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A cover of ("The Goo Goo Dools - Name") I did awhile back. Hope you enjoy.

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Living With Kidney Disease Today.

I remember when I got this awful disease back at the end of 2021. I was a huge mess and In all honesty, I was looking for ways to end all of this. But, It’s 2023 and I’m still here and I’m still fighting. A lot, of things in my life have changed but I didn’t let my mental health get the better of me. I don’t have a lot of people to talk to and many relationships have soured during all of this, but I won't let this disease take me. 

I will live my life to the fullest.

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you need to be earnest. you need to tell people that you love them. you need to speak on how you’re feeling honestly. you need to be sentimental. you need to stop letting the fear of other people laughing at you have so much control over how you express yourself. you need to get over yourself. you need to be embarrassing but true.

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I am jealous of those who think more deeply, who write better, who draw better, who look better, who live better, who love better than I.

-Sylvia Plath

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Ain’t that the truth

I come from a long line of people with something wrong with them

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can’t wait for fall

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I missed using this

Time to spam spooky season things :)

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The Office S07E12 “Classy Christmas”

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Found this in a spooky tunnel at an abandoned brick factory

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God It's been so long since I've actually been on here.

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I want to thank you for reaching out and saying all of this. It's been a long time since I've honestly been on here and that post was made back when all of it was still new. Luckily I've been doing better and taking the steps to get a transplant! I'm so sorry you and your family have to deal with this annoying disease but yes, we will make it! Thank you for your kind words! <3

So for the past few weeks I’ve been sick, back has been killing and haven’t been able to sleep. Spent the entire week in the ER because I found out I have a genetic disease called “Alports Syndrome” that brings on kidney failure. Well, for the past two weeks I’ve been doing dialysis and honestly, I haven’t had the time to just lie down and process things, because I’m very sad right now. It feels like I’m mourning my past self, since I have to completely take a sharp left turn on everything I’ve learned to like. I’m scared and feel lonely. I feel more vulnerable than I ever have and honestly I’ve been thinking a lot about how I’d rather deal with everything I dealt with prior because those things seem so much better than this whole situation. This is a road I never thought I’d have to take and everything hit me at once and now I’m very lost. Life is very scary.

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Got some new clothes for the summer and I’m really liking the way I look in them. (at The Keeper of the Plains) https://www.instagram.com/p/CqWgD5HuXfF/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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From the summer time but a nice pic https://www.instagram.com/p/CoYMZdAOLUv/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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It’s been such a long time since I’ve felt good enough to go outside and just enjoy myself. Starting peritoneal dialysis is a blessing and a new start for my life. https://www.instagram.com/p/CnNfU5NO01k/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=