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Another memological art piece about transhumanism.

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My latest art piece

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Hegel’s Spiral

Hegel is basically the blueprint for a mind that breaks in order to build.

People talk about his system like it’s this cold, closed, perfect machine—but if you actually read him, it’s obvious: the system is made of fractures. Every concept self-destructs to become something else. Every identity carries its own negation like a parasite. And the only way forward is through collapse. It’s not just logic. It’s implosion disguised as structure.

Hegel starts like a rationalist—yeah, sure, “everything makes sense,” there’s a process, a method. But that method is psychotic. The subject is never stable. Nothing stays whole. Spirit becomes itself by going through hell, alienation, contradiction, absolute dismemberment. You don’t ascend to truth—you get broken into it.

And the wild thing is: Hegel doesn’t try to fix that. He doesn’t close the wound. He builds a philosophy where the wound is the method. Honestly, he’s less a philosopher of order than a mystic of structured breakdown.

A thinker who believed in coherence, but only the kind that bleeds.

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Criticism rant…

Higher inteligence combined with drugs leads to mystical schizophrenic power as we can see on Nick Land and his ideas. This mystical knowledge for example: Numogram, Hypertime etc. can be criticised for numerous reasons even through its respect coming from its mystical aura. This mystical aura is needed to appear to schizophrenics thats why Lacan or Guattari are capable of appearing to these people. Problem with this is that its clearly religious it believes in “dark powers” above the material world. It hides the real problems in this world such as global warming or exploitation. These problems are almost purely material. It is realistic or real even. Not problem of autistic worldview nor schizophrenic worldview its purely neutral, material, real.

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Inteligence

Autistic inteligence is digital power. Schizophrenic inteligence has specific advantage of being irreplaceable and existing inside human mind. It is strong due to fast connectability of thoughts and ability to add unknown “bricks” that resseble some sort of known information. Autistic inteligence starts and ends with basic use of copy and paste information operating with memory, thats why its easily replacable with AI.

Combination of these two is what we use on daily basis. This dialectical outlook on life can shape us into perfect liars or on absolute academic weapon.

Schools are trying to fascisize people into autism based logical inteligence and style of thinking. But when this practice is used on people more on schizophrenic side of inteligence they become more than just “book” full of information, they become weapon that can overthrow mechanisms of society.

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Quiet wish for collapse

Sometimes, depression makes you crave tragedy. Not because you want to suffer, but because feeling something—anything—is better than feeling nothing. It’s a way to break the numbness, to make the pain visible, to have control over the chaos inside. You might even start pulling tragedy toward you without realizing it.

You can see this in capitalist filmography—around the 2000s, as more people grew depressed about capitalism, movies started reflecting that quiet wish for collapse. Stories of destruction, dystopia, and antiheroes weren’t just entertainment; they were echoes of a generation longing for something to finally break. But the same energy that destroys can also create. Pain doesn’t have to be the end of the story.

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Power and aura of this post is ungraspable

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My schizophrenia pills make me extremely autistic.

I learned to take them on work days only even through i should take them every day.

It kills my inner creative me. I become functional member of society but at what cost for the cost of losing myself. One becomes extremely obsessive being with corpo like ethics and morals.

I hate taking them but i love being able to talk to people struggle of being sets weight upon me with every bit of my mental sanity.

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Lacan: Autism and Schizophrenia

I was reading Lacan, and it hit me how his ideas fit with my theory of synthesis between autism and schizo. Lacan talks about how our minds are always moving between order and chaos, and that shapes who we are. Autism is the stable stuff—language, rules, societal structures that keep us together. Schizo is the part that drives us—desires, the unconscious, things we can’t fully understand.

Lacan says our self is shaped by how others see us, so it’s never really “ours.” It’s something created between these two forces. If we tie this to my theory, Lacan is basically describing a synthesis of autism and schizo. The “big Other” is what shapes us, something stable but also changing.

So, synthesis is about constantly moving between these extremes, with the self always evolving.

That’s what I mean by balancing autism and schizophrenia part of our mind.

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Neurodivergent people and hypersexuality

I just realized something—there’s a clear link between neuro-atypicality and hypersexuality, but it plays out in completely different ways depending on the type of neurodivergence.

Autistic people are often seen as asexual, but in reality, many experience intense, obsessive sexual fixations—kind of like they do with their other interests. Their sexuality can be structured, repetitive, almost ritualistic, but also deeply consuming. On the other hand, schizotypal and schizophrenic individuals tend to have boundary-dissolving, fluid, and experimental hypersexuality, constantly shifting and exploring without rigid attachment to specific desires.

So while both groups experience hypersexuality, it manifests in opposite ways:

• Autistic hypersexuality = deep focus, fixation on specific fantasies, structured desire.

• Schizotypal hypersexuality = openness, novelty-seeking, constantly changing attraction.

This fits perfectly into my Psychotic Order Theory.

Maybe neuro-atypical hypersexuality isn’t just a side effect, but a natural result of thinking in extremes.

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Psychotic order theory and genes

I just read this study, and it totally fits into my theory.

Basically, schizophrenia is linked to more feminine genetic traits, while autism is associated with more masculine ones. And it actually makes a lot of sense—autistic thinking is rigid, focused on systems and details, which lines up with more “masculine” brain patterns (higher testosterone, local connectivity, less social flexibility). Meanwhile, schizophrenic thinking is fluid, associative, and creative, which matches a more “feminine” cognitive style (higher estrogen, global connectivity, better emotional processing).

Now, take my Psychotic Order Theory—autism as pure order, schizophrenia as pure chaos. If these extremes are biologically tied to sex-based differences in brain function, then balancing them could be a form of cognitive androgyny—the ability to consciously shift between structured, logical thought and fluid, intuitive perception.

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Hear me out with this theory.

What if the mind exists on a spectrum between autism (order, fixation, structure) and schizophrenia (chaos, fluidity, dissolution)?

Autistic thinking is rigid, systematic, and focused. Schizophrenic thinking is free-associative, creative, and ever-shifting. Instead of seeing them as disorders, what if they’re just two fundamental cognitive modes?

Neurotypicals aren’t necessarily “balanced”—they just unconsciously shift between these modes without fully embodying either. But what if true cognitive strength comes from consciously mastering both?

Like an "autismofrenia".

YouTube channel Jreg gave me the idea that i elaborated on with further studies.

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