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28 Things

Back like I never left! This platform has changed a bit since my last ramble. Another 366 days have passed and it’s time for the annual list of things I learned this year. Paul said to put on the whole armor of God in Ephesians 6. Not just the armor, but ALL of it. The word whole would suggest that its success is dependent on its totality. So don’t skip parts because they’re too heavy to hold or…

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27 things

Today is my BIRTHDAYYYYYY!

In keeping with tradition I will be sharing some of the things I learned throughout my 27th year. Really wish I kept track on my notes app.

1. Consistency is key… And I lost that key before I had time make a copy lol. Hence when I’ve been so bad with the blog of late. Thowwy.

2. Remember it’s ok to extend the same grace that you give to others to yourself.

3. You…

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It's our anniversary!

It’s our anniversary!

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Today is the 2 year anniversary of the blog! LWSF has come a long way since 2018.. and by come a long way I mean things have stalled and I haven’t posted in a month. *nervous laughter*

I’m not sure if my interests have changed or if I just don’t have the time. Actually neither of those things are completely true. My interests have expanded and I make…

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It's not the end of the world

It’s not the end of the world

I’m taking a break to reassess whether I want to continue with the blog. I shouldn’t feel guilty about not posting and I do. I just haven’t been able to put my thoughts to paper… well not actual paper but you know what I mean. Will return from hiatus… eventually.

KLOVEYOUBYE.

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November 2019

So.

This year it has been really challenging to keep up with the goals I set for this blog. They weren’t even that lofty. Just an exercise in consistency, trying to ensure I post every 10 days. A lot has been happening at work So I have missed 2 posts so far. Trying to give myself some grace and understand that the fate of the universe really does not rest on how often I ramble on the internet. I…

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The Beach.

I went to the beach today.

I didn’t ask anyone to come with me, I didn’t wait til people would be free like on a weekend. I just decided to go and I went. The afternoon sun was blazing and I couldn’t find a shady spot so I wasted no time getting into the water. The stark contrast in temperature between the outside and the water was a jolt to my skin, but a welcome one.

The sea was so clear. The…

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Is it ok?

Is it really? Is it ok to not have it all together all the time? IS IT? Or is that just a thing people say to placate and encourage?

Is it really ok when you’re disappointed but you say it’s ok as a bridge to move on from said disappointment? That doesn’t seem ok.

Are you ok? When you say your are when someone asks if you are because you look like you aren’t? Are you? You aren’t, I know.

Why do…

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October 2019

Well guys. This month my goal was to get my act together. Sadly, my act is not yet gathered lol.

Some progress has been made. I am getting used to my new work environment and schedule. I’m learning things and my overall disposition has improved.

I have gained roughly 7lbs. Which sounds like a little but it has all gone to my back. What a life. Part of getting my act together includes spending…

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October 24th.

Today I am 27 years and 9 months old.

I only snoozed my alarm twice this morning. I had a boiled egg and a sandwich for breakfast. Such an adult wow.

I got to work and did work things. I am still at work doing work things.

Currently looking forward to the weekend because I only get a weekend off every 3 weeks. Also, it is Jounen kweyol this weekend (creole day for my non patois speaking friends)…

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About a blog

So.

My dwindling backlog of posts finally caught up with me and on October 4th, I forgot to write a blog entry.

The world as I knew it… remained pretty much the same.

Not sure how many of you have realized that I post on the 4th, 14th and 24th of each month, with the monthly recaps and the random food posts sprinkled in between. October 4th was my first lapse. I was kinda disappointed in myself,…

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September 2019

I’m tired.

Dassit.

That’s the recap for the month lol.

Thowwy.

I wrote these things. Please read them. If you want.

kloveyoubye.

Verse of the day: “Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer. From the end of the earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that is higher than I.” – Psalm 61:1&2

  One year (and two days) ago: September 2018

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But did I ask you though?

But did I ask you though?

*Deep Inhale*

  When you give input on my hair: It real hard. Feels surprisingly soft. You didn’t comb it today? You need to fix that. You should cut it. Dye it. Blow Dry it. Braid it. Loc it. Polka dot it. Countrify then hip hop it.

While searching for gifs of the hoe down throw down I found this gem.

  When you talk about my weight: You should do cardio instead of pilates. You should try…

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Delayed vs. Instant

By now y’all must know that more often than not, I have a first class seat on the hot mess express. Mint membership. Platinum tier. I. In. Deh.

Fix it Iyanla!

One of the things which contributes to my mess is my pursuit of instant gratification. A lot of the time it has to do with food, but it seeps into other aspects of my life as well. When it comes to food, I mean, ya girl can EAT. Since I…

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The horror.

Everything seemed to be going well. It was a regular day, just following my usual routine. Nothing out of the ordinary. I thought I was ready to move on but then I heard a sound.

It didn’t register at first. Familiar yet foreign at the same time. A clacking sound to my left. I turned and looked down.

What I saw defied reality. I didn’t understand how it happened but I knew I had seconds to act. I…

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August 2019

Bonjour friends. Or rather, Bonne nuit. My français is in shambles, je sais.

This month has been more of the same funk that has been plaguing me for the past couple months. IDK mehn, I thought I was on the ups but I just feel stuck. A general feeling of apathy.

I am a sham.

I wrote things this month that I liked. One based on a poem and the other was an ode to my sissies. Then there was much ado…

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This post isn't about anything in particular.

This post isn’t about anything in particular.

Consistency is key! But I suck at it. I’ve been doing so well keeping up with the blog posts in the time frame that I set for myself. I’m not sure if it’s cuz I’ve been stuck in a rut lately, but it’s becoming harder and harder to keep up. I wish I could blame this week’s fumble on the fact that my laptop isn’t working but I realized that I could also blog via my phone soooo no excuse there.

It’s…

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Sisters

So last year I wrote a post about my sister. I have one. But at the same time I have so many sisters now that I really didn’t know it until one day they were my sisters. There was a story that went viral where a woman had 34 bridesmaids and when I read it I joined with the internet it scoffing at the insanity of it all. Because who could even like 34 people!? So much that they’re IN YOUR…