied to you. I lied to you. We all lied to you." She looks away but you keep going. "But we also cared about you. I still care about you." "Then why did you lie to me?" She asks in a small voice, vulnerable.  "To protect you!" You say. "And it is lame, I know, but Kara..." Lena's eyes flicker to yours at the mention of your sister's name.  "I got kidnapped for being Supergirl's sister. I was tortured and almost died because of Kara. And to this day she still hates herself for it. And I know she wonders sometimes how my life would've been be if she wasn't here. She wouldn't be able to forgive herself if something happened to you for the same reason." Lena closes her eyes for a moment and you reach over her desk to rest your hand on top of hers, and you're surprised when she holds your hand back. "But I'll tell you how my life would've been if Kara wasn't in it: it would've been be miserable." A single tear runs down Lena's cheek. "I said awful things to her." You smile. "She understands why you were angry. But you still can make things right." "How?" You reach inside your pocket and offers Lena your first wedding invitation. . Your wedding was amazing. Your wife is amazing. The honeymoon... amazing. You're almost sad to come back from Italy, but you want to see your sister. And Lena.  You remember seeing the CEO finally approaching Kara by the end of the party and both of them slow dancing together, sharing a few whispered words every now and then. But you were too busy thinking about the honeymoon.  (And how someone anonymously gave you a full paid honeymoon in Italy as a wedding gift.) You share a kiss with your wife before walking inside Kara's apartment only to immediately step back, tripping against Maggie and making her scream in pain. "ALEX!" Kara screams, quickly sitting up from her spot under Lena and covering their very naked bodies with a blanket.  "Jesus FUCKING Christ!" You yell, covering your eyes. "Where are your clothes?" "Oh my God..." Lena mumbles, hiding her red face behind Kara's back. "Don't you know how to knock?" Maggie looks at them over your shoulder. "Thank you for the wedding gift, little Luthor." You want to punch Maggie because now it's so not the time. "And add amazing ass to that list, by the way."  "Hey!" Kara yells. "Let's go home." You grab Maggie's hand and drags her out of Kara's apartment, because your job's clearly done here. "Yes, ma'am." ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ ORIGINAL ON AO3! ENJOY!

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I agree with everything you said about this shitty situation. I've never been a fan of social media, I don't have anything other than tumblr, but I'm so disgusted by what that person did, that I honestly wanna delete it and have nothing to do with fandoms. I thought about making a twitter just to apologize, but you're right, at this point ppl should leave him alone. There's not a point to this message tbh, just letting my frustration out, I guess. I hope this fandom learn something from this.

I can't say I'm not a social media fan because I am, and I'm embarrassed about what happened. I'm still proud to be a part of the Supercorp Fandom, but we can't say we don't know why this person did it. We know: it's because Katie shares very little of her personal life with her fans and guess what? THAT'S HER FUCKING RIGHT AND WE SHOULD RESPECT THAT! I hate the obsession with her birthday, or with her personal life in general, I see she gets uncomfortable when asked, but still, this episo happened and... we can't look around trying to point fingers at anyone, we have to stay united to keep supporting Katie no matter her personal decisions. Y'know... I needed to get that out too.

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HOW TO KEEP GOING AFTER WHAT HAPPENED WITH KATIE'S BROTHER ?

Since yesterday, I feel like shit. I feel ashamed. And sad. Embarrassed because ONE OF US did what they did with a nice guy like Rory.

I get that most of us also feel very very angry with whoever got his number and texted him non-stop. Personally, I would like to know whoever did that, but it wouldn't be greatest idea. But I hope this person knows that they affected THE WHOLE FANDOM.

But how to move on from this episode?

I think that despite what happened, as fans, we all need to come together and think about our behavior the next time some of us have the opportunity to meet Katie, and about our online behavior too.

We need some guidelines and boundaries, so here it goes a few things I think we'll need to do:

• Rory is obviously upset, plenty of us already apologized to him via Twitter, and that's great, but LET'S GIVE HIM A BREAK. He needs some time to recover and move on with his life, so whatever he tweets next, do not respond. Just let him be.

• To all of you (like me) who wants to know the person who did that: JUST NO. The person it's getting so much hate already, but we don't want them to do something stupid like hurt himself/herself.

• LET'S STAY UNITED! It doesn't matter for how long you've been a Katie's fan. No one it's more because they follow her work since Merlin or less because they've fell in love with her for Supergirl. We need each other, we need to stay united no matter the Fandom.

• LET'S FORGET ABOUT HER BRITHDAY! And this goes to whatever personal information SHE OBVIOUSLY DOESN'T WANT TO SHARE! Do not ask her about it if you meet her, do not encourage someone to ask, don't ask about boyfriends or girlfriends or anything personal at all. That's what led us to this situation, unfortunately.

• KEEP LOVING HER! Let's shower her with love and affection and admiration if we got the chance. Let's not embarrass her with inappropriate Fandom questions or whatever, let's just... LOVE KATIE AND HER AMAZING WORK.

If you guys want to add something to the list, feel free to do.

But whatever happens next, LET'S CONTINUE LOVING EACH OTHER. She united us, and we're here to stay...

Respectfully.

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I never thought I would feel ashamed of the Fandom I'm proudly a part of, but after what happened with Katie's brother, I feel VERY ashamed. Unfortunately because of THIS ONE PERSON, we are ALL STEREOTYPED as CRAZY FANS. That was way out of line, that was disgusting.

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"Lena." The CEO looked up from the list she was double checking when she heard her name being called, her red lips turning into a smile when she saw Kara walking inside her office with bags of take outs. Leaving the list on her desk, Lena stood up and met Kara by the couch, giving her friend a side hug and the now usual kiss on the cheek. "So, is everything okay at Catco?" Lena asked when they settled on the couch, Kara with her Italian pasta and Lena with a quinoa salad, to which she saw the blonde making a disgusted face but chose to ignore. "Oh, yeah! Everything's great. Although Snapper's now making the lives of a new group of interns a living hell, but, they'll survive." Kara said. "What about you?" "I was checking the list of things we'll need for Lucas' birthday, actually. I want it to be perfect and safe, but most of the locations have a pool." "Oh, I was checking it myself this morning! We could have one of those playground ball pools instead. Like, a big one. Luke will love it! "  Lena chuckled when she saw Kara's eyes shining with excitement.  "Alright, I'll get you one of those." Kara gasped, "It's not for me! I want it to be perfect for him and the other kids." Lena shook her head, smiling.  Since Luke's one year old birthday was coming up, Lena decided to throw him big party slash fundraiser to raise money for the Children's Hospital and the National City's Orphanage. And even thought they didn't know the exact date of his birth, they chose the day Lena found him at the park as his new birth date, and were decided to shower him with affection and a day full of fun. Even though Maggie said he wouldn't remember a thing, but Lena and Kara ignored her. "This will be his first public appearance." Lena said quietly. "We will all be there, so it's gonna be fine." Kara squeezed Lena's hand gently. "I know. But a lot of important people will be there to meet him. I'm kind of nervous. I don't want him to be like the next... Prince George or something." Kara scoffed, "Pff, please, Lena... Lucas is way cuter than Prince George!" Lena couldn't help but swoon at the reporter's words, "He totally is!" They shared a laugh, before falling silent for a few minutes as they ate, but Lena knew Kara long enough to know something was bothering her for a couple of days now. "Is something wrong, Kara?" Kara looked up from her now empty plastic container, adjusting her glasses on the bridge of her nose nervously. "I felt like something was... off that day. Is it because I didn't warn you I was leaving Luke with Alex and Maggie? Because if it was, I'm so sorry! J'onn called me and I left in a hurry an-" "What? No, of course I wasn't mad at you for that! I know it's your job, and they've watched Luke before." "Not for that long, though."  "I trust them and I trust you. I know Alex would never let anything happen to him and Luke loves Maggie's craziness."  Kara nodded, but Lena knew she still wasn't completely convinced.  "Did Alex say something to you before I got there?" Kara suddenly asked, looking up right into green eyes. This time Lena was the one who avoided her gaze, bring caught off guard so suddenly by the blondes question. "I... no. Of course she didn't. Why would she say anything to me?" Lena responded, still not meeting Kara's eyes. "Don't lie to me, please." Lena sighed, finally looking at the superhero.  "She didn't say anything..." Lena said, and Kara motioned for her to keep talking, "But... I don't think your sister likes me very much. I feel like she doesn't really approve of you spending so much time with me and Luke." Kara slid even closer to Lena in the couch. "Why do you think that?" "I'm Lex Luthor's sister, Kara. I know when people feel uncomfortable around me." Lena confessed with a bitter smile. Kara sighed, and Lena noticed her cheeks turning slightly red as she said her next words. "Alex has nothing against you, specifically. She's just... s-she's... being an over protective big sister. She tends to do that with people I... care about." Kara said, quickly completing. "But don't worry, I'll talk to her!" Lena frowned for an instant, before she too felt her cheeks burning. "Oh." She cleared her throat. "Shouldn't you be giving Maggie the shovel talk?" Kara smiled proudly, "Oh, believe me, I did. And with my suit on." They laughed, but Lena still felt like Kara was holding something back.   "Anything else's bothering you?" Kara sighed, looking back down at her hands. "I've been meaning to ask you something for the past couple of days, but I didn't know how..." "You know you can talk to me about anything, Kara. Just ask away." The kryptonian took a deep breath, her blue eyes meeting green ones, before she finally asked, "I just wanted to know how you're feeling with Lucas calling me mom, too." Lena bit her bottom lip to stop herself from smiling at Kara's nervousness, placing their empty containers on top of her coffee table to take the blonde's hands in hers. Luke's vocabulary still consisted of some insistent babble, fingers always pointing at things he wanted, and screaming 'Ma' every time one of them was in the room.  And Lena loved every second of it.  "To be completely honest with you, I love sharing this with you." Lena said, chuckling when she saw Kara's surprised expression. "You've been with us since the beginning, Kara. Luke can't sleep without hearing your voice when you sing him beautiful kryptonian lullabies, he gets so excited when you're there to play or watch cartoons with him, and not to mention that one time he pushed me away so you could feed him. We even have a schedule." Kara blushed and looked away, trying to hide her smile, but Lena saw it anyway. "He's yours, too." the brunette intertwined their fingers, biting her lip, leaning in and touching her forehead with Kara's, their noses brushing together when Lena boldly said, "And so am I." Kara smiled. "Good." • Lena was in her kitchen preparing a natural smoothie, when she heard the front door opening, footsteps approaching the room only a few moments later. "Hey, Lena." Lena looked over her shoulder, seeing Alex carrying what looked like a very heavy box in her arms. "Oh, hey, Alex."  Alex left the box on top of Lena's marble kitchen island, opening it with a swiss knife so casually the CEO almost laughed.  "Kara said she's coming, but she got stuck with Superman doing... whatever it is they do in that Fortress of Boredom. So she asked me to stop by the printer to get Lucas' party invitations. And she gave me the key, I hope she warned you." Alex said, still fumbling with the box's lids. Lena nodded, "She texted me."  Lena poured her smoothie in a mug, "You want some?" Alex looked up from the box, checking Lena's mug before shaking her head, "No, I'm fine. It's green. Maggie will probably want to taste it when she gets here. You guys are weird." Lena chuckled this time, because even though Alex and Kara weren't blood related, their disgusted faces after seeing a natural green smoothie were exactly the same. Maggie would probably agree. Alex finally opened the box and reached inside to check one of the invitations templates.  "Damn, is this a kid's birthday party or wedding invitations? It looks good but so expensive." Lena smiled, "It's also a fundraiser and we're inviting a few of the most important and richest people in the city." Alex raised an eyebrow at the box, "A few? Right." Alex looked around, frowning after realizing how quiet the place was. "Where's the kid, by the way?" "Boy's Night Out." Lena said with a quick shrug. For a few weeks now, a couple of hours before their weekly gatherings, Winn, James and Mon-El would come by to pick Lucas up for a stroll around the city, only the boys for some 'male bonding' as the photographer said once, before coming back for a night of games and junk food with the whole gang plus the baby. Lena actually loved how Kara's (and hers) friends quickly got attached to Lucas, and how they always made time for him.  "You're still letting those wackos take him out?" Alex asked with a smile. "God knows what they're using your kid for. Probably to pick up some girls." "I trust them!" Lena laughed. "You and Maggie take him out, too." "That's completely different." Alex smiled, before staring at Lena for a moment. "So... Kara talked to me about... some things." Lena suddenly felt alarmed. "She did?" "She said you think I don't like you."  Lena closed her eyes for a moment, "She didn't have to."  Alex crossed her arms over her chest as she leaned against the counter. "It's okay. She was pretty pissed, actually." Alex chuckled, before taking a deep breath. "I have nothing against you, Lena. Honestly." Lena nodded, looking down the floor. "I really trust you to protect Kara no matter what and I'm very grateful to you for that. And don't even mention Lucas... I adore that kid."  Lena gave her a small smile. "But?" "But," Alex continued. "I'm still her older sister. I've always felt like it was my duty to protect her. Sometimes I forget she's a grown woman." The DEO agent smiled. "And after Lucas, I confess I was worried about her. About how attached she felt to your baby. She lost her entire world, and no matter what I did, she just felt so lonely at times. I was worried she could get hurt if you didn't return her feelings, and that I wouldn't be able to pick up her pieces after." Lena felt her cheeks burning at Alex's words.  "F-Feelings?" She chuckled nervously. Alex laughed, shaking her head. "Really? You guys raise a kid together! You can't possibly not see that my sister is crazy about you." Lena blushed, heart beating fast inside her chest, "I'm crazy about her, too." "I know. That's why we're having this conversation. Because if you hurt her..." Alex pointed a finger at Lena as a clear warning, but the smile on her lips betrayed her. Before they could say anything else, the front door opened again, loud voices and laughes being heard from the kitchen.  Lena and Alex went to the living room, only to see James and Winn carrying at least a dozen pizza boxes (Mon-El and Kara did eat a lot), Luke perched on the dexamite's shoulders, arms wrapped around Mon-El's forehead and surprisingly Maggie with a few packs of beer.  "Hey, babe, I'm a honorary bro now and-" Maggie said, showing off her dimples towards Alex, squinting her eyes as she looked from her girlfriend to Lena. "You were giving her the shovel talk, weren't you?" Alex shrugged as Lena blushed just as Supergirl decided to walk in through the balcony's door in that exact moment. "You were threatening her?" Kara asked angrily, hands on her hips.  "It was just a warning." Alex rolled her eyes.  "Oh, Alex's threats are a little bit scary. I remember when she did that to me." Mon-El said, looking between the Danvers sisters.  "So, the shovel talk really happened?" Winn asked curiously. "Are you guys official now?" James questioned with a hopeful smile.  Lena and Kara shared a look, looking like a pair of bright red tomatoes, before they started to laugh nervously. "What do you even-" "Official? What-" Luke's and Mon-El's heads went from side to side ad they stared at the baby's mothers trying to come up with poor excuses for why they weren't together yet. "Well, Lena did flirt a lot with Kara even when we were still dating. And Kara flirted back." The daximite said. "I even offered her for Lena to join us, since on Dexam a three wa-" "I-I.... just.. shut up and give me my son!" The superhero quickly said, walking over and taking Luke in her arms. Lena approached a still red Kara, but she chose to ignore what the other alien said, avoiding that particularly subject like always, running her hand through Luke's dark blonde hair.  He seemed happy to just be in Kara's arms, his hands curiously touching her suit.  "Hey, sweetie. Did you have fun with your crazy uncles?" Kara asked, kissing his forehead gently.   Luke obviously didn't respond, but he smiled at the guys when his mother mentioned them. "It was awesome!" Winn said, already chewing a slice of pizza. "It was really fun, we fed the ducks at the pond." James nodded. "Not to mention it's incredible how women easily give out their numbers when we have a human cub! Earth's amazing!" "Mon-El!" Winn and James yelled together.  "Maggie, I can't believe you let that happen!" Alex grumbled. "I got there after that!" "See, Lena, I told you they were using my nephew to pick up on girls!"  As told hey kept arguing, Lena only looked at Kara. "Your friends are crazy." "I think you mean our friends." The blonde said, leaning in to finally kiss the CEO's cheek like she always did after getting home from work, but this time suspiciously close to Lena's mouth. • Luke's birthday party slash fundraiser was amazing. Lena felt completely surprised to see a few of her important guests like politicians, business partners and snob philanthropists actually enjoying themselves, wearing casual clothes as they all chased their children through the green yard of the huge mansion she rented for the weekend.  But nothing made her feel more accomplished than seeing how happy Lucas was, even if he was only one year old and wouldn't remember this party. His almost jumped out of Lena's arms when he saw the huge playpen set up outside (Kara did crawl inside to enjoy the ball pool with him), his eyes shined with every new birthday present placed in his arms, and he seemed absolutely fascinated with the idea of shaking people's hands. Lena couldn't remember ever feeling this happy. She had just talked with the pair of magicians she hired for some last minute arrangements, when Lena felt someone touching her shoulder lightly, turning around to meet a pair bright blue eyes. "Lena Luthor." The redhead said with a small smirk.  "Emma." Lena smiled back nervously, immediately feeling her cheeks blushing as she looked back at the woman.  Emma Herveoux was Lena's first ex-girlfriend. They met in Paris, after attending a workshop about women, politics and economics in Sorbonne, starting a intense relationship right after. And even though Emma was an incredible woman, she reminded Lena too much of Lillian sometimes. "I'm glad you see I still make you nervous." Emma's lips were still stretched in a smirk as she looked at Lena hungrily.  "Of course you don't! I'm not... nervous." Lena scoffed, even though she was still blushing.  "Who would've thought, Lena Luthor, a mother." "Things change." Lena shrugged. "Lena!"  Lena turned in time to see Kara approaching, Lucas in her arms, his face, shirt and hands covered in blue icing.  "Guess who decided to wander over the food table and not so sneakily grab some cupcakes?" Lena couldn't help but smile when she saw the despite the mess, Lucas looked completely satisfied. "Oh, so here it is the famous Lucas Luthor. Already a trouble maker." Emma said with a smile. Lena noticed that Kara only then realized they weren't alone, turning to look at the redhead.   "Kara, this is Emma Herveoux. We... took some college classes together." Lena said, without meeting their eyes. "I believe we did a little bit more than that, but I'll let it slide."  "Oh. I'm Kara Danvers." Kara forced a smile, offering her hand for a handshake, but Emma only looked down at the hand with a raised eyebrow, ignoring the gesture. "I'm sorry, dear, but I don't commune with servants." Emma simply said, looking back at Lena.  And that's why Lena broke up with her.  "With... y-you think I'm..." Kara's face turned an alarmingly dangerous shade of red, and Lena thought her eyes could burn Emma down at any minute now. "I'm not his nanny!" Emma raised her eyebrows in surprise. "Emma," Lena started, clenching her jaw to prevent herself from making a scene. "Kara is Luke's other mother." Kara raised her chin, holding Luke (who was still licking his fingers happily) even closer. "You mean you're..." Emma pointed her finger between them in question.  "We are." Lena wrapped one arm around Kara's waist, raising an eyebrow in defiance.  "Well, good for you." Emma said, before walking away.  "I can't believe her nerve-" Kara started.  "I know! I'm sorry!" Lena quickly apologized. "I probably should've triple checked the guest list, too." Kara took a deep breath, closing her eyes for a moment before breathing out, looking slightly calmer. "I'm gonna change him. We'll talk about this when we get home." Later that night, after the party was over and the presents were opened, they tucked a very tired and sleepy Luke in, and he fell asleep immediately.  Kara gently ran a hand through his hair, and Lena knew she was x-raying his small body to make sure nothing was out of place like she did every night, leaning in to kiss his head. They stood there for quite some time, only staring at him, his chest raising and falling with every breath, arms wrapped around his beloved stuffed octopus. "I love him."  Kara said that so quietly Lena almost didn't hear, but of course she did, and she couldn't help but get teary-eyed with teary hose words. Because she knew Kara loved him more than anything. Lena slowly approached Kara from behind, wrapping her arms around the blonde's middle and bringing her closer, placing her chin on the other woman's shoulder, feeling Kara relax in her embrace.  "I know you do." Lena whispered. "Our son is so lucky to have you."  Kara smiled at those words, placing her hands on Lena's arms. "You told your ex we were together this morning." Kara said, turning around in Lena's arms to face her. "I did."  "Are we?" Kara questioned.  "Aren't we?" Lena asked back, eyebrow raised. Kara rolled her eyes. "Do you want us to be?" "Do you?" Kara pushed away Lena away, clearly frustrated. "Stop doing that!" "What?" "Avoiding it! We've been avoiding everything that's happening between us, avoiding those feelings, the signs... I know you, Lena. And I know the way look at me, and the way you touch me, and the way you keep over thinking if you should kiss me or not."  Lena looked down at her feet, feeling extremely ashamed of herself.  "I know you're afraid I'll say I don't want you." Kara continued, stepping closer again, cupping Lena's cheeks to make her look up into blue eyes. "But I won't. Because I do want you. I love our family and I am in love with you." Lena felt her lips stretching in a smile as she wrapped her arms around Kara's body and finally kissed her, trying to pour down everything she felt for the kryptonian in that kiss. When they pulled away, they were still smiling, breathing heavily, and Kara looked over her shoulder towards the crib. "We should probably move this to-" "Yeah!" Lena stifled a yelp when Kara suddenly carried her bridal style, holding tightly into her shoulders until they reached the bedroom, still sharing small kisses on the way. Lena was used to overthink every little aspect of her life, mainly her professional life. If there was something she always used as a escape route to not think about things, it was sex. Sex for her used to be rough and intense and all about power, but always quick, after all she didn't have time. She didn't think about it, she just did. But sex with Kara... She felt her mind overflowing with thoughts as her skin burned. And for some reason she started to think about philosophy and poetry.  About how in the first time Kara touched her, Lena felt like she was breaking little by little, and when the blonde ran her hands slowly against Lena's sides before intertwining their fingers to pull the brunette up to sit on her lap, taking one of the CEO's nipples in her mouth reverently, Lena felt like Kara had just reconstructed her piece by piece. Lena's brain overloaded when she thought about power, about how she easily gave in to Kara's wishes when the blonde turned her around, kissing the skin between her shoulder blades down her spine until she nibbled Lena's asscheek, getting back up only to hold dark locks firmly in one hand as she fucked Lena with the other from behind. And the kryptonian kept building and rebuilding Lena over and over again through the night. And Lena suddenly realized she had never made love. "I like my body when it is to your body..." Lena whispered, eyes closed as she played with the ends of Kara's hair, the first rays of sunlight hitting their bare skin through the window. "And possibly I like the thrill of under me you so quite new..." Kara raised her head from its comfortable spot on Lena's chest, frowning confused even though she had a small smile on her lips. "What is that?" Lena smiled, "A few pieces of some E.E. Cummings' poem." "Oh, yeah?"  She caressed Kara's cheek tenderly with the tips of her fingers. "Lady, I will touch you with my mind. Touch you and touch and touch until you give me suddenly a smile, shyly obscene." Kara blushed furiously as she smiled at Lena's words, biting her bottom lip, and the CEO only chuckled.  "I wasn't too rough was I? I-I'm sorry I just couldn't... control myself." Kara gently touched the bruises on Lena's neck. "Don't worry. It was actually very hot."  They laughed, kissing softly, before hearing Luke waking up through the baby monitor.  "I'll get him." Kara kissed Lena lips one more time, standing up and wrapping one of Lena's robes around her body, walking out of the room to get Lucas. Lena sighed happily, deciding to take a quick shower, joining Kara and Luke in the kitchen a few minutes later. • They snuggled on the couch, the TV playing some cartoons as Luke kept walking around the living room's floor where his new toys were all scattered.  "Who would've imagined that we'd be here five months after finding that little guy?" Kara said, staring at Lucas as he studied his new set of shape sorters.  "I certainly haven't. I thought I would stare longingly at you forever!" Kara laughed, "I'd probably say something." Lena felt Kara staring at her with a small smile. "You were so pretty, and I was already so in love with you." They kissed slowly, before they felt Luke climbing their legs to sit between them, making his mothers pull away from each other. "Hello, there!" Lena chuckled. "Mom!" He pouted towards them, and Kara smiled, offering him a eskimo kiss.  "And to think it all started when I decided to go to that park." Lena wrapped her arms around her favourite blondes in the whole world. "I didn't believe in fate until the day I met him. Something brought him to me. To us. I'm so grateful for our family. I love you both so much." "And we love you, Lena."  --------------------------------------------------------------- LAST CHAPTER! Hope you enjoyed it! Read the full work on Ao3.

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Kara still ships JT and Britney and they're not canon for ages, right? THEN THAT'S GREEN LIGHT TO SHIP SUPERCORP AND I'M SHIPPING THEM HARDER THAN EVER!!!

Just saying.

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The Strings of Fate (Made Them Stronger Together) - CHAPTER TWO IS UP ON Ao3!

Between all her business and life threats, children were probably the last thing on Lena's mind. She never thought she'd become a mother at twenty six.  She'd never thought she'd be a mother at all. Her days used to be simple. Or as simple as being one of the richest women in the country - probably the world - could be.  She used to wake up early, take a shower, eat breakfast, swipe through her emails on the way to L-Corp, read and/or reorganize her schedule with Jess as soon as she walked in her office, and then proceed to have meetings, research briefings, future projects presentations, financial reports to respond and so on through the day, until she left the building almost midnight. Sometimes Kara would drop by, preventing Lena to die from boredom. But the next day would always be the same. She was born and raised to be a businesswoman, not a mother. Until Lucas. That kid turned her entire world upside down over night. For three months now Lena woke up with Lucas either snuggled up to her side or crying loudly ready for the next bottle or diaper change. Then she'd give him a bath, the worst part of the day, since he hated bath time even with warm water and rubble ducks. After changing his clothes, Lena would carry him to the kitchen to prepare their breakfast and by the time she finished feeding him small pieces of fruits like his doctor told Lena to do - she knew now he loved bananas and kiwi, but still no avocado - the two nannies Lena hired to take care of him while she went to work would already be there.  But even from the office she'd keep an eye on him. And when lunch time rolled around she'd be back at her apartment to spend some more time with the little guy. And every night when Lena came back from work at 18:00 pm sharp, Lucas happy squeal after seeing her made every change seem worth it. Lena still didn't feel like a mother. But she definitely felt something.  --------------------------------------------------------------- Read More on Ao3: http://archiveofourown.org/works/10724226/chapters/23878203

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I need help!

I've been posting my works on Ao3 for some time now, but my recent works are not going to the main list! I keep searching and nothing, but when I visit my profile, the work has been posted. So unless someone is looking for my story specifically, they won't find it. I don't know what I did wrong! Can someone help me? Thanks!

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Lena invited Kara to have some coffee. You know what that means in Luke Cage language, right??????

~it means hard sex~

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Lena didn’t believe in destiny.

She didn’t believe in fate.

But if she had to choose a moment for where she started to believe that maybe there was something out there that connected people’s lives together, invisible strings bringing them closer, and then closer until they didn’t know where one ended and the other started, her mind would always wander to that sunny day.

The day that she made a few small and casual decisions that lead her to find something very close to fate.

Because he was hers, and she was his the moment the invisible strings changed their lives forever.

•

Lena felt the headache coming from miles away. And she had just started her day at the office.

Projects and labs to supervise, new investors to meet, board members to overpower, interviews to give.

She thought starting the day even earlier than usual would help her keep her schedule on time for once, but clearly the lack of sleep didn’t seem like the brightest idea right now.

And she skipped breakfast, something Lena promised Kara she wouldn’t do anymore.

Now her system craved breakfast.

Feeling defeated and slightly guilty for not following her friend’s requests, Lena stood up, grabbing her light coat and black purse, walking out of the office, stopping by Jess’s desk to inform her secretary she would eat something at the small Café down the street.

It was a sunny day in late July but not too warm, just perfect. She walked inside the Café and not surprisingly, one of the waitresses quickly ran to her, scribbling down her order and running back behind the counter to prepare her soy latte, toast and bagels – damn Kara for that.

As she waited, Lena observed the park across the street through the glass windows. A couple of people were running, a man was playing with his dog with a frisbee, and a few kids threw bread crumbs to the ducks in the small pond as they followed their parents to school probably.

Once the waitress came back with her order and giving the young girl a fifty dollar bill telling her to keep the change, Lena decided to enjoy her breakfast in one of the park’s benches.

She sat there in silence for a few minutes, sipping her latte and chewing her amazing bagel, when someone sat on the other end of the bench.

Lena didn’t notice them at first, just watching the ducks inside the small lake and enjoyig her breakfast, headache forgotten, but then she heard some fumbling and whining.

A young blonde woman was sitting there trying to soothe a not very happy baby in her arms.

“Having some trouble there?” Lena asked.

The girl looked up and only then Lena noticed the blonde was so much younger than she first had thought. She couldn’t be older than seventeen. She was wearing worn out clothes, both she and the baby looked like they could use a bath and judging by the stains on the girl’s cheeks, she too had been crying.

The girl looked Lena up and down carefully, as if deciding if she was worth her time, but then she looked down at the baby who started to whine again.

“No, he’s just… hungry.” The girl grabbed a small bottle with milk from the bag she had left on the ground, and offered it to the baby, who sucked the bottle’s nipple hungrily.

Lena frowned, and she couldn’t help but keep watching he girl feed the baby, who was now kicking his legs with satisfaction.

Lena has seen homeless people before, she donated hundreds of dollars for shelters, she wasn’t dumb. The more she observed the two of them, the more she realized the girl probably had been wandering around for God knows how long.

The girl sniffed, crying quietly, and Lena saw the baby kicking his legs so much that one of his dirty socks slipped off of his small foot. Lena grabbed the sock and sat a little closer to them.

“Here…” she slipped the sock back on, before asking, “how old is him?”

The girl placed the now empty bottle inside the bag and adjusted the baby in her arms,

“Seven months…” she said quietly, eyes never meeting Lena’s.

“Right…” Lena bit her bottom lip, as the girl kept trying to make the baby burp. “Look, maybe I could help you? I have money and you look li-“

“I know I’m fucked up, okay? I don’t need a snob rich lady to remind me!” the girl said angrily.

“No! I’m only trying to-”

“To remind me that I ruined my life!” The girl interrupted Lena again. The baby started crying again. “I already carry a seven month reminder, thank you! I made a mistake… he was a mistake… I didn’t want any of this. I don’t want any of this…” the girl was crying harder now, and the baby kept screeching loudly, and before they knew it, he burped, spitting vomit on the girl’s jacket.

“Fuck…”

She looked down at the mess on her jacket and shirt, swearing under her breath and trying to not drop the baby.

Lena sighed, “Let… let me hold him.”

The girl didn’t seem too pleased to accept Lena’s help, but ended up handling the baby to Lena to wipe the vomit off of her clothes.

Lena actually never had a baby in her arms in entire life. And it’s not that she didn’t like kids, she found them… interesting to say the least, but it was never an experience she had approached before. She held him by the armpits, his legs kicking the air, and Lena found surprisingly dark green eyes looking back at her with curiosity.

“Dammit… l-look I’ll… I-I need to… clean this mess. I’ll use the Café’s restroom… can you…c-can you keep na eye on him?”

Lena nodded, still looking right at the baby’s eyes. She didn’t want to push her luck and be the next vomit target. She was wearing a three hundred dollars shirt.

The girl walked away then, and if Lena had been paying attention, she would’ve seen the young girl looking at them one last time, before walking the opposite direction of the Café.

Lena sat there for ten minutes.

Then twenty.

She started to panic with half an hour.

When Jessica called her, worried about her boss an hour later, Lena only mumbled, “Jess, I’m in big trouble.”

Lena sat there, waiting for her driver to come pick her up, looking down at the sleepy baby in her arms, his small hand found a lock of her hair and held it firmly as he drifted off to sleep.

“Well, shit.”

•

Lena was in panic.

Once her driver finally found her, Lena carried the sleeping baby and his bag to the car, telling John to take her back to her apartment. 

She quickly dialed Jessica’s number again, glancing at the baby sprawled on the back seat every now and then. 

“Miss Luthor? Your eight o'clock is already here. He’s been waiting for almost half an hour.” Jess sounded desperate, but clearly Lena didn’t have time for that.

“Jess, cancel everything I have for today! I need you to meet me at my apartment in ten minutes.” Lena saw the baby starting to move as he opened his eyes, chin already trembling. “Actually, bring all of my PA team! I need you all there! A-And maybe a doctor… a pediatrician! See you soon!”

As she picked the baby boy up again, Lena though the unpteeth time why did she have to decide to start her day earlier, or go to that damn Café, or enjoy her fucking breakfast on that stupid bench.

She had no idea how to look after a baby. She used to skip breakfast until Kara threatened her for Christ’s sake!

She was in so much trouble.

 A couple of hours after meeting her team of personal assistants - and a pediatrician - in her apartment, Lena thought she might had the situation under control. 

She had set up a small computer network in her office, where Jessica, Pam and Alana had been researching how to take care of a seven month old baby or any traces of his mother, and listened carefully to the doctor’s instructions after a quick exam: the baby was mild dehydrated, but other than that he was fine, she just had to keep offering him water and juices in small doses or else he could end up throwing up again.

The four of them managed to give him a bath (it was very messy, and the baby didn’t seem to like when Alana touched him), change his dirty clothes for clean ones (since Alana had to stay away from him, Lena asked her to buy a list of things babies might need), Lena finally placed the boy inside the brand new playpen in her living room with brand new appropriate toys for seven month old babies (they really did their research).

She only had him for three hours and Lena was already exhausted. How did normal people manage to raise more than one of those for years?

Closing her eyes for a moment, Lena almost groaned when Jess approached her. “What, now?”

“Miss Danvers is downstairs, ma'am. She said you were supposed to have lunch together and you weren’t picking up your phone. She was worried.” Jess said all that blushing for some reason.

Lena sighed, feeling like slapping herself. After everything that happened she had forgotten about lunch with Kara completely. 

“Send her in.” Lena said, before walking towards the bathroom to make sure she looked at least a little bit presentable for Kara. 

Not for Kara, of course!

Just… for the visit.

Once she walked back to the living room, Jess was already greeting Kara in the hall. Lena felt something funny in her belly as she saw Kara smiling at her secretary, before their eyes met over Jessica’s shoulder. 

Lena approached them, smiling. “Hey, Kara, I’m so sorry about our lunch!" 

"Forget about lunch,” Kara wrapped her arms tightly around Lena, and the CEO couldn’t help but hug her friend back. “I was worried sick about you! I went to the office and you weren’t there or any of your army of secretaries and absolutely no one knew what was happening! You can’t do that ever again!”

When they pulled away Kara moved her hands to her waist with an angry pout. It was adorable but Lena wouldn’t say that out loud. Lena was about to respond when she noticed Jess was still there, looking back and forth between her boss and the reporter with dreamy smile in her lips.

Lena cleared her throat, “So, Jess… you can keep working in the office.”

“I already made a list of the best formulas to buy, ma'am.” Jess said quickly.

“Jess…” Lena glared at her secretary, who finally snapped out of it.

“Oh! Right! I’ll… go… keep working in the office. Excuse me.” Then she walked away.

Kara smiled even thought she had that crinkle between her eyebrows. 

“Sorry about that.” Lena mumbled, blushing a little. “And if you keep doing that Supergirl pose, more people will find out who you are.”

“Oh…” Kara looked down at her hands, “Damn it. Anyway… what happened?”

Lena hummed. How could she explain a teen mom had abandoned her baby in a park with Lena and that she had absolutely no idea how to deal with the situation she had in hands?

Lena looked over her shoulders towards the living room, where the baby was still in his playpen. She could hear him playing with those noisy toys Alana bought. 

Kara followed her gaze, x-raying the wall probably since she gasped loudly. “Is that a…?”

“I can explain.”

“Lena, you have a baby in your living room!" 

Kara quickly walked over to the living room, and Lena couldn’t help but find extremely funny how Kara opened her mouth to say something but then closed it again, trying to keep the smile off of her face. 

The baby, feeling he had company, quickly forgot his stuffed octopus (one of the many stuffed animals Alana bought), and turned to look at the new visit. Lena noticed his eyes twinkle in recognition for a moment when he saw Kara, but too soon he realized she wasn’t who was expecting and started to cry loudly, pushing the stuffed animal away in frustration. 

"Oh, no, did I upset him?” Kara asked, approaching him slowly and picking him up from the playpen, wrapping her arms securely around his small body and holding the baby close to her chest.

Lena placed her hand in her belly for a moment, feeling something very weird and unknown in her chest as she observed Kara with a blond baby boy in her arms, cooing him softly. 

Alarmed by the baby’s cries, Pam came running from the kitchen with an already warm bottle of milk in hand, offering it to her boss. “Here it is, ma'am!”

“Thanks, Pam." 

When Lena’s secretary disappeared back inside, Kara looked at the brunette with raised eyebrows. 

"So, what happened?”

Lena sighed and started to tell Kara everything that had happened that morning, and how she ended up with a baby she knew nothing about but her his age in her arms.

“I can’t believe you made a task force to take care of a baby!” Kara chuckled, sitting on the couch with the blond boy in her arms, making silly faces as she fed him his beloved bottle of milk. 

“I know nothing about looking after a baby!” Lena defended herself.

“It’s not that hard, you know. Alex and I used to babysit for extra money to buy junk food and punk rock CD’s and we were only teenagers!" Kara mocked Lena, handling the now empty bottle to the CEO, who only rolled her eyes at her friend.

Kara made him stand up on her thighs, and Lena couldn’t help but find the two of them adorable together. He touched Kara’s nose softly, then poked her cheeks before moving to her mouth, doing a curious examination of her face, before laughing when Kara pretended to bite his small fingers. 

It was the first time Lena saw him smiling, and the weird feeling in her stomach came back with full force.

"Oh, so he’s not completely toothless.” Lena said, sliding closer to the blondes, trying to give a better look at the set of four teeth he had. 

“Stop sciencing him!" 

"Sciencing? Is that even a word?” Lena smirked at Kara, but the blonde only shoved her away with her shoulder playfully.

“You’re treating him like he is one of your work projects! He’s a baby, for Rao’s sake! You’re making your secretaries do researches on how many calories babies should eat a day, how to he should sleep, even how to hold a baby properly. It’s not how it works. He’s not some empirical phase you have to deal with before writing a theses.”

Lena frowned at Kara, “And how would you know that?”

Kara bit her bottom lip, adjusting the boy in her arms, letting him play with her phone for a moment, since he seemed to like the moving colors of the screen lock.

“Back on Krypton, we knew the planet was dying, and my parents knew I’d have to follow Kal-El here. I did… some kind of training. I was so young and I’d be responsible for a baby in a strange place. Of course it didn’t work, but even back on Krypton my mother said I just had to learn to follow my instincts sometimes. I’m not saying every woman has maternal instincts, I’m saying everyone has survival instincts, and babies need us to follow it sometimes. They don’t need it to be too calculated, they just need to feel protected.”

Lena looked down at the boy in Kara’s arms, trying to catch the moving colors in her phone with his fingers. She couldn’t imagine the heavy burden of the massive responsability on her shoulders until now. Just like the girl in the park she didn’t ask for any of this.

How could she do it?

“I… I don’t know if I can do it, Kara.” She said quietly, still looking at the baby.

Kara gently turned to Lena to give her one of those soft and intense looks Lena loved so much. 

“So, what else can you do?”

Lena tough for a second, “I was thinking about… finding his mother… and if I don’t… then… I… don’t know.”

She felt like a failure right now. Lena had a pretty good photographic memory, so she had her security team looking around for the blonde girl, but it’s been hours and nothing. She was left with a seven month old baby boy and she had absolutely no idea what she could do about that. 

“I don’t even know his name.” She mumbled.

Kara sighed, wrapping one of her arms arms around Lena’s shoulders, still holding the baby with the other. She felt the blonde pressing a kiss against her temple, before saying, “Look, remember what I told you about my family motto?”

“El mayarah.” Lena said with a smile. She loved how kryptonese rolled off of her tongue easily now after a couple of fun classes from Kara.

“Stronger together, yes.” Kara smiled. “No matter what you decide to do, I’ll be by your side. I’ll help you look after his mother, even. But if you decide to keep him around, you won’t do it alone, Lena. I’ll help you all the way, and I’ll protect your both, always. El mayarah. 

•

If taking care of a baby for almost four hours was exhausting for Lena, two whole weeks was pure torture.

It’s been two weeks since she last stepped inside L-Corp, having been working from her home office this entire time since she was left with a seven month old human being who’s sole purpose in life was eat, cry and poop. 

And how did he poop. 

She still had Jess around to help her with work related stuff, but also to have an extra pair of hands in case the baby decided to throw a fit in Lena’s arms after waking up from his is midday nap time in a grumpy mood, or if he decided to not try the mashed avocados Lena offered him, spitting everything out right on the very expensive carpet. 

She couldn’t understand that. She loved avocados!

And she hasn’t slept in just as long, even though he slept through the night, Lena still woke up to feed him or change his diapers. And he was a little kicker and a blanket stealer! Since she still didn’t have time to buy a crib (something she wanted to do herself), the baby had been sleeping with Lena in her king sized bed. She placed him right in the middle, surrounded by pillows and blankets, but somehow, he would always roll up to her side of the bed, kicking her in the ribs or right in the face, she even woke up with him right in top of her chest once. 

And okay, she didn’t get upset that one time, it was funny actually, how he always found a way snuggle up to her in the middle of the night. 

But people were starting to wonder, specially people that worked with Lena. Jess told her the board was going insane, everyone wondering what was happening and creating theories. 

"Miss Luthor. The PR team is on the line. Again.” Jess said nervously, moving to pick the baby up and feed him herself as she gave the phone to Lena.

The baby grumbled unhappy, but didn’t make anyother sound after being offered the bottle’s nipple again. Lena noticed he looked… chubby-er.

Lena took a deep breath, before answering the call. “Yes, Mark?”

“Lena, I’m sorry to interrupt you again, but we need to give something to the press. And to the board members. There are all kinds of rumours spreading around. The board think you’re partying out in Ibiza or something, the employees think you have cancer, and somehow the press is talking about the baby.”

As she listened to the head of her PR team, Lena saw Kara walking inside her apartment (she had free access now). They smiled at each other, before Kara took the now excited boy from Jess’s arms, softly rubbing his back to make him burp and talking quietly but animated to him.

Lena felt her lips turning upwards at the sight, because for two weeks now Kara was determined to help him say his first words , even though Lena explained babies only started to form some words from nine to fourteen months.

“Lena?”

“Oh, sorry, Mark. Look, I’m really sorry to put you in this position. I’ll have something for you by the end of the day, okay?”

She heard him sigh on the line, but she couldn’t do much else.

 "Okay. Bye.“

Lena ended the call and approached Kara and the baby.

"Hey, you.” She greeted her friend.

“Hey, yourself.” Kara offered her cheek for Lena to kiss and honestly, if Kara Danvers offered you her cheek for a kiss you just kissed her damn cheek. 

So Lena did.

When she pulled away the baby was smiling all bashful like at them. 

“Oh, I think he wants a kiss, too!” Kara turned to him. “Don’t you, little one? Do you want to be lucky enough to get a kiss from that beautiful woman right there?” She pretended to listen to him. “Oh, he told me he totally wants you to kiss him, too!”

Lena laughed at Kara’s silly act, the familiar warmth in her chest whenever the reporter was around or said something like ‘beautiful woman’ to Lena, making itself known again.

Lena shook her head. “I’m not kissing this little poop machine.”

Kara gasped. “He is not! As if Lena Luthor doesn’t poop! She totally does, little one!" 

"I don’t make people wipe my butt!”

“Stop embarrassing him and kiss him!” Kara pushed the baby in her direction and Lena pretended she didn’t want to kiss him once more, before finally giving up, wrapping her arms around Kara and by extension, the baby, kissing his blonde head with affection. 

She really loved the little poop machine. She pretended she didn’t, but it was so hard to not love him and the way he only fell asleep in her arms, a lock of her hair wrapped around his chubby fist. Or how he smiled at her silly faces as she fed him, or how he looked at new things with such an interest and curiosity she was almost certain he was the next genius in the world. 

“It wasn’t so hard, was it? This little man deserves all the love in the world! All the love. You deserve everything that’s good out there.” Kara said quietly, holding him even closer, and Lena noticed the reporter was teary-eyed. 

“Kara… what’s wrong?”

The blonde sniffed, and Lena guided lead them to her bedroom for privacy. Once they were there, she sat next to Kara on her bed.

Kara was silent for a moment, before she said quietly, “I found his mother.”

Lena gasped. She knew Kara was looking around for the girl, but Lena was almost giving up by now. 

“How? W-When?”

“I used that digital image you made of her.” Kara said. “She wasn’t in National City anymore. She’s in Gotham.”

Lena frowned, “And? Did she say something about getting back?’”

Kara looked right into Lena’s eyes, and for the first time since they met, Lena saw Kara angry, her voice trembling.

“She's not coming back. And I don’t want her near him!" 

"What happened?”

“She’s a drug addicted. When I tried to convince her to come back for him, she said he’s lucky she didn’t thew him in a trash can like she felt like doing so many times. She said she trated his formula for drugs once and he kept crying all night! She said he ruined her life! She doesn’t want him and she doesn’t deserve him!" 

Lena was breathing heavily now, hands clenched in fists as she thought about everything Kara just told her. How could someone say all that about its own child? She felt like her jaw might break from how hard she was clenching and unclenching it.

"That fucking bitch.” She seethed. 

Lena looked at the baby, chewing his thumb as he looked up at them innocently, before smiling.

And that’s when she knew. 

“So… he’s mine?”

Kara chuckled through her tears, smiling and nodding happily. “He’s yours. He's always been yours.”

Lena picked him from Kara’s arms carefully. She was much better in holding him now, and she made him face her, kissing his forehead softly.

“Did she at least say his name?”

“She said you can name him whatever the hell you want.”

Lena scoffed, “Of course.”

They stared at him for a while in silence, until Kara asked, “If you ever had a baby, what would you name him?”

Lena thought for a second, before smiling. 

“Lucas.”

“What is it you Luthors have with L names?” Kara chuckled, wiping away the tears on her cheeks. “But, he has a Lucas face, I guess.”

“Lucas Luthor.” Lena tested, looking at Kara. “Sounds good?”

“Sounds amazing! We can call him Luke.” Then she frowned, “Wait… you’re not doing this to possibly name a future daughter Leia right?”

“Would you mind?” Lena asked with a smirk and an raised eyebrow. 

Kara laughed, wrapping her arms both of them.

“Probably not.”

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Here I am writing SuperCorp AGAIN!!!!

I love the idea of Lena with a baby, sue me.

BUT this is the first of a three pieces work, so, if you enjoyed this first chapter, follow the story on AO3 because there’s more coming!

THANK YOU :D

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Lena didn’t believe in destiny. She didn’t believe in fate. But if she had to choose a moment for where she started to believe that maybe there was something out there that connected people’s lives together, invisible strings bringing them closer, and then closer until they didn’t know where one ended and the other started, her mind would always wander to that sunny day. The day that she made a few small and casual decisions that lead her to find something very close to fate. Because he was hers, and she was his the moment the invisible strings changed their lives forever. • Lena felt the headache coming from miles away. And she had just started her day at the office. Projects and labs to supervise, new investors to meet, board members to overpower, interviews to give. She thought starting the day even earlier than usual would help her keep her schedule on time for once, but clearly the lack of sleep didn’t seem like the brightest idea right now. And she skipped breakfast, something Lena promised Kara she wouldn’t do anymore. Now her system craved breakfast. Feeling defeated and slightly guilty for not following her friend’s requests, Lena stood up, grabbing her light coat and black purse, walking out of the office, stopping by Jess’s desk to inform her secretary she would eat something at the small Café down the street. It was a sunny day in late July but not too warm, just perfect. She walked inside the Café and not surprisingly, one of the waitresses quickly ran to her, scribbling down her order and running back behind the counter to prepare her soy latte, toast and bagels – damn Kara for that. As she waited, Lena observed the park across the street through the glass windows. A couple of people were running, a man was playing with his dog with a frisbee, and a few kids threw bread crumbs to the ducks in the small pond as they followed their parents to school probably. Once the waitress came back with her order and giving the young girl a fifty dollar bill telling her to keep the change, Lena decided to enjoy her breakfast in one of the park’s benches. She sat there in silence for a few minutes, sipping her latte and chewing her amazing bagel, when someone sat on the other end of the bench. Lena didn’t notice them at first, just watching the ducks inside the small lake and enjoyig her breakfast, headache forgotten, but then she heard some fumbling and whining. A young blonde woman was sitting there trying to soothe a not very happy baby in her arms. “Having some trouble there?” Lena asked. The girl looked up and only then Lena noticed the blonde was so much younger than she first had thought. She couldn’t be older than seventeen. She was wearing worn out clothes, both she and the baby looked like they could use a bath and judging by the stains on the girl’s cheeks, she too had been crying. The girl looked Lena up and down carefully, as if deciding if she was worth her time, but then she looked down at the baby who started to whine again. “No, he’s just... hungry.” The girl grabbed a small bottle with milk from the bag she had left on the ground, and offered it to the baby, who sucked the bottle's nipple hungrily. Lena frowned, and she couldn’t help but keep watching he girl feed the baby, who was now kicking his legs with satisfaction. Lena has seen homeless people before, she donated hundreds of dollars for shelters, she wasn’t dumb. The more she observed the two of them, the more she realized the girl probably had been wandering around for God knows how long. The girl sniffed, crying quietly, and Lena saw the baby kicking his legs so much that one of his dirty socks slipped off of his small foot. Lena grabbed the sock and sat a little closer to them. “Here...” she slipped the sock back on, before asking, “how old is him?” The girl placed the now empty bottle inside the bag and adjusted the baby in her arms, “Seven months...” she said quietly, eyes never meeting Lena’s. “Right...” Lena bit her bottom lip, as the girl kept trying to make the baby burp. “Look, maybe I could help you? I have money and you look li-“ “I know I'm fucked up, okay? I don’t need a snob rich lady to remind me!” the girl said angrily. “No! I’m only trying to-” “To remind me that I ruined my life!” The girl interrupted Lena again. The baby started crying again. “I already carry a seven month reminder, thank you! I made a mistake... he was a mistake... I didn’t want any of this. I don’t want any of this...” the girl was crying harder now, and the baby kept screeching loudly, and before they knew it, he burped, spitting vomit on the girl’s jacket. “Fuck...” She looked down at the mess on her jacket and shirt, swearing under her breath and trying to not drop the baby. Lena sighed, “Let... let me hold him.” The girl didn’t seem too pleased to accept Lena’s help, but ended up handling the baby to Lena to wipe the vomit off of her clothes. Lena actually never had a baby in her arms in entire life. And it’s not that she didn’t like kids, she found them... interesting to say the least, but it was never an experience she had approached before. She held him by the armpits, his legs kicking the air, and Lena found surprisingly dark green eyes looking back at her with curiosity. “Dammit... l-look I’ll... I-I need to... clean this mess. I’ll use the Café’s restroom... can you...c-can you keep na eye on him?” Lena nodded, still looking right at the baby’s eyes. She didn’t want to push her luck and be the next vomit target. She was wearing a three hundred dollars shirt. The girl walked away then, and if Lena had been paying attention, she would’ve seen the young girl looking at them one last time, before walking the opposite direction of the Café. Lena sat there for ten minutes. Then twenty. She started to panic with half an hour. When Jessica called her, worried about her boss an hour later, Lena only mumbled, “Jess, I'm in big trouble.” Lena sat there, waiting for her driver to come pick her up, looking down at the sleepy baby in her arms, his small hand found a lock of her hair and held it firmly as he drifted off to sleep. “Well, shit.” • Lena was in panic. Once her driver finally found her, Lena carried the sleeping baby and his bag to the car, telling John to take her back to her apartment.  She quickly dialed Jessica's number again, glancing at the baby sprawled on the back seat every now and then.  "Miss Luthor? Your eight o'clock is already here. He's been waiting for almost half an hour." Jess sounded desperate, but clearly Lena didn't have time for that. "Jess, cancel everything I have for today! I need you to meet me at my apartment in ten minutes." Lena saw the baby starting to move as he opened his eyes, chin already trembling. "Actually, bring all of my PA team! I need you all there! A-And maybe a doctor... a pediatrician! See you soon!" As she picked the baby boy up again, Lena though the unpteeth time why did she have to decide to start her day earlier, or go to that damn Café, or enjoy her fucking breakfast on that stupid bench. She had no idea how to look after a baby. She used to skip breakfast until Kara threatened her for Christ's sake! She was in so much trouble.  A couple of hours after meeting her team of personal assistants - and a pediatrician - in her apartment, Lena thought she might had the situation under control.  She had set up a small computer network in her office, where Jessica, Pam and Alana had been researching how to take care of a seven month old baby or any traces of his mother, and listened carefully to the doctor's instructions after a quick exam: the baby was mild dehydrated, but other than that he was fine, she just had to keep offering him water and juices in small doses or else he could end up throwing up again. The four of them managed to give him a bath (it was very messy, and the baby didn't seem to like when Alana touched him), change his dirty clothes for clean ones (since Alana had to stay away from him, Lena asked her to buy a list of things babies might need), Lena finally placed the boy inside the brand new playpen in her living room with brand new appropriate toys for seven month old babies (they really did their research). She only had him for three hours and Lena was already exhausted. How did normal people manage to raise more than one of those for years? Closing her eyes for a moment, Lena almost groaned when Jess approached her. "What, now?" "Miss Danvers is downstairs, ma'am. She said you were supposed to have lunch together and you weren't picking up your phone. She was worried." Jess said all that blushing for some reason. Lena sighed, feeling like slapping herself. After everything that happened she had forgotten about lunch with Kara completely.  "Send her in." Lena said, before walking towards the bathroom to make sure she looked at least a little bit presentable for Kara.  Not for Kara, of course! Just... for the visit. Once she walked back to the living room, Jess was already greeting Kara in the hall. Lena felt something funny in her belly as she saw Kara smiling at her secretary, before their eyes met over Jessica's shoulder.  Lena approached them, smiling. "Hey, Kara, I'm so sorry about our lunch!"  "Forget about lunch," Kara wrapped her arms tightly around Lena, and the CEO couldn't help but hug her friend back. "I was worried sick about you! I went to the office and you weren't there or any of your army of secretaries and absolutely no one knew what was happening! You can't do that ever again!" When they pulled away Kara moved her hands to her waist with an angry pout. It was adorable but Lena wouldn't say that out loud. Lena was about to respond when she noticed Jess was still there, looking back and forth between her boss and the reporter with dreamy smile in her lips. Lena cleared her throat, "So, Jess... you can keep working in the office." "I already made a list of the best formulas to buy, ma'am." Jess said quickly. "Jess..." Lena glared at her secretary, who finally snapped out of it. "Oh! Right! I'll... go... keep working in the office. Excuse me." Then she walked away. Kara smiled even thought she had that crinkle between her eyebrows.  "Sorry about that." Lena mumbled, blushing a little. "And if you keep doing that Supergirl pose, more people will find out who you are." "Oh..." Kara looked down at her hands, "Damn it. Anyway... what happened?" Lena hummed. How could she explain a teen mom had abandoned her baby in a park with Lena and that she had absolutely no idea how to deal with the situation she had in hands? Lena looked over her shoulders towards the living room, where the baby was still in his playpen. She could hear him playing with those noisy toys Alana bought.  Kara followed her gaze, x-raying the wall probably since she gasped loudly. "Is that a...?" "I can explain." "Lena, you have a baby in your living room!"  Kara quickly walked over to the living room, and Lena couldn't help but find extremely funny how Kara opened her mouth to say something but then closed it again, trying to keep the smile off of her face.  The baby, feeling he had company, quickly forgot his stuffed octopus (one of the many stuffed animals Alana bought), and turned to look at the new visit. Lena noticed his eyes twinkle in recognition for a moment when he saw Kara, but too soon he realized she wasn't who was expecting and started to cry loudly, pushing the stuffed animal away in frustration.  "Oh, no, did I upset him?" Kara asked, approaching him slowly and picking him up from the playpen, wrapping her arms securely around his small body and holding the baby close to her chest. Lena placed her hand in her belly for a moment, feeling something very weird and unknown in her chest as she observed Kara with a blond baby boy in her arms, cooing him softly.  Alarmed by the baby's cries, Pam came running from the kitchen with an already warm bottle of milk in hand, offering it to her boss. "Here it is, ma'am!" "Thanks, Pam."  When Lena’s secretary disappeared back inside, Kara looked at the brunette with raised eyebrows.  "So, what happened?" Lena sighed and started to tell Kara everything that had happened that morning, and how she ended up with a baby she knew nothing about but her his age in her arms. “I can’t believe you made a task force to take care of a baby!” Kara chuckled, sitting on the couch with the blond boy in her arms, making silly faces as she fed him his beloved bottle of milk.  "I know nothing about looking after a baby!" Lena defended herself. "It's not that hard, you know. Alex and I used to babysit for extra money to buy junk food and punk rock CD's and we were only teenagers!" Kara mocked Lena, handling the now empty bottle to the CEO, who only rolled her eyes at her friend. Kara made him stand up on her thighs, and Lena couldn’t help but find the two of them adorable together. He touched Kara's nose softly, then poked her cheeks before moving to her mouth, doing a curious examination of her face, before laughing when Kara pretended to bite his small fingers.  It was the first time Lena saw him smiling, and the weird feeling in her stomach came back with full force. "Oh, so he's not completely toothless." Lena said, sliding closer to the blondes, trying to give a better look at the set of four teeth he had.  "Stop sciencing him!"  "Sciencing? Is that even a word?" Lena smirked at Kara, but the blonde only shoved her away with her shoulder playfully. "You're treating him like he is one of your work projects! He's a baby, for Rao's sake! You're making your secretaries do researches on how many calories babies should eat a day, how to he should sleep, even how to hold a baby properly. It's not how it works. He's not some empirical phase you have to deal with before writing a theses." Lena frowned at Kara, "And how would you know that?" Kara bit her bottom lip, adjusting the boy in her arms, letting him play with her phone for a moment, since he seemed to like the moving colors of the screen lock. "Back on Krypton, we knew the planet was dying, and my parents knew I'd have to follow Kal-El here. I did... some kind of training. I was so young and I'd be responsible for a baby in a strange place. Of course it didn't work, but even back on Krypton my mother said I just had to learn to follow my instincts sometimes. I'm not saying every woman has maternal instincts, I'm saying everyone has survival instincts, and babies need us to follow it sometimes. They don't need it to be too calculated, they just need to feel protected." Lena looked down at the boy in Kara's arms, trying to catch the moving colors in her phone with his fingers. She couldn't imagine the heavy burden of the massive responsability on her shoulders until now. Just like the girl in the park she didn't ask for any of this. How could she do it? "I... I don't know if I can do it, Kara." She said quietly, still looking at the baby. Kara gently turned to Lena to give her one of those soft and intense looks Lena loved so much.  "So, what else can you do?" Lena tough for a second, "I was thinking about... finding his mother... and if I don't... then... I... don't know." She felt like a failure right now. Lena had a pretty good photographic memory, so she had her security team looking around for the blonde girl, but it's been hours and nothing. She was left with a seven month old baby boy and she had absolutely no idea what she could do about that.  "I don't even know his name." She mumbled. Kara sighed, wrapping one of her arms arms around Lena's shoulders, still holding the baby with the other. She felt the blonde pressing a kiss against her temple, before saying, "Look, remember what I told you about my family motto?" "El mayarah." Lena said with a smile. She loved how kryptonese rolled off of her tongue easily now after a couple of fun classes from Kara. "Stronger together, yes." Kara smiled. "No matter what you decide to do, I'll be by your side. I'll help you look after his mother, even. But if you decide to keep him around, you won't do it alone, Lena. I'll help you all the way, and I'll protect your both, always. El mayarah.  • If taking care of a baby for almost four hours was exhausting for Lena, two whole weeks was pure torture. It's been two weeks since she last stepped inside L-Corp, having been working from her home office this entire time since she was left with a seven month old human being who's sole purpose in life was eat, cry and poop.  And how did he poop.  She still had Jess around to help her with work related stuff, but also to have an extra pair of hands in case the baby decided to throw a fit in Lena's arms after waking up from his is midday nap time in a grumpy mood, or if he decided to not try the mashed avocados Lena offered him, spitting everything out right on the very expensive carpet.  She couldn't understand that. She loved avocados! And she hasn't slept in just as long, even though he slept through the night, Lena still woke up to feed him or change his diapers. And he was a little kicker and a blanket stealer! Since she still didn't have time to buy a crib (something she wanted to do herself), the baby had been sleeping with Lena in her king sized bed. She placed him right in the middle, surrounded by pillows and blankets, but somehow, he would always roll up to her side of the bed, kicking her in the ribs or right in the face, she even woke up with him right in top of her chest once.  And okay, she didn't get upset that one time, it was funny actually, how he always found a way snuggle up to her in the middle of the night.  But people were starting to wonder, specially people that worked with Lena. Jess told her the board was going insane, everyone wondering what was happening and creating theories.  "Miss Luthor. The PR team is on the line. Again." Jess said nervously, moving to pick the baby up and feed him herself as she gave the phone to Lena. The baby grumbled unhappy, but didn't make anyother sound after being offered the bottle's nipple again. Lena noticed he looked... chubby-er. Lena took a deep breath, before answering the call. "Yes, Mark?" "Lena, I'm sorry to interrupt you again, but we need to give something to the press. And to the board members. There are all kinds of rumours spreading around. The board think you're partying out in Ibiza or something, the employees think you have cancer, and somehow the press is talking about the baby." As she listened to the head of her PR team, Lena saw Kara walking inside her apartment (she had free access now). They smiled at each other, before Kara took the now excited boy from Jess's arms, softly rubbing his back to make him burp and talking quietly but animated to him. Lena felt her lips turning upwards at the sight, because for two weeks now Kara was determined to help him say his first words , even though Lena explained babies only started to form some words from nine to fourteen months. "Lena?" "Oh, sorry, Mark. Look, I'm really sorry to put you in this position. I'll have something for you by the end of the day, okay?" She heard him sigh on the line, but she couldn't do much else.  "Okay. Bye." Lena ended the call and approached Kara and the baby. "Hey, you." She greeted her friend. "Hey, yourself." Kara offered her cheek for Lena to kiss and honestly, if Kara Danvers offered you her cheek for a kiss you just kissed her damn cheek.  So Lena did. When she pulled away the baby was smiling all bashful like at them.  "Oh, I think he wants a kiss, too!" Kara turned to him. "Don't you, little one? Do you want to be lucky enough to get a kiss from that beautiful woman right there?" She pretended to listen to him. "Oh, he told me he totally wants you to kiss him, too!" Lena laughed at Kara's silly act, the familiar warmth in her chest whenever the reporter was around or said something like 'beautiful woman' to Lena, making itself known again. Lena shook her head. "I'm not kissing this little poop machine." Kara gasped. "He is not! As if Lena Luthor doesn't poop! She totally does, little one!"  "I don't make people wipe my butt!" "Stop embarrassing him and kiss him!" Kara pushed the baby in her direction and Lena pretended she didn't want to kiss him once more, before finally giving up, wrapping her arms around Kara and by extension, the baby, kissing his blonde head with affection.  She really loved the little poop machine. She pretended she didn't, but it was so hard to not love him and the way he only fell asleep in her arms, a lock of her hair wrapped around his chubby fist. Or how he smiled at her silly faces as she fed him, or how he looked at new things with such an interest and curiosity she was almost certain he was the next genius in the world.  "It wasn't so hard, was it? This little man deserves all the love in the world! All the love. You deserve everything that's good out there." Kara said quietly, holding him even closer, and Lena noticed the reporter was teary-eyed.  "Kara... what's wrong?" The blonde sniffed, and Lena guided lead them to her bedroom for privacy. Once they were there, she sat next to Kara on her bed. Kara was silent for a moment, before she said quietly, "I found his mother." Lena gasped. She knew Kara was looking around for the girl, but Lena was almost giving up by now.  "How? W-When?" "I used that digital image you made of her." Kara said. "She wasn't in National City anymore. She's in Gotham." Lena frowned, "And? Did she say something about getting back?'" Kara looked right into Lena's eyes, and for the first time since they met, Lena saw Kara angry, her voice trembling. "She's not coming back. And I don't want her near him!"  "What happened?" "She's a drug addicted. When I tried to convince her to come back for him, she said he's lucky she didn't thew him in a trash can like she felt like doing so many times. She said she trated his formula for drugs once and he kept crying all night! She said he ruined her life! She doesn't want him and she doesn't deserve him!"  Lena was breathing heavily now, hands clenched in fists as she thought about everything Kara just told her. How could someone say all that about its own child? She felt like her jaw might break from how hard she was clenching and unclenching it. "That fucking bitch." She seethed.  Lena looked at the baby, chewing his thumb as he looked up at them innocently, before smiling. And that's when she knew.  "So... he's mine?" Kara chuckled through her tears, smiling and nodding happily. "He's yours. He's always been yours." Lena picked him from Kara's arms carefully. She was much better in holding him now, and she made him face her, kissing his forehead softly. "Did she at least say his name?" "She said you can name him whatever the hell you want." Lena scoffed, "Of course." They stared at him for a while in silence, until Kara asked, "If you ever had a baby, what would you name him?" Lena thought for a second, before smiling.  "Lucas." "What is it you Luthors have with L names?" Kara chuckled, wiping away the tears on her cheeks. "But, he has a Lucas face, I guess." "Lucas Luthor." Lena tested, looking at Kara. "Sounds good?" "Sounds amazing! We can call him Luke." Then she frowned, "Wait... you're not doing this to possibly name a future daughter Leia right?" "Would you mind?" Lena asked with a smirk and an raised eyebrow.  Kara laughed, wrapping her arms both of them. "Probably not." ▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪▪ Here I am writing SuperCorp AGAIN!!!! I love the idea of Lena with a baby, sue me. BUT this is the first of a three pieces work, so, if you enjoyed this first chapter, follow the story on AO3 because there's more coming! THANK YOU :D

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