Evolution
Things have changed.
Of course they have.
Things change
just as
things fall apart.
It’s inevitable
or whatever.
It’s skin
turned to bone
turned to dust
on winds that change
mountains into stone
and stone into dust
that settles
to become more stones
to protect bodies
made of bone and skin.
We change.
We evolve.
Things change
and things fall apart.
It’s inevitable.
~Patience
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When I think of June,
I think of you.
Those hot days
on your back porch,
you on a ladder
painting the side of the house,
me sitting on the stairs
in my panties
watching the sun
turn you golden.
I think of kissing
those tiny circles,
one after another,
floating behind your ear
and wrapping my legs
around your body
as you took me.
The weak air pumping
into the room,
never quite…
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Can't Be
Wounds can’t be covered.
Scars tear
at the sides of your mouth
wrenching your lips
into smiles,
those plastic kinds
that ooze fake joy.
Wounds can’t be hidden.
No matter your lengths to hide,
the rot squirms
under your skin,
boiling your insides
in panic and salt.
Wounds can’t be erased.
There is no disinfectant strong enough
to scrub the slime
off your walls,
off your shiny…
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Every Day
I promised myself I would post every day in November but I’m tired so I forgot and now I’m lying in the dark typing this so I can at least keep one promise to myself since I’m so much more likely to break them but I have no words tonight because the day was so long not for any particular reason except driving in the rain in the dark after work. I’m tired but at least I posted.
~Patience
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The last leaves of fall
shudder and float
in snow-tipped air.
I wonder if you feel it too.
Do you hear the frigid breeze
in your skin?
Do you wake and wait
for drifts in your drive
to keep you from work,
from the mundanity of Monday?
Do you hold her
under cozy white comforters
while he plays at the end of the bed
begging to go outside?
Do you whisper her name
while you watch the…
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Four Stars
What made you realize you were poor? Not “you didn’t have a pool” poor, but like “you lived in an RV” poor. I took a cruise to Alaska once and it was beautiful, but I remember stepping onto that ship and realizing just how poor I was, just how ordinary, how Nothing I was.
I’ve never been anywhere but thrift stores and flea markets. I get my new clothes on clearance. I drive used cars and…
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Crazy
I’m crazy and I know it.
I’ve always known it.
You don’t have to gaslight me
because I do it to myself
every day.
I try to remember what I said
but the words vanish in my grasp,
float away like a child’s balloon
and I’m left crying and confused
because I don’t know how helium works.
I’m crazy and I know it.
It’s always in a little blue box
in the back of my head
and it wants out.
It…
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Fall
Rain clouds drift
in slate skies
threatening to drench us
in its tears.
The pine trees
wave,
falter,
dance
in the wind,
their branches
shaking free,
dropping needles
into the crisp fall air.
The storm begins,
thunder crashing,
breaking the quiet,
not knowing
the rain has been falling
from my liquid heart
for years.
~Patience
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Passenger
I used to love the drive.
Thinking about your lips on my skin,
your fingers entwined in my hair.
The anticipation.
Now I hate driving
because all that’s left are
shadows,
ghosts of your eyes
in the passenger seat.
~Patience
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Closure (maybe)-- Conversations in My Head
“I loved you, you know. More than I wanted to.”
“That’s not true.”
“Yes it is. It’s more true than anything else I’ve felt besides my love for her.”
“You never said anything.”
“I tried.”
“No you didn’t.”
“I asked if you wanted to be with me. You said no. You didn’t want a relationship, any relationship. “
“I lied.”
“Why?”
“I don’t know and now I fucking hate you.”
“Why?”
“Because…
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Lungs
You breathed me to life,
lips leaving wisps of fire
against my skin, and air filled my lungs
in waves of wind,
suffocating me
in the heat of need,
the insanity of desperation.
And I wondered
why it took so long
to taste the way life felt
when you were beside me
filling me with your oxygen,
creating my curves and edges
to fit inside your own.
How was I to know
the missing
would…
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Pieces
Heart torn in four pieces.
Atriums and ventricles beating apart,
distance seen through cracks
held together by thread,
tiny sinews clutching
at the shards of a once beating muscle
meant for all the love.
Breaking,
shattering
when whole is needed
instead of real.
Four knives
ripping my flesh,
the blood which makes life,
the possibility of complete.
They tear me,
slice into each…
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Hopeless
My tears won’t recede from my eyes
the way the sea leaves the shore.
They pool in egg-shaped patches
where my knees once begged you to stay.
They fill empty cups of coffee-stained tables
where you drew pictures of Christmas
and held my hand to your heart while we slept.
The tears won’t fade
as the ink from old newspapers
stain wrinkled fingers.
They saturate my ticking clocks
carried…
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Destroy the Ache
I destroy all of this ache,
this infinite pain wedged inside my bones.
I kill this agony,
this vast hurt rolled up under my skin.
I end all of this yearning,
this deep cavern of empty hiding in my heart.
I demolish this longing,
this hungry predator sleeping in my eyes.
Instead
I build this body,
this shining tower of strength and grit buried in my soul.
I bolster this spirt,
this…
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Twelve Pounds
The weight of it.
A building so tall
it topples the mountains surrounding
the heavy inside it.
Magnitude resting in tiny hands
inside stranger’s hands
inside a room so large
it crushes every heart inside.
The mass of this ache
balloons to huge,
the volume expanding to infinite
all while staring at something
so small
it’s likely to disappear
while leaving
a mark so dark that
it…
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I don’t know if I was meant to love
you but I do.
I don’t know if we were supposed to be
but we were
and now I don’t know
how to move beyond “supposed to.”
I don’t know
how to end the ache of you
when I hear your name
or remember your touch.
I don’t understand
how I’m supposed to live without you
when I see you in every inch of her face.
I’m not sure
how I’m supposed to say…
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Visions
My dreams brim with your voice,
the sad eyes she now looks at me with,
and I wonder if it was ever real.
If you were there
or if you were just this hot vision
spilling fantasy I deemed reality.
I can still feel your lips on my neck,
your fingers wrapped in my hair.
I can still hear your voice saying my name,
telling me you’d never leave,
yet here I am alone,
dreaming instead of…
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