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Oh Grateful Dead, we're really in it now

Check out my comms!

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“Ain’t no time to hate, barely time to wait.”

— Grateful Dead, Uncle John’s Band

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To the person who commented “Kelly was there at my lowest”

real

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I used to kiss the same fingers that typed that sarcastic bullshit

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pretentious moment incoming but why is everyone's idea of fashion so fucking boring these days. why the fuck did my manager just ask me "what's with the scarf". "what's with the scarf" fuck man do I need a reason to wear a faggy little scarf now? you could just say "nice scarf man". what's with your attitude

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hey chat

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Memories from my grandparent's yard.

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Kiki Smith: ‘Constellation’ at Nelson-Atkins Museum of Art (1996)

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i hope u are free

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i love my friends so much

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i do not hear his name in the leaves as i rake.

i do not miss getting so high i see her standing, waiting in my door frame.

i do not miss getting so drunk i feel the warmth of his love in my throat.

i do not notice the grown man at the diner never make eye contact.

i do not notice the grown man at the diner hug me hips-first.

i do not notice my mother looking closer at my skin.

i do not notice the security guard looking at me in disgust.

i do not notice my memory of last october fading.

i do not notice my memory of this october fading.

i do not remember when i stopped missing, noticing, remembering.

i do not plan to remember.

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if i were to show at my father’s doorstep, would he look at me with the eyes of the man who created me or the eyes of the man who left me? would he let me in or turn me away as he did my mother?

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🌸Today's BONUS Miku "figure" is:🌸

Taito DoQuote Sakura Super Oversized Plush ver. (2024)

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miss u girl

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the stars are the freckles on your face. i wish you’d stayed.