mikhailaraen

[mikhailaraen]

Pile 1 was my choice. Very interesting read. Thank you 🙏🏻

{18+}What turns them ON about you?❤️‍🔥

Pick -a-card reading.

*intended for your specific person in mind, but can be used for future spouse if you modify the question. If traditional gender roles don’t apply to your situation convert the words to feminine&masculine energy.*

->Pile 1

{Brad and Angelina}

{cards that fell: king of fire; mirror; justice; the world;5 pentacles;ace of swords; 7wands; ace of swords;2 wands}

This pile is really interesting, this person loves earning you in a way, feeling emotionally $ubmi$$ive, like you have control over them in all aspects without even touching them.

You may be bossy,this is definitely a turn on for your person. Ironically you chose the Brad&Angelina pic, and the situation being painted with those cards is exactly Mr and Mrs energy.

They enjoy a push and pull dynamic. If you try to dominate them I feel like they would also enjoy it👀 (even if they seem sceptical at first).

Arguing may be a turn on of theirs, puni$hing them with your absence or other ways when they don’t act accordingly; (that includes the makeup $£x after.) May sound toxic for some, but they may be one of those people that start little arguments for the smallest things sometimes, on purpose, so you two can ‘make up’ and they can ‘apologise’ by being good and pleasing you however you want (you know how) after..

They like when you’re acting kinda bitchy & like you’re ‘the prize’ they need to earn, but the key here is to do everything in moderation and not be mean&rude 24/7.

Your confidence may be a turn on for them. When you’re seducing them on purpose and then pulling away &acting like they can’t have you..(yet), because they should work more and ‘be better’ to get your attention. Your person needs constant passion to feel stimulated.

->Pile 2

{Vincent and Monica}

Cards that fell: 2fire,the punishment,earth,the priestess, 9water,king of water, 9swords,10chalices,knave of chalices,9pentacles,2pentacles }

This person loves the fact that you seem to have no restraints around them, you are quite open emotionally, in tune with your emotional side and know how to balance it well. (earth sign moon/venus energy).

Getting dolled up for them is sth they would probably appreciate- nice dress, hair & makeup done..

It may be a turn on for them knowing only they can have you in ways other people cannot.(you can tell them some bs like ‘yOu’Re tHe bEst I eVer Had..’ etc😂😂 it doesn’t matter if it is actually true, it would make them feel like a God.)

Praising them may be a turn on as well, it would make them feel more dominant, more in their power. Letting them take the control in bed, as well as non-$€xu@l situation would also be a little turn on for them, again, it would make them feel appreciated.

Knowing they can be the person that is capable of fulfilling all your needs is something very important to them. This pile is heavy on the praise k/ink, they need to feel desired&needed.

When you attend to them & their feelings, have obvious feelings for them ( i feel like this is important to mention, they may have been in a relationship where they’ve felt unappreciated, unwanted, not desired enough by their previous partner. The partner might have used them in a way.)

$€xting and writing notes to keep the anticipation during the day when u’re not together may work on them.👀

->Pile 3

{Jane et Serge}

Cards that fell: the moon, justice, the tower, 8pentacles, 10wands, 8fire,6air, 4swords, the world, king of air, ace of fire, temperance }

It will be hard to explain this energy but bare with me:

This person probably likes what I like to call more « bright » women- women who are confident&feminine, such who love the spotlight and getting lots of attention. ( in my mind is this scene where Jessica Rabit where she performs..)

People who are sensual & confident but not arrogant may be just their type.

A situation where they can feel turned on by you is for example if (hypothetically speaking) you’re in a group setting with some ppl who do not like you, they are passive aggressive with you, but you choose not to reply with the same energy and remain kind&graceful.(they may feel the urge to protect you and stand up for you in such situations) When you act like a « damsel in distress » basically, and they can be your « savior »..

A turn on for them I feel like it would be a situation where you’re ‘feeling yourself’, for example if you’re dancing in the club and they happen to be there as well and see you doing that.. $educing them in public places where you can get caught (or public $\€x)

Another turn on for them would be for you to ‘put on a show’ for them (you can decide yourself how, ex. give them a lap dance or sth, beautiful lingerie, a special dress..). They probably like the concept of « femme fatale » type of women who can ‘turn their life’ around.

This may not resonate for all, but if you are from a different culture/country, this may also be a turn on for them.

Decks used: ‘$£xual magic’ oracle deck by Lo Scarabeo; ‘Manara’ €rotic tarot deck by Milo Manara/ Lo Scarabeo;

That was all from today’s PAC.

thank you for reading! Hope it resonated.💞 Don’t forget to follow for more.

-La Sirena.💋

[mikhailaraen]

𝓔𝓴 𝓭𝓾𝓳𝓮 𝓴𝓮 𝓿𝓪𝓪𝓼𝓽𝓮

- This game is about the person/things meant for you. It's a broad category so it can be the blessings written in your destiny or soulmate. Whatever you are meant to know about right now.

-Send me your initials and something close your heart.

It can be a random fact like:- "Rain calms me down when I am sad". Or something more personal. It's your choice; but it should hold some meaning to you.

-Reblog this post and follow me.

-No anonymous asks. If you want, I can send you the answer privately.

- Send me a feedback.

-Check the pinned post ->click on "games" -> see if this game is open or closed.

[mikhailaraen]

She lay on top, feeling her body melting into his; the warmth of his body was all-consuming. They fit together perfectly. She could not see in the dark, but she knew where to place her lips. Her cheek brushed his, scruff tickling flesh, sending sensual heat down her spine. She persisted down to the crook of his neck, tentatively stealing a taste. He was salty sweet. He grunted and her cheeks flushed. She wanted more. She continued her assault on him, licking and nipping skin back and forth, slowly, from neck to shoulder to collarbone. Her head felt foggy and her sex wet. She never felt this way with anyone else. Her senses were overloaded by all that was him. She was blissfully drunk. Her eyes lazily closed and she inhaled his musky odor. Her hand slid up to the top of his head and delicate fingers tangled hair. She grasped ahold and firmly tugged. She swore she heard him growl, some sort of primal rumble, and for a moment she forgot to breathe. She heard her own heart beating through her chest and began to notice her hips moving of their own accord. His breath was music. She wanted to fuck him. She knew it would be the sweetest love she would ever have because no one else could ever make her feel like he did. She drug her head up to face him. Leaning down, she kissed his lips slowly, hungrily. Her body was on fire. She felt his own arousal as he deepened the kiss and she wondered, truly, how he felt about her. She loved him so fucking much. What she felt was beyond the physical realm and her chest ached. She only hoped that one day, he would admit to her that he felt the same way.

[mikhailaraen]

I did not know this, or even consider it. But I like this way of viewing.

Cups depict the realm of dreams. The heart may break and can be healed and become stronger than before.

Pentacles depicts the realm of greed. Many resources lie within and beneath the rich soil, waiting to be found and shaped to benefit you in your tasks.

Wands depict he realm of growth. This is a place of unexplored potential, adventures to be undertaken by the courageous.

Swords depict the realm of riddles. An intellectually confusing and deadly place, those with a swift mind and keen perception will act quickly, escape mental traps, and bring back the treasures they need.

Credit goes to the authors of Murder of Crows Tarot.

[mikhailaraen]

If a house has a purple door or some sort of purple object/decoration it means a witch lives there

[mikhailaraen]

It’s hard to ebb and flow when you feel controlled by the one’s who live around you. I’m working on breaking free. “Just do it,” my mind says. However, fear controls so much. I want to LIVE. Let my actions be my own and not others. If only you could see inside my head.

[mikhailaraen]

What do I need to know today?

ACE of CUPS

I radiate love to the Universe.

I embrace love openly to feel spiritual & emotional fulfillment.

I am giving & receiving unconditional love. The more I give, the more I receive.

SYMBOLISMS of this card -

Water - emotion

5 streams - the elements plus spirit

The dove - reconciliation, peace, forgiveness, messenger, to rise high above (elevate), spirituality, grace, love, the dove is carrying the Host (the cross coin) down into the cup representing spiritual/Divine love

Blue - clear thinking, spirituality, depth and sinking deeper within the subconscious (intuition), emotion

Green - fertility, creation, spring, bounty, heart chakra

Grey - neutrality

Hand from the clouds - hand of God/the Gods (whatever you believe in)

Lotus/ water lily - enlightenment, rebirth

What does the coin with the cross symbolize? What about the M/W? Are there any other symbols I’m missing?

[mikhailaraen]

☀️Twin Flames: The Dichotomy Between Fem & Masc Energies as well as Misconceptions☀️

DISCLAIMER: it's a long one, my fingers hurt from typing (╥﹏╥)

Alright the dreaded topic (╥﹏╥) I have almost entirely stopped using this term- I simply don't have the energy for it. There isn't anything wrong with twin flames, but I personally feel like the term has been so over sensationalized that it's lost all of it's meaning. Every other day you hear someone talking about their twin flame when in reality it's their karmic, or someone they are obsessing over, or someone who is simply just similar to them. It's such a touchy topic and genuinely talking about it is so hard because if you haven't truly experienced a twin flame connection you won't be able to understand it, yet the amount of misinformation out there is so- ugh.

I remember when I was younger I wrote about all I knew about soul connections and the twin flame one was the most controversial and had the most opinions on it. Firstly believe what you believe but you cannot change fact. It doesn't matter if you believe gravity is fake, it still binds you to the earth all the same. I've seen way too many people especially in certain tags use the term so inappropriately and incorrectly, spreading false information such as the capability of having multiple twins. That- doesn't even make sense... twin means two, to have a twin means there are two of you, not to mention the entire concept of twins is yin and yang- only two parts... It's not called a triple flame or a quadruplet flame...

I want to take a second to talk about the inane things I've seen and the excuses people give. I've seen way too many people insist that you are capable of having more than one twin flame as a way to convince themselves that even if their fav found their person they can still have a chance with said fav. It's so weird because it's just feeding into spiritual psychosis and obsession. You know them saesangs people talk about all the time? I'm pretty sure some of them were created from shit like this... Fans get so upset and angry at the prospect of their idol dating and finding happiness, to me it's like an illness, you should not be so attached to the idea of a person that you feel genuine control over that person and their life. I don't care how well you think you know a person, nor how much you've bought into their life, your obsession does not overpower their life.

Many people see the term of twin flame and think that because it has such a title that means the two of you should be together forever or that no matter what you'll always end up with your twin when that is simply not true. The entire term has gotten overrun with people using it to fuel their obsession and spiritual psychosis that talking about it now and trying to have genuine conversations about actual twin flame relationships feels like you're diving head first into a psychosis spiral.

Firstly, twin flames are rare, extremely rare, I mean so very rare that you can go your entire life without ever meeting someone else that actually has a twin in this life. I'm of the opinion that there are many people who do have twins, however not all of them will ever meet or be together in this lifetime, nor have their counterpart reincarnated either. I believe I mentioned this before but every life has a different reason. In your past life you could've been with your twin for a lesson to learn, it is possible that in this life you have a different lesson that doesn't involve your twin therefore you might not come into union with them and that is completely fine. As I said the term is so oversensualized.

The term twin flame is also being thrown around like it simply is another word for soulmate when in actuality it is a different type of soulmate. Just as tarot is a different type of divination. A twin flame is a soulmate connection but not every soulmate connections are twin flames. The thing about twins however is the fact that the connection is so powerful, the journey to reuniting with your twin is exhaustive, and sometimes can cause obsession rooted in core wounds such as abandonment issues. The journey is not something to be taken lightly as you begin it as one person and end it as some entirely new.

You can consider the perfect example of a twin flame as garnet from steven universe. Sapphire and Ruby connecting on such a deep level they create something entirely new, they have a whole song about it! Twin flames are not two parts of a whole and if you are a twin, this kind of thinking is going to keep you away from the prospects of union. Twins are an entire person, two separate entities that create another. Think of it as gem fusion, or parents birthing a child. Yin and Yang come together to create the concept of duality bit yin is separate to yang and vice versa. Twin flames feed off the energy of yin and yang, masc and fem, balanced energies. When you go left, your twin goes left, when you go backwards, your twin goes backwards, if you think negatively of yourself your twin will think negatively of you or themselves. What ever you feel, your twin feels two, the more in alignment the two of you are, the more the both of you flow like yin and yang.

Onto the topic of twin flames and spiritual psychosis. Twin flame connections are intense as well, and messing with that energy in the wrong way can most certainly mess with spiritual psychosis. If you want to, you can refer to my spiritual psychosis post for more information! Twin flame connections have more energy between them, sometimes you can feel as though they are around you, sometimes even experiencing their feelings and a few people can hear their thoughts. I am kind of afraid to go into that topic purely for the fact that if it is taken in the wrong way or consumed with the wrong intention it can really influence spiritual psychosis so please please use discernment here.

The whole purpose of a twin flame connection is to find yourself, to come home to yourself. Your twin is their own person yet they are an extension of your soul which is why you mirror so intensely, they teach you to find yourself and to love yourself. In order to come into union with your twin you must go within and have union with yourself. You need to heal, find your core wounds and dismantle them, address any toxic thoughts and world views, figure out who you are and who you would be in a perfect world and bring it outside. As someone currently on that journey, it truly is not easy. I say it all the time but you have to face the scary dark parts of yourself. I'm currently in the process of doing that and it's taking such a toll on me that I had a health scare I mean- getting up to open my window and heart racing and almost fainting scare. Not only that but I'm so depressed in my personal life that I'm forcing myself to sleep more as a means to escape my reality. It’s just a stage in the process for me and once it passes something new will replace it, but it’s not a connection or a journey process that is only happiness nor is it only sadness.

I really dislike it when people talk only in light about twin flames, but also when they only take darkly about them too. I don't really understand why there can't be balance and an understanding of duality and the differences for every connection. You can't take the light without the dark, nor can you live within the dark without light.

For feminine and masculine energies- this is another can of worms that often times are rooted in white supremacy labels and sexist ideologies. The terms itself are sexist any how you put them, but the meanings are entirely different and many people use those terms to make it easier to understand so I get it. In reality feminine and masculine energy is just another way of saying light and dark energy, sun and moon, yin and yang. Before I continue I must say that dark energy does not mean evil energy, think of it more as night and day. "Evil" energy is more colloquially known as negative energy or entities.

Your gender and gender identity has nothing to do with the energy you possess. We all have the dual energies within us, life is about balance and we would be even more chaotic without the dual energies, but it is also why rampant sexism and misogyny is tearing the world to shreds. The hyper and toxic masculinity placed on men, the inane societal expectations placed on women, the controlling of womens bodies, the demotion of women to females, the hyper conformity to gender roles and the brutal rejection to true selves, it is all creating a more hateful intolerant society. A feminine man is ridiculed and deemed gay, men experiencing and expressing emotions other than rage is deemed as a woman, women who have ambitions and a well paying job are looked at as masculine and paid less than their male counterparts. It's all bullshit to me.

Feminine energy is called that because of it's nurturing ability, the softness of it, the ability to slow down and breathe, to love and let love as well as the fact that many women do identify with these energies. Masculine energy categorized as action oriented, rational, stable, etc. as well as many men identifying with these energies. However there is nothing and I mean nothing stating that a woman can't be rational, stable and action oriented and vice versa. If you ask me I would say that the words feminine and masculine are only place holders and umbrella terms of these energies. Anyone who tells you that you can only have one energy within you is someone who has completely disregarded the idea of balance.

Finding your balance is finding the place where you sit comfortably. Personally I sit comfortably in feminine energy, trying to live in masculine energy drains me and makes me feel worse, I don't dream of labor. I know for myself that I want to me a SAHM, I prefer to nurture and be giving to those I love. I do however honor the masculine energy in me when it comes to completing my goals, I pour myself into projects that I'm interested in and more! I know that I don't want to have a 9-5 job, rather a job with flexible hours that allows me to have full creative freedom and is also a passive income is perfect for me! With that being said, there are other people like me and people not like me and thats what makes the earth beautiful. The diversity in people and their lives is something to be celebrated. My cousin is someone who is more aligned with masculine energy, she loves to work and complete her goals, but she honors the feminine energy in herself by pampering herself and her kids.

The dichotomy between fem and masc energies is the idea that there can only be one, that you can only experience one, that they are in reference to your gender, that they are law. How about we just be? How about live in the way that you see fit? Rather than trying to force others to conform to our ideas, follow your own ideology and not harm others.

Here is a chart detailing masc and fem energies!

Find YOUR balance. If there are any questions please don't hesitate to ask!

Also I use the tags that I use to spread awareness because some people need it ( ˘ ³˘)♥

[mikhailaraen]

Poem 31323

You know,

It’s so difficult to live on without

Remembrance dreams creating thoughts about

Sorrow creeps beneath my flesh

And I want to feel again

But I know that I cant so I hide

I shield myself with a false grin.

[mikhailaraen]

My husband wants me to start painting when I feel strong emotions. I said I’d try it. While it might convey how I feel, I doubt it will change me. At this point I think I’m pretty much faking it to make it.

[mikhailaraen]

Poem 21123

Pushing out

Guilt in the background

With no place to go

Vibrations flow about

Wrecking tranquility

A break in the sea

Currents push harder

Knocking down all that’s between

Thrums crescendo a tempo grown stronger in time

But only one can hear the rage that plucking strings break open wide

Swelling outward the conductor motions the energy to flow stronger

The symphony ascends only higher and higher

Until it plummets down with a rolling rumble

A hum in the silence

Colors swirl the tidal wave

A tsunami reals the body in

To drown within the cage

Nowhere they can go

Nowhere they can hide

Dancing, spinning, twirling, drowning

Belly flipping on the inside

Gulping,

Convulsing, screaming, crying

Eyes glaze within the night.

And finally,

Out goes the light.

[mikhailaraen]

There’s so much shit about twin flames out there, but a lot of that info automatically assumes the TFs to be together sensually. I get it, there’s a pull, - and a pretty substantial one, too - however, It’s frustrating to find a post or read a book that inherently assumes this. It makes me want to stop reading it bc I can no longer relate or the final intention isn’t right, etcetera. I need a good book, blog, audio, video, whatever… to start figuring this shit out. To me, a TF and soulmate and 2 entirely different things. Not all will agree and that’s okay. All I want is an unassuming source of information!

Ok. Rant over.

[mikhailaraen]

I need a way to block my twin flame’s negative energy because it inflicts damage to my aura via our TF link. I don’t want to cut off from him entirely, just be able to filter and block a lot of the negative he puts out. I need advice. How can I do this?

[mikhailaraen]

Poem 2523

Breathing wrong,

Our arms are heavy.

A wrath prolonged,

Eyes dripping with envy.

Hello, would you like to play?

The stench of selfishness from getting your way.

Have you no shame, no guilt for fucking us over?

Puppet strings tied, you have us dance like fodder.

Pray on the weak, make us tip toe around,

Sit on the bones made from your false crown.

Sand keeps falling and nothing changes.

Watch out!

Strings break, and our minds are serrated.

[mikhailaraen]

Poem 10122

Breathing in oxygen is getting heavy

Another day for my mind which fills me with envy

To live within, my dreams absolute

To push guilt aside and live my true you.

Oh what journey the Universe has in store for me

For everything I do, everything I accomplish is bittersweet.

Please take me off these pills

Make me feel complete

Oh what journey the Universe has in store for me.

[mikhailaraen]

I thought I knew what my purpose was,

But then my world told me that it was not.

But with thought, I feel others guide me.

My intuition has never failed me.

Without, I know I am blinded.

Lost without reason, I could not find me.

But drawn to my old calling,

I think others tell me folly.

But what they say they feel is true,

But this is me, and not about you.

What is my purpose then?

There is none without him.

[mikhailaraen]

Poem 2223

A tickle in the belly

Senses draining

I am telling, myself it’s not the end,

It’s not the end.

Inhaling, veins are toasty

Ticker’s thrumming,

Cheeks are rosy,

And I am hoping that hope still exists.

Let it exist.