mabluesoul

[mabluesoul]

“I think it’s very healthy to spend time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person.”

— Oscar Wilde

[mabluesoul]

“I just want someone who will love me. when I do not know how to love myself.”

— Beau Taplin, “Priorities”

[mabluesoul]

i was not made for hookup culture, i was made for the most soul crushing experience ever. i was born to feel everything entirely and endlessly. i was made to feel everything deeply

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someone: how do you cope with your mental illness?

me:

me: well first i don’t

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The thing about depression that you know you are depressed but couldn’t do anything. You cry over a night, wake up at the next day, and still depressed. That is suck!

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I realize that break up doesn’t mean that you will leave out of my life forever. You still here, still exist, not go anywhere, right inside my heart, as long as I still fall in love with you.

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I’m tired of everything.

I’m tired of feeling like a burden.

I’m tired of feeling like I’m not good enough.

I’m tired of not being good enough.

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Maybe, maybe.

Maybe I’m not meant for anyone after all.

c / all time does is pass

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I have a lot of thinking in my mind that I couldn’t say even a word.

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what if I told you the truth?

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Have you ever wake up and realize that you just want to click the exit button to sign out of this world?

But life is not a game. You can’t restart from level 1.

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I didn’t know that the last time I see you. I couldn’t say goodbye.

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This world is so harsh sometimes, that people need deep into pain to change themselves and mistake it is love.

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You are my whole world. But my whole world is falling apart now.

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Reunion after (physical) trauma prompts

tws apply: grief/fear for someone’s life, mention of injuries, unconsciousness, hospitals, comas, mention of involuntary drugging. that’s the general vibe.

WORDS

“Theeeere you are. Hi. Welcome back.”

“Breathe. Hi, we found you, just breathe for me, okay?”

“This is going to hurt, but it will help you.”

“You’re safe. [Name], can you hear me? They’re here to help you, you need to let them help you.”

“I found them, they’re over here!”

“Does anyone have medical training?”

“N.. no, no, no, no, hey. [Name]? Hi, I’ve got you.”

“You can sleep, [name]. It’s over.”

“I’ll still be here when you wake up.”

“You were in an induced coma. Your body went through a lot.”

“I wasn’t –… Your doctors weren’t sure you’d wake up.”

“[Name]? Was that - did you squeeze my hand?”

“It’s okay. It’s meant to be there, it’s helping you breathe.”

“Can you hear me?”

“You.. you were so close to dying. I was scared.”

ACTIONS

[ GATHER ] for sender to gather receiver’s (unconscious) body into their arms, in the style of no no no not them.

[ STARING ] for sender to find receiver sitting alone staring at a wall, covered in blood, and to touch their arm.

[ WAITING ] for sender to be waiting at receiver’s hospital bedside when receiver finally comes out of a coma, or wakes from surgery.

[ STEADY ] for sender to catch or steady receiver when receiver tries to stand up too early or to push their body past what it’s ready for

[ TEARS ]  for receiver to find tears on sender’s face, when they’re finally reunited (either immediately after the trauma, or waking up in a hospital), because sender thought receiver was dead or dying

[ GRIEF ]  for receiver to wake up just as sender is saying goodbye, because the doctors told them to. feel free to specify what they might be saying. do not judge me, this is going in the meme

[ LETTER ] for sender to find a last letter, video, text, etc that receiver made for them, thinking they wouldn’t make it out of the situation alive. Obviously receiver does make it out alive, but the letter/video still exists (and receiver will detail what’s in it).

[ FIGHT ] for receiving muse to not recognize sender or medical staff trying to help them, due to being drugged or otherwise disoriented – so they fight.

[mabluesoul]

I’m sorry but I can’t handle this shit anymore.