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As a queer non-binary person in my mid 20s, why do I return to factory settings when I rewatch Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging?

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My brain when I fancy women:

Dude...haha...bro...okay step on me

My brain when I fancy men:

Pretty lil bitch boy :) slutty lil man :))

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Blitz knows that people need more support on their first day

He really is a good boss

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Redecorating the apartment! :)

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post-Sinsmas this is absolutely the kind of shit blitz would wear:

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Blitz making Stolas smile on the worse days of his life

When told about the forced marriage

When his kid has run away

When Via shuts him out of her life

Blitz is his light

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Okay. But did he just heat up hot coals to eat them and then lizard crawl up next to him to warm him up...? Because if so.

Howfuckingcute.

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Thinking about how distressed Stolas is watching Moxxie and Millie playfight cause to him it just looks like casual domestic violence. He doesn't know that fighting can be "Playful".

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Stolas - Five Stages of Grief (Sinsmas)

One thing I don't hear many people talk about is the fact that Sinsmas illustrates Stolas learning and accepting his new reality that he's thrusted into, and through it he goes through the Five Stages of Grief. I think it's also important to note that Stolas' grief is due largely in part to not having Octavia around, and the fact that he's been off his antidepressants the entire month.

Denial- A temporary response to loss, where you might not fully comprehend the reality that your in.

Day by Day illustrates the very first month Stolas is spent living with Blitz, he goes about the day(s), living life with Blitz and while he's happy to be with Blitz, you can tell that he's also struggling.

Listen to the lyrics:

Keep it calm, life goes on, and on, and on Nothing's wrong, nothing's wrong So why do I still feel this way?

Stolas is living life with Blitz domestically, going out on dates here and there, seeing how he lives, seeing how imps live, and he's just at a loss, confused, not really knowing what to do. But he pretends that everything is okay, everything has to be okay.

Anger- Stolas letting all his anger and grief from the current situation he's in out and about.

Stolas has what is essentially a mental breakdown in the span of a minute: breaking Blitz's phone (Stolas sweetie don't break your bfs phone, that's his job), ripping and tearing stuff apart, blaming himself for his stupidity for having ruined his life in order to fulfill his fantasies.

Note: When Stolas calls himself stupid for fulfilling a fantasy, I honestly think he's talking about the context of him and Blitz and their transactional arrangement. Remember, during the very beginning of their transactional relationship, Stolas was very much chasing a fantasy.

Bargaining- Making promises to do better or be better whether it be to a higher power or to yourself.

Stolas begging Octavia to listen to him, to what he has to say. Stolas is extremely desperate to get Octavia to listen to him, to get Octavia back in his life.

"No! No! Never Via, sweetie please, you have always been the only good thing in my life." "I love you Via so, so much. Please sweetie let me explain..."

Depression- A feeling of dread that feels like it will last forever, but is a necessary part of the healing process.

Stolas, immediately after getting home from the palace, sits down on the couch just to process everything. Stolas spends, what looks to be hours, sitting on contemplation- occasionally resting his head on Blitz's horns.

Note: I love how Blitz stays close to Stolas the entire time, never leaving his side, except to help decorate for the Sinsmas Party and to change into his Sinsmas sweater. Even when the Sinsmas party starts, and he starts looking content, he's always with Stolas the entire time.

Acceptance- You learn to live with the loss and acknowledge that both sorrow and joy can coexist.

Blitz helps Stolas learn to accept this new way of life, and for a moment he helps him forget all the pain as he leads them into a very romantic dance.

Stolas, for the first time since losing his daughter, is able to laugh freely and find joy in that moment, and it's all thanks to Blitz.

Stolas looks out into the sky as he realizes that this is his life now. From now on, he will have to live life of a commoner with his only solace being Blitz. The moment Stolas closes his eyes is the moment he accepts this new reality of his.

I love the tragic irony of Stolas spending the entirety of Season 2 pining and chasing after an emotionally constipated lizard to the point that he is unknowingly hurting his daughter in the process. But by the end of that season, he gets the unconditional love of the man he's in love with, only to lose the one thing he thought he would never lose- his daughter's love.

I do want to point out that I do feel bad for Stolas, but I also understand very well that this was his choice in the end. And from now on he has to live with that choice, to live with the consequences.

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This is the most romantic shit I have ever seen I’m gonna throw up

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Blitz's Reaction to that Kiss...

Stolas dives in happily kissing his knight in shining armor as thanks for saving him, and the fact that Blitz is so taken aback from that kiss. Eyes widened in pure shock.

Meanwhile, Stolas is just so genuinely happy to realize that Blitz actually came to save him and cares for him.

The way Blitzø's eyes slowly relax into that kiss.

To cupping Stolas' cheek in response and allowing himself to fully melt into that kiss, relishing it, savoring it, and enjoying it.

It's the first real kiss to mark the turning point of their relationship.

I love how there isn't a hint of lust, just pure unadulterated love and yearning. It's a different kind of passion.

And to think four episodes ago this is where he was at...

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♥️❔

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The fact that Via is in Blitz's vision of his full family and his face falls when Via was mad at Stolas and whenever Stolas is sad about her....He already loves that girl.

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Who gave this man the right to look even MORE attractive after becoming depressed?!

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It was so important to me that Stolas was able to be sad throughout the entire episode. Usually media likes to rush a character's grief/depression/sadness. Like "Stop moping around" or "get over it already." Depression doesn't just go away. It is a persistent feeling of sadness.

His depression was also presented through various emotions/emotional states.

Lethargy

Crying

Anger / frustration

Self-blame

Not wanting company and being emotionally drained and unable to reciprocate

We even see him Smiling / Laughing which is so important because we see that he is still in there behind the sadness and tears. His laugh is not as lively as it once but he is still capable of smiling and finding joy.

His problems weren't fix in the end and his sadness didn't go away even if he has someone who loves him by his side (and even if he loves him too). And I think this is one of the best depictions I have seen of a depressed character in media in a long time.