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First Love # 1

He was her first love. She didn’t knew it that fast. It takes twenties of months and few years. She just realized she had fallen in love with him when he was always on her mind. Or in her life. She wrote every single happy moments on her diary, she can’t take her eyes off him.

He is a perfect man. Really perfect in her eyes. Little did she know, he also have a lot of imperfections. But in her…

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Blog# 12 Achy Heart

Heal the broken heart Every time you're sad Always think for a better one Right person comes to the right time Think of it as a motivation to live Because at the end of the day Rules of love will always be fantasy and tragic Everything will be a dream and a nightmare All it take is to allow yourself to be happy and contented Know that the right one will soon, come.

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Blog# 11 Sunset

I was the sky, still and fine She was the stars, beauty and shine You are the one, high up in the night sky Without you the night wouldn't show up I guess I was just a light and darkness Plain and nothing else She was the aesthetic Perfect and the best Who am I? To be compared to a star A poor cinderella A strange repunzel And you are the nightseeker I am nothing and I was everybody She was somebody, Standing out Beautiful in the night sky A darkness, I am. I won't chase the beautiful sight every night I don't want to bring chaos and storms I prefer to remain just a darkness Silence and covered with ashes The time I chose to be gone, forever Was better Than to stay longer Seeing you better with another one The story didn't stopped You showed out of nowhere I remembered It was the last night I would show until before I go Then you told me "You are my everything, darkness. I like it better when I am with you. A star, yes, she was beautiful and precious. But look and see how a star can shine without darkness? It was you." I sighed. I cried. I poured rain. Why just now? It wasn't a happy ending story I still chose to left you I was there, always And yet, I waited for too long for you to come over me Years passed. I was the light That gives sunshine to everyone We weren't able to see each other And I don't think, we will ever be I became a day seeker. And you were the night seeker. Only A glimpse of mine you would see You always waited for me to go Sunset They say I still love you And yet I left you Love will find a way A nightseeker and a dayseeker together? Who knows? It was a hard thing for me to do It was beyond the line I chose to left you Because I don't want Love to come easy I know If we are meant for each other It will find a way I chose to wait longer Than Be together faster I hope you understand, my night seeker. I love you to the moon and back ♡

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To A

Gusto kitang tulungan sa mga problema mo dahil iyon yung dapat kong gawin bilang isang kaibigan mo. Hindi ko alam yung gagawin ko sa tuwing magtatanong ako kung ano problema at ang isasagot mo lang ay “wala hahahaha” o kaya naman ay “nevermind mo na lang”. Hindi ko alam kung ang dapat ko bang gawin ay lapitan at suyuin ka, pilitin ka ng sabihin yung problema mo para matulungan kita o dapat bang wag na lang at i change topic nalang? Alam mo sa side ko, ang sakit pre eh. Kasi parang wala lang ako. Parang hindi ako nagma-matter as a friend mo kasi di mo naisip na “dapat malaman nya to”. Pilit kong iniintindi yung side mo na baka ang nasa isip mo ay ayaw mo akong madamay dun or maging malungkot. Pero paano? Kung katok ako ng katok pero yung pintuan eh walang door knob. Ayaw mo akong pagbuksan. Kanina, sabi mo sa akin feeling mo makakasakit ka. Sabi ko sayo, choice mo yun kung makakasakit ka o hindi. Pero dahil sa ayaw mong makasakit ka nang ibang tao, pinipili mo yung alternative, mas nakakasakit ka pa : ( Kung may dalawang daan kang pagpipilian sa paglalakbay mo, sa kanan; yung makakasakit tapos sa kaliwa naman; yung hindi makakasakit, pwede ka namang wag ng tumuloy tapos bumalik ka nalang ulit : ( ayaw mong makaskait diba? Pero ngayon, alam mo nasa isip ko? Na kahit gustong gusto kitang tulungan pero ayaw mo magsalita, gusto ko malaman mo na nandito ako. Nage-exist ako as kaibigan mong mahal na mahal ka. I love you, Angge!!

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So hey guysss! This is what i’m currently working on right now. Pero it doesn’t mean na hindi na ako magu-update dito. This is my personal blog while yung moonstone naman is for everyone. Sana the poeple who are in here ay magkaroon ng time to go and visit my other blog : ) Visit it and you’ll see the things you never knew before! It is not too late to discover more things and be open sa mga ino-offer ng life sa atin. Links are above : ) I know there’s no article the last month but babawi ako, promise. Because it’s our vacation na at more poems and reviews to come, yay!!

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BLOG# 11 My Definition of Love

Love makes you feel so wonderful and special That fade and clear out all the sadness And will always be with you until the end and last To love someone is not to give everything but just kindness And love and sweetness And bravery and boldness To give a fulfillment and happiness Love was worth fighting for It has weakness and temptations But with a strong foundation Escaping it was an easy job To not do alone, but together Love makes you wait and suffer It's talent is to make you feel so burdened and hurt Love makes you special and truthful It's talent is to make you feel so love and beautiful It was a journey that would take a hundred thousand miles Without a mapping and directions A travel and walk with your guide, dolce amore And would bring you the best of the best after a hundred thousand miles. All the love, Charissa

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BLOG# 10 HULING LABAN

Hindi ko malilimutan ang iyong mga binitawang mga salita

Tahan na, hindi kita iiwan

Mahal, patapos na sana ang huli nating laban

Ngunit ako'y naluha ng ika'y biglang nagpaalam.

 Sa ating pagmamahal, hindi ba maaaring bituin nalang tayo?

Na sa tuwing gabi'y sasapit naroon tayo't magkasama at hindi maglalaho?

Ngunit ngayon tayo'y naging araw at buwan

Sa bawat pagdilat at pagpikit ng ating mga mata

Sa panaginip lamang makikita

Kahit kaila'y hindi pagtatagpuin ng tadhana?

 Hahayaan nalang ba natin na sumapit ang panibagong araw nang wala ang isa't isa?

Papahintulutan ko na ba ang aking puso na hayaan ka nang mawala?

Mahal, hindi tayo sumuko, hindi natin nakaya

Ang laban na ibinabato sa atin ng mundo

Ang laban na isinusugal ng mga sandata ng orasan

Na ang tanging kakampi natin ay ang isa't isa lamang

 Ito na ba ang huli nating laban?

Na puro katanungan at kaguluhan?

Maari bang itigil ito sa mga bakit at paano?

At matapos nalang sa ikaw at ako?

Ito na ba ang huli nating laban?

This is for my friend joyce because she's currently not feeling so good. I mean, her heart

All the love,

Charissa

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BLOG# 9 I DARE YOU TO KNOW MY FRIEND

She was a candle light her up and she'll glow And she can handle; the pain and warm that flow She was a pillow Who gives comfort to her fellow a pillow that is soft Who have a gentle heart She was a drink; A juice to be specific She gives us comfort We'll always seek for She was a strawberry Red and cherry cheeks Her eyebrows always on fleek She was everything She was loved and worth for everything She lights up our world And Losing her Will be such a big nightmare to us This is for my friend, joyce and i wish her the happiest birthday!

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BLOG# 8 I MEAN LIKE, WHY?

Did you ever feel like being locked up in a jail without doing something wrong but people just keep on accusing you and you dont know what to do? Hey guys so that's what i am feeling right now. I know my job in this blog is to inspire, motivate you and just spread good vibes. I am so sorry i broke that. It's just that i have nowhere room to go to scream and tell everyone what i truly feel. I mean like why people need to be harsh and just makes us feel bad? And at the end, though we did the right thing, in the end, it turns out that, we did the wrong thing. And that feels so shit. I mean, why? Did you ever feel like you know the answers on your questions but those freaking questions felt like they don't need and deserve the right question even proved? I mean like why does things need to be turned that way? I mean, why? Why do we have to feel being so burdened? Why do we have to suffer from saving ourselves from the incredible people around us? I mean like, why? Why can't people just ignore us and forgive us? I mean like why do they need to brag every single thing happened in the past? To be continued----

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BLOG# 7 FIRST BOOK REVIEW

#UNFILTERED BOOK OF THE PESSIMISTIC OPTIMIST BELLA

Yup, I Am That Girl by Maine Mendoza

 It was a few months ago since I bought this book of Maine Mendoza. Frankly speaking, I am not really a fan of her. I just love how she communicate to the people and be real to the people inside or outside of her world. So let me tell you a story why I bought a book from my “not really a fan of” person. I was scrolling in my twitter account and I just saw the tweet of Barbie Forteza. She posted a picture and tagged maine’s account. Forteza thanked her for what’s written in the book because it kinda cheered her up. And when I checked it, what’s written on the book was, “why haters hate you”, I just get inspired and wanna bought that book. You guys know how much I love books! So I went to sm national bookstore but sadly, wala. I’m so sad back then. Kasi parang yun yung pinunta ko sa sm. Tapos yon ilang araw, in front of our school there was a bookshop and I am so freaking shookt!! Because I never thought they would sell it! That time, I don’t have any money, so the next day, I bought it immediately because someone might have bought it haha! Book lovers know!! So maine’s book is 295 pesos and don’t worry I won’t spoil you if you were planning to buy this book haha! Okay this intro is so long, gotta go with the review yay!

 I swear this book is worth paid off. You can just rely on this book if you’re sad or upset, if you need motivation, love hugots, tips in life and more. She shares her dreams, goals, failures and much more! As much as I would want to share with you everything, I couldn’t because I don’t want to spoil you haha! I will just share with you some of the things I learned in her book and give you some reasons why you should buy this book. I would love to if you would message me and talk stuffs about this book :)

 10 OUT OF HUNDRED THINGS LESSONS SHE SHARED ON HER BOOK:

      “She didn’t let the opportunity pass her by. She was so damn proud of herself for talking the chance and not letting fear stop.”

      “Nothing’s impossible in this world-not even your wildest dreams. If it’s for you, it’s for you.”

      “If we really want something in life, we have to work hard for it. Besides, nothing worth having comes easy.”

      “You have to work and deal with different kinds of people whether you like it or not.”

      “Do not give a shit about what other people think.”

      “Humans can be really complicated and unpredictable but we do find gems in some.”

      “No amount of diamonds can ever come close to the value of true friendship. Treasure it and take good care of it.”

      “Love isn’t something that you beg for; it is something that is given to you freely and without questions asked.”

      “It isn’t actually bad to follow what your heart tells you; follow your heart, pero ‘wag ka masyadong tanga. Gamitin din dapat ang utak.”

      “Haters have thought me the best way to deal with them is to KILL THEM WITH KINDNESS.”

 WHY YOU SHOULD BUY THIS BOOK

Tagalog nalang para may feels hahahaha

Simple lang, eto yung book na makaka-relate ka sa kahit anong sitwasyon ang pinagdadaanan mo. Kahit you’re not a fan of her, magugustuhan mo parin to. I swear. Minsan kasi dumadaan tayo sa point na akala natin tayo lang yung nam-mroblema ng bagay na yun pero malalaman mong marami kang karamay, nasa malayo nga lang. This book is soooo worth it! Super relate to kahit bata ka pa or matanda, specially sa mga teens! Let me know if you have read this book :)

All the love,

Charissa

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BLOG# 6 My Lost Star

It hurts to be forgotten by you

Specially when I know the feeling was true

I ain ‘t special in any way

For I know in your eyes;

You ain ‘t feeling the same way.

 In my life, you were this shining star

Brightening all the way;

Travelling from afar.

 You were this shining star

That came to my zone;

Travelling to my world;

Nothing but nothing more.

 I see the existence of your light everyday

As each day, everyday, to be exact

I see my eyes glaring everyday

And the star that never gets tired of travelling

And myself who gets tired of waiting;

To wait again for the light of the star;

The star……to wait……again…..

 I waited for you for a long time

For the star who will remain;

For the star who will lighten just me;

And won’t search for anything but the main

To stop wandering

And I, and I…….

 I started not to see the shining star;

To not see the glaring eyes I have before;

Before….

 For a Moon just came

And I can’t see the shining of the star

Because of the sudden arrive of the moon

That changes everything and everything.

 The moon who keeps on darkening and covering;

The light the shining star; I once see

And that moon started to confuse me;

He started to confuse me.

 All the love,

Charissa

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BLOG#5 WHERE HAVE I BEEN?

Yup girl, Christmas passed, new year’s eve & day passed, holidays passed, where have I been? I guess I forgot that I created a blog I must work on. I’ve been struggling with the so called “blog disease” which I always had since before. I sometimes lack ideas, vocabulary and so I get so lazy. And also these past few days, I’ve been working on vlogging. If you don’t know what vlogging is; it is the sharing of your day through social media and is more popular on youtube. You are recording all the events you are in and ofc it’s like a diary or documentary. People will also get to know you more there just like in blogging. I have done 3 vlogs and 2 finished and edited vlog. Tbh, the first one is my basis and trial so all in all, I have done 2 vlogs hehehe. Those are the new year’s eve and new year’s day. I am still thinking if I would share it here but uhmm yeah, let’s see? Comment down or message me if you want me to and you can also repost this post. Thankyou! I would be happy if you would love to see the vlog I made:)  

All the love,

Charissa

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BLOG# 4 AN OPEN CHRISTMAS LETTERS FOR MY LOVED ONES

It’s Three Days Till Christmas! In my fifteen years of existence I am so blessed to have my whole complete family with me every Christmas. We all know the true meaning of Christmas; God’s love for us and of course the happiness around the world; the universe rather. The giving of gifts is what we look forward to of course because it signifies the good deeds we’ve done to the people around us. And for this blog number 4, I never thought of making an open letter for my family and friends but yeah it just happened that I have a free time since I don’t have any new movies and Korean dramas to watch, why not listen to Christmas songs and feel the sunny but cold weather today while making a letter for my family & friends. Again, consider yourself a lucky one to found this blog and be able to read my letter for my loved ones. So here it is…….

For the lovebirds who always shows us their unconditional love,

         Merriest Christmas Parents! I may not be the sweetest and kindest daughter you may have but I can be the daughter who will always be there and will always be ready to give back the love you have given to me. In return for your hard work since 2002, I will study harder and fulfil your dreams. Know that despite of my kakulitan, I will always be grateful for all the sacrifices you’ve done to us and I promise till my last breath that I will love the both of you unconditionally. Thanks for being my teacher who teaches me how to deal with life, my doctor who never gets tired of taking care of me since I was little, for being a soldier who protects me from harm and temptations and lastly, for being an angel sent by God that reminds my heart of being so blessed to have a wonderful gift I’ve ever received in my life; the family. I Love you mommy and dada, forever and always.

For the butterfly who never gets tired of soaring high,

       Have a merry Christmas with me my other half yieeee! We’ve been together since 2002, and I may not treasure and remember those memories back then but there’s a thing that I never question before because you always reminds me how much you love me in your own ways. We sometimes didn’t get along well because of my cynical view and misunderstandings but what’s so cool and best about us is no matter how high the wall is separating between us, we still manage to climb up that wall and understand each other. You are my best friend for I know you are the kindest and one of the best thing in the whole world. I look forward to make a lot of memories together and I couldn’t promise or I couldn’t say I will be the best sister ever but I’ll try to be one for you, and that’s the gift I wanted to give  you not just in Christmas but till the rest of my life for the rest of the world to see. I love you to the moon and back Ate Yana! I’m so blessed to have you!

For the sun who is always chasing me or us,

       You are the one of the best gifts I received since I was born and losing you is such a big nightmare for me. Your simple little ways touches my heart, Merry Christmas Nanay Miling! I am so blessed to have a grandmother who never forgets of her grandchildren every single day that she wouldn’t let the day pass without seeing us safe and loved. I, also nanay, I hope you know how much I love you and I thanked you for always being there when I need a hand sometimes. You are the best nanay and lola! So much love! Merry Christmas!

For all the daisies and flowers that adds color to my life,

My friends who never give up on me. I am so honest in front of these people, I show them the real me and I don’t have to cover anything in myself for I know they accept who I really am. All of you are so special to me and no words can explain how much I love you that aside from my family, there is still some people even though we are not blood related, we still love each and every one of us.

Beberlie     - You’re the transferee student who transferred to our school. At first, I thought, we will never get along. I am afraid. I chose not to be close with you because I am afraid that other students may also make fun of you because you’re with me and angel. So the friendly version of me left and let you go and be with others. And there I made a very huge mistake in my life. That time I realize to not look down on myself and that it is not me who have a problem but the people around us have a different heart. Thank you for staying! I will forever treasure the times we cry and laugh together. You’ll always be remembered, Merry Christmas!

Angel     - You are truly an angel sent by God. It’s our third anniversary as best friends! You matters to me and I hope you know that. You are more than you can be. And I know, you will always be there for me and that you got my back always. You heard a lot of secrets and I also have a lot of rants I’ve shared with you hahahaha. But I will forever treasure all the happiness we’ve shared. Merriest Christmas Rein!

Joyce & Elaine     - I miss seeing the both of you hug each other and fight, you are the cutest tandem ever! I hope starting next year or even today, the both of you will be back like what you guys are used to or if not, I still hope you treat each other as your ultimate best friend, sister and partners for life! You people are better than a boy & girl in a relationship. You people are the sweetest! I love the both of you !

Julienne, Jhordane, Danielle     - Yayy! We all have our own sweet and funny moments together! Julienne, I thanked you for being my second ate and know that I will always be here and I got your back always! Jhordane, never get tired of chasing your dreams and doing all the things you love, I will always be here for you to support you no matter what. Danielle, whenever I see you I laugh sometimes because we always caught something by our own eyes, together, some epic fails and really funny things around. The three of you, have a great merry Christmas and I love the all of you!

Angeline     - I never thought of being friends with you when I was grade 7 but I do believe that first impressions are the opposite of who are really they. You are the best and of all the friends, you are always ready to sacrifice yourself for the good of your friend or even to the people that really doesn’t matter. In short you are a kind human being and a very loving daughter and sister! And I’ve seen all of that. Remember that I will always be here for you till the end! So much love and have a happy holidays!

Hannah and Bianca     - Hannah, you are the best seatmate ever, as in! You are the coolest one you don’t let bad vibes ruin your day. You’re the positive one and I appreciate all the efforts and things you have done to me. Bianca, I owe you so much. I know you know why but remember that when you are crying I’ll be your handkerchief and when you’re smiling and laughing I’ll always be by your side sharing those happiness and memories together. I got the back of the both of you! You people teaches me a lot of lessons is my life.

Yay and that ends my letter for my loved ones. Those people are the one who truly made my 2017 and end it with a lesson I will never forget. Thank you so much Papa God, I’m more than blessed to have all of these people around me in my life. Have a merry Christmas and God bless us all!

All the love,

Charissa

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BLOG# 3 MY FACE ROUTINE

Hey here we go again, talking about things but for this article, my first ever, as in first post ever about make up? Not really make up but the routine I do on my skin. Not really a skin care basta the routine I do on my skin.

I usually don’t put make ups on my face because first, I don’t know how and second, my face is kind of sensitive. So these are all the basic ones.

My routine starts after I took a bath, I clean my face with clean and clear foaming wash. I won’t let the water dry on my face *because of some reasons*. So after I wash my face, I’ll wipe it with a tissue *yup,tissue I don’t use towels because again, for some reasons*, then I apply Eskinol. After I do all the stuffs I need to do, I will now put normal powder on my face, not the loose one. Then I’ll apply particular lip balm on my lips to keep it moisturize and to prevent the dryness. Next is I’ll apply the ever Bilena lip & cheek tint in the shade very red or the glam that i bought in Watsons which i believe is just 70 plus and apply it on my cheek bones. I don’t use it on my lips *because of some reasons* Lastly, I’ll add lip tint on my lips. I usually use the Careline that I bought in Watsons which I believe is just below 100. It add colors on my lips of course but it depends if my lips are dry or not. I’m not a pro to give you some advice and tips but I will still give you some and I hope you’ll find this very helpful!

1.)    Do not add the same lip tint you use on your lips for sanitary.

2.)    It is best to put your cheek tint on your cheek bones also in the nose bridge and blend it so so so well, it looks good; I swear.

3.)    No setting powder? No problem. To have a beautiful finished cheek, blend it with a normal powder. Just tap tap tap.

4.)    If you’re addict to wet lips, make sure to apply just a small amount because we do not want some watery look on our lips like we just finished drinking water and not wiping it off on our lips.

5.)    Do not add lip tint on your lips if it is dry because it might cause some crack on your lips. And to be honest, it doesn’t really look so good.

I hope I helped you!

All the love,

Charissa

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BLOG #2 DEALING WITH THE FAST FORWARD EMO

You may or may not encounter this feeling when sometimes, you just feel so bored and wan to fast forward the day to another day. I do feel the same thing and I don’t think this is healthy for us. Why? Because the more we want the day to pass the more we ignore the second chances and opportunities life may bring. Yup, I know that’s a deep one but this just simply teaches us a lesson to live our life to the fullest. Okay now the real talk, I want to share with you some important things you must always keep on your mind to help you deal and cope with the fast forward thing.

1.)    Enjoy the little things – These are all the things that we people seldom see and these are also the things which truly matters. Living a simple life, meditating watching how the birds fly and clouds move. In the end, all those things will stay and will always be there, waiting for you to find their worth. Gratitude and wealth will all be gone and won’t last long. In the end it all doesn’t even matter anyway.

2.)    Live life to the fullest – Life is too short to not enjoy the ride. We shouldn’t feel so anxious about the struggles we are having to make us feel the fast forward emo. For we should be grateful God had given us the opportunities to be with him, always. It was a fun roller coaster ride with the ups and downs but then again, life is too short, whatever happens, there is an end, in everything. Cheer up! And just like what Albert Einstein said, life is like riding a bicycle, in order to keep your balance, you have to keep moving.

3.)    Get out of your comfort zone. I often read these word says “how far is far, how high is high? We’ll never know until we try.” Yup girl, you gotta nailed everything and you should always keep on slayin’ because who knows! That might make the best of you! You gotta discover a lot of things instead of locking yourself in a room. By that, you would always be happy and I promise, you would rather wish to make your day long than fast forwarding it.

4.)    A time with God – For all we see, feel and hear are from him. Instead of complaining of getting bored and having nothing to do, why not give thanks to the Lord, our God. Go start and end your day going to church, reading the bible, listening to worship songs, be a server and of course, pray. Because he works 24/7, he never gets tired and he never gets bored watching and guiding you to the right way. Trust me, it will all work out.

5.)    Appreciation, love and acceptance. Don’t think too deep and try to understand each word with your heart desires. Because those three things have an explanation only you can explain by your own little words. What do you think? Does it work? Let me know! Leave me a message!

Now would you rather fast forward your day or just live? I hope this article touches your heart.

All the love,

Charissa

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BLOG #1 I’M BACK!

So hey, here we go again self; trying again our best, still not giving up and maybe later? I lost. It’s been a years since I do blogging and not saving it and the ending, deleting it. And I finally figured out the reason why. All this time I keep on thinking of making my life be more interesting for others like a simple perfect one and goals. I always keep on focusing on the bright and trying to be always an optimist one in front of the people around me, which I am not included. Yes, I am so blessed to have a loving family and friends that I know will always be there and that I couldn’t ask for more. But what to do, I keep on showing the whole me in front of the people but the shadow remains hidden and not shown which I truly believe, this whole thing is just like a painting without an art. I thought maybe the key for all of this is to little by little, I need to persevere and have courage to face all the trials by adding little colors and an outline with my whole self; to unravel myself; to love myself; to trust myself; and to simply be myself. Okay, enough with the “introductory part” it’s kind of giving me some weird feelings though hahahaha so.... Consider yourself a lucky one if you found this blog somewhere? I hope you could relate in my blog and don’t worry I’ll also try to make this blog helpful for you and will surely be an art you’ve never seen in any exhibits.

All the love, 

Charissa   

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