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tumblr is such a blast Hahahahaha

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focusing on self improvement N school n stuffs instead of drugs n my delusions, n going back to therapy hopefully soon ! Yaaayayay n cozie late nites at library feeelin productive im actually excited for the semester! :3

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on dxm N shrooms, wearing my pretty lace robe, christmas lights On, freshly washed hair up in big soft scrunchie, watching traffic out my window i feel like a princess in her castle or like a god watching over these pppl Innmy little cloud!!

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i love everything n i am so beautiful wow

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hide yourself from lies, but it flies. theres a time to feel alive, a disguise, no disguise from the rhyme of love and life. eyes are tight, hide your knife. its time i spread my sight. a goodbye, my goodbye, so i

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today, i learned that labyrinths can be used as a trap for negative energies/evil spirits. this made me remember how i used to always draw mazes in my art during my active diphenhydramine addiction. drawing these mazes/labyrinths felt the most natural and relaxing for me at the time, but i didnt know why yet. i am grateful for my natural ability at creating art that led me to utilize this meaning of the labyrinth symbol when i needed it most.

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me dressing up as my ego's representation of the divinity inside me this halloween <333 !

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looking at lashes on amazon but getting the fear of god instilled in me instead

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there is plenty of time, affirmation sigil

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april 2022, someone who passed that i wish i couldve met helped me in a dxm trip. Everything went perfect and i was at peace and could see things clearly. my soul told myself "you are not potential, you are." and i communicated with all parts of myself in the future present and past. we realized everything is from us and comes from inside us. i experienced all possible ways my life could go in the future. i knew i was going to be ok. the incarnations of my true self muddled by trauma, and of my poor coping mechanisms, came to be one. this experience made me manic in a creative, generally stable, way.

what i admit still scares me is when my anger towards the world transferred to someone who carried out what i fantasized about doing months prior. this man ultimately didnt hurt anyone but himself. i still dont know if i technically killed this man or not. our psychoses must have been loosely connected.

On shrooms, i had fun with my thoughts in relation to the external world. when i felt myself experiencing panic or a negative emotion, i quickly changed my mindset and watched everything instantly fall back into place. i came face to face with the laws of attraction. id feel negative but quickly change my energy to positive before negativity manifested in external reality. on the come down of this trip, me, my bf, and bf's friend had a cop talk to us asking if we'd seen someone wandering around looked confused. we said no we haven't, and went on our way fine. i knew instantly that i could have been the wandering person in that situation if i didnt keep my energy in check. I think that was a similar experience to my last paragraph, situation where energy i rejected transfered to someone else, who ended up in a situation i avoided.

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visualized owning my dream car so hard last nite that i forgot that im getting it in the spring, woke up this morning n was caught off guard by my current car cuz it didnt look like it was even mine!!

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every heartbeat, u can be a new person

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Iv been distracted not vibing that high when i have the opportunity to be n i miss it

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other artists<33333

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