michaelnumber73

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Excuse me! *steals your sense of direction*

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KNOCK KNOCK

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Thank you so much to everyone who has d0nated to my Kofi so far and helped me get the brow injection! Whereas I like the effect it gave me, it has also given me some much needed clarity that I think I needed to admit to myself.

I will not be keeping up with the injections and will let this one run out as it has given me the certainty I need to realise that I’m much better off saving that money and putting it all towards actual, full on facial surgery on my brow and forehead.

As a result of this conclusion. I’ve changed my goal on Kofi and will be saving my money like there’s no tomorrow! Please consider sharing and donating if you can. But please remember! Make sure your bowl is full first.

Thank you all. I could not do this without you x

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Here’s the thing, I absolutely agree with the fact that the way Jon was treated in S4 was awful, dehumanising and often cruel. It impacted how he viewed himself in harmful and permanently damaging ways that then bleed into every choice he makes after, because his self-worth is never going to recover from that.

However, if you end this point with ‘and he was treated like this for no-reason at all’, I am going to have to sit you down and have a long talk about nuance, and how every character in TMA has a reason for what they’re doing, even if it’s not right. Engage with the material at hand. I am begging you.

And Jon being a victim, particularly in S4, does not absolve him of the consequences and harm his own actions have done. There’s a very twisted irony to me in the fact that the harm Jon does to feel a sense of control — a common C-PTSD response — is often stripped of that agency and nuance. Please, the Web does that to him enough.

The above also applies to pretty much most TMA characters, especially the S4 Archive Crew. It goes without saying that yes, Basira is a hypocrite, that Melanie clings onto Jon as a scapegoat before she takes steps to improve herself etc. All these characters have been hurt in some way, and they are reverting back to what gives them a sense of safety, even if it means hurting others people or each other. It’s not good, but you can, at the very least, understand why it is they’re acting this way.

I think it’s easier to understand S4 when you go in with the mindset of ‘these people are all victims, and they are not perfect ones’, rather than the mindset of it’s Jon Vs Everyone, even if it feels that way at times.

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You crazy kids....

Partially inspired by the works of "jadealaide" on ao3!

Got some more doodles in the works

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Gerry!

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PRETTY COLORS AND MICHAEL FACING WHAT HE IS TO BECOME AH I LOVE PAIN!! THE DESIGNS ARE BY @blackberreh-art

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…worm jokes don’t do very well in the Archives.

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HELLO MICHEAL SHELLEY I loved you for the minute that you were in the podcast

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a lineup of my tma designs!! god i love this podcast

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alcohol markers..and a looot of color correction..hes such a delight to draw thoug

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morning before disaster

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statement begins.

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Who else up terminating they velocity rn

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silly transfem jon doodle

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Bone apple teeth

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[check under cut for more]

Hello, Jon.

Apologies for the deception, but I wanted to make sure you started reading, so I thought it best not to announce myself.

I’m assuming you’re alone; you always did prefer to read your statements in private. I wouldn’t try too hard to stop reading; there’s every likelihood you’ll just hurt yourself. So just listen.

Now, shall we turn the page and try again?