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I'm so bad at writing posts!!! I'm actually thinking of going to WordPress instead and going back to my old tumblr. 😐 I had a list of topics to discuss annnnnnd I lost it. I'm going to try and get organized again. Because I do want to write things and even little essays using research and stuff to. I just wanna pour myself into a blog. And I will always always love tumblr. It's my love. However, it's not serving my current purpose right now and I miss my old account. Soooo. This is goodbye. 👋 it's been great. Even though I have minut followers and such. Ta ta! I'm gonna keep this account open so I can always look back or others can. But I'm going to move to WordPress. I've decided.! 🤓

My WordPress is: greeneyedgirl95.wordpress.com

It Will be updated today hopefully since it's looking pretty new and empty 😅

Farewell tumblr. 💜

If you're curious... my other account is:

andtheacarzwillfadewaway.tumblr.com

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Made a logo. It's slightly off center though- _____-

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Little tips for when you feel bad and don’t know why.

-Ask yourself the last time you drank some water. Drink a few sips even if it wasn’t long ago. Coffee doesn’t count (neither does soda unless it’s the only option) 

-When was the last time you ate? Get a small snack if able.

-Are ANY of your clothes too tight or uncomfortable? This includes socks, headbands, hats, and shoes.

-Stretch! Pop those shoulders, arch that back, straighten those legs. It Helps.

-If you happen to stim, do it! Do whatever feels right!

-Look for sounds, smells, etc. That are bothering you.

-Get your headphones and put on whatever music makes you feel happy/good/energetic.

-Loosen your shoulders, take some deep breaths. Drop your head and loosely roll your head. Try to relax as many muscles as you can.

-Close your eyes for a second.

-Did you take your meds (if you have them)? Do you need to take a Tylenol, ibuprofen Etc.?

-Are there allergens in the vicinity, are there any allergy medications you need to take?

-Breath deep.

I am by no means a professional and I don’t know what could be causing it but I know that these are kind of helpful. I’m not you and you aren’t me so these might not work. If the feeling bad is medical attention worthy, these might not help.

However, I hope that this does help someone.

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Haven't shared a picture of my crayfish Bubblez in a hot minute. 😍 #crayfish #pet #crawfish #aquarium

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I'm now addicted to doing these. My dad helped me with this. But omg. I want to do this all the time. #geode #crystals #gemstones #motherearth #thanksdad

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August has been relapse month for me. My drinking and cutting. I'm tired all the time. August has been exhausting. Not even bad which is the sad part. I'm just tired and emotional. And I'm really over being bipolar most days. I wished for the confirmation of this diagnosis bc I thought it would make me feel less crazy. Which I do but I do get more frustrated about it and I have alot allot of why me bullshit going on lately. I know things will get better. My doctor wants me to be 5 weeks sober so then we know how the meds are truly working. And she wants me to be on a routine. Routines are hard. Tracking my moods is hard. My best friend moved to kansas... That's hard. Breathing is hard right now.

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Today I had a Psych Doctor appointment and for the first time my answer to a question was different. "Do you have any suicidial ideations?" "No" This is huge. Not only am I feeling better. A little bit anyway I haven't been haunted by my mind. My meds are starting to do their magic.

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My heart. ❤ so full. My body 🎶 swaying forever. She's amazing and I've loved her since day 1. I'm so proud of her for all shes overcome. It blows that so many people struggle with sexual assult and/or eating disorders. And so much more Been there. Done that. Time to rise up and become the strongest baddest bitch ever. �� #kesha #kesharainbow #newmusic #loveher #empowering #motherfuckingwoman #praying #hymn #letemtalk #bastards #learntoletgo #findingyou #rainbow #boogie #huntyoudown #boots #oldflames #dollyparton #godzilla #spaceship #musicsaveslives

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Ello! I'm sorry I've been so absent. I suck I know. It's been moody central over here. August is a hard month with my mom passing. So that's an attribution. My best friend is moving away which is another trigger. And my other best friend and i have been on the rocks. We're trying to mwnd things but it's hard. Things just need to take 1 day at a time. On a good news my boyfriend amd I are at such a healthy place it's wonderful. I've found aa and more alanon meetings to Fil my time up on the weeknights. I went to one this evening and it was wonderful. My dad also wants me to go to an outpatient program. Which he went ahead and made an appointment for tomorrow. I know he means well but that's alot all at once. But i will try and update more. Just gotta set more time aside for my mental health and hopefully this program will be good for me. Cheers to yalls recovery. ❤ #lifeupdate #beenawhile #outpatient #boyfriend #bestfriend #Moving #bigchanges #12step

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Goodbye beach 🌹

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Happy birthday mommy.! Rest in peace always. 💐

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Just because you go to a retreat doesn't mean you have to participate in it all. That's what I've learned this weekend. This weekend truly was for me. I absolutely love the man who leads it but I came in here pretty worn out from this week and i gave myself permission to rest. Emotionally I was a nightmare but spiritually I was free and i was alive (even if it didn't look like it lol) physically I was pretty exhausted the whole weekend, but that's okay. I was able to hang out by the beach all weekend. I saw the sunrise. I went to a 6am meeting (don't do that if you're used to a routine 😂) I spoke to the key note about what's been going on with me in the last 8 months since we've met. (Friends on fb now) one thing that this weekend has shown me was my social anxiety. Oh my god I hate the dining hall and the conference room. I litterally can't breathe and i feel like I'm going to cry. But God does amazing things, and I'm able to stick it out for the most part. I skipped alot yesterday but I did alot of personal growth and self care (Even if I got sunburned) in the meantime. Today is leaving day. We get up. We pack. We eat. Have our last conference. And head out if we don't want to grab lunch. I've had a great time here despite some of my shortcomings. And I've been working Step 7 a bit. Actually I've been working all the steps a little bit this whole weekend. Wow. I stepped away from program. But man am i ready to dive back in head first. ! Thank you God for this amazing opportunity. I don't express my gratitude enough. I don't think I would have gratitude if it wasn't for this program. I'm speaking in a couple weeks and holy shit I'm feeling so much more inspired and ready. ❤ #retreat #aa #alanon #oa #speakers #longislandsound #program #12steps #unconditionallove #progressnotperfection #slogans #toolsoftheprogram

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I'm at a serenity retreat this weekend at a beach and it's all I've ever wanted 💕 #serenity #retreat #alanon #aa #oa #longislandsound #beach #vitaminsea #seagulls

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I look back on the past 8 months to how destroyed i was. He crushed me and i lost myself. But slowly I've rebuilt myself and slowly now with the correct support systems in my life things have gotten much better. I'm with someone who i love and were equals and honest with eachother and it's not a dramatic relationship. Hes calm and therefore I'm more calm. I think back to all the relationships I tried to fix it change myself so someone would stay. But he wants me for who i am all of me and it's a beautiful thing i have I'm so thankful for him. ❤😍 #boyfriend #exboyfriend #reflections #thenandnow #thankful #relationships

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There will be a blog post soon! There might be 2 😲 it's going to be about my current relationship and my manic episodes this week. ✌

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IF YOUR BOYFRIEND MAKES JOKES ABOUT YOUR BODY, WEIGHT, EATING DISORDER, RECOVERY, ETC, MAKE A JOKE ABOUT HOW HE’S SINGLE AND THEN WALK OUT THE DOOR BECAUSE THAT IS SOME FUCKEN BULLSHIT AND YOU ARE A BAD BITCH WHO DESERVES BETTER OK OK

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