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hello there, for anyone following, I made a quick announcement at my pinned post but if you don't have enough time to check it out--

I'll be writing on a side blog because this blog feels cluttered-- the old things I write will stay here though!! I'll put the @ for the user there

I don't write much but I plan to do it seriously now so uh yeah lol

Thanks for reading

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Jared would use icing to draw dicks on cookies and Evan would do nothing but give Jared a nasty look.

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Hello, I'm here Asking for help and support for my 6 years old daughter battling brain tumor(Diffuse intrinsic pontine glioma) . She's so young to suffer the symptoms. Doctor told she only months to live. She's been fighting for her life for 8 months. We're poor and can't afford her treatments. She was schedule of Cranial MRI this last week of August. And please help me to make her happy. I'm so sorry for begging for help. But please understand her situation. Please help her to live. Thank you so much.

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This thread omg

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𝐑𝐎𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐁𝐒𝐃 𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐄𝐒

✧ Characters : Dazai, Chuuya, Akutagawa, Atsushi, Ranpo, Fyodor, Nikolai, Poe, Kunikida, Tachihara

✧ Word Count : 6K

✧ Warning : These can be triggering although I don’t know whether they’re accurate since these are simply my analyses, observations, and character study.

Disclaimer : This is a mini project to challenge myself to understand people and characters deeper. There is absolutely nothing personal against those who kin these characters. If I offend/hurt any of you, I apologise in advance.

— 𝗗𝗔𝗭𝗔𝗜 𝗢𝗦𝗔𝗠𝗨

Nihilistic. Commitment issues. Dubious.

You enjoy putting on an act or mindset that chips off pieces of you and it comes both deliberately or by instinct. It can be acting like someone you’re not, forcing yourself to fit into the definition of what’s “normal”, actively having self-destructive thoughts, making yourself hang around people you don’t click with, or sometimes all of them. You’ve lost your sense of creating meaningful bonds with other people because you can’t even be at peace with yourself.

What is self-fulfilment is to you? You place everyone at a safe distance and don’t mind if they leave because of your (artificial) antics. In fact, you foresee it happening. You see no point in connections if everyone is ultimately doomed because of themselves. You feel relief when you find out the hidden sides of other people because you’re uneasy if you don’t. That’s how you fidget. You have to know what’s incoming so you can brace yourself. The wariness is never gone, it’s as if you’re anticipating the exact moment they hurt you. You’re distrustful, never letting your guard down when interacting, even with those whom you like. You don’t want them to know that you know much.

Your awareness that everything lacks permanence combined with your wariness about everyone makes you pessimistic in forming new meaningful relations. Everyone is bound to either leave or screw things up, you see the lack of urgency to make amends to broken relations or to create new ones. You’re happy with who and what you have now, you’re satisfied with your stagnance. Nothing has to change. It’s comfortable this way.

Keep reading

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the cure to self-sabotage is to anchor yourself to the universal truth that you are worth it. you are worth the effort. you are worth the difficulty, you are worth the time, you are worth the consideration. there is never a point in your life, in time itself, that you are not worth it. return to this truth when you feel yourself slipping. do not let it go.

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reblog and put in the tags your first musical crush

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https://www.instagram.com/elyxirine/

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Modern day colonization is happening right now in Hawai’i

Information comes from @kuekanaka .

The Eric A. Knudsen Trust is planning to develop 110 acres on the Kōloa Po‘ipū land. There have been bits of canoe and bones found in a neighboring site.

This Trust has already been cited and fined for over 10,000 in this area and they also have admitted to having workers come in on the weekends and destroy significant cultural sites.

The Knudsen Trust is perpetuating neocolonization.

This land is also home to several endangered species, including the Kaua’i Blind Cave Wolf-Spider and the Kolana.

This land will be turned into a gated community.

Here is the link to a petition. Reblog and sign that, because people’s lives depend on it.

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Big Dave. One of the good ones. 

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Analyzing bsd's cycle of abuse

ft. Dazai, Akutagawa, and Kyouka

Even though I'm familiar with this cycle of abuse that's been traumatizing children of the PM, I never really understood its depth until I decided to rewatch the abusive scenes in the anime (how am I even alive after reliving that much pain omfg) and realized what makes this cycle so deep and meaningful. I'm telling you, bsd portrays the most realistic abusive relationships I've ever seen in fiction. So uh- enjoy this analysis I made about it!

We all know that the chain of events started from Mori - who emotionally ruined Dazai. He made Dazai his accomplice despite only being a child and planted thoughts into him, manipulating him into being loyal to the mafia. He used Dazai for his intelligence and powerful ability. And although his way of abuse was mostly emotional and psychological, I'm sure he also physically abused Dazai at some point.

Dazai continued this cycle by taking Akutagawa under his wing, only to abuse him. As shown from countless sequences in the anime, Dazai frequently physically abuses Akutagawa, up to the point of nearly killing him.

He also has no regard for Aku's life. It's either he learns how to toughen up, or his life is worthless. This is shown when he shoots Aku repeatedly in S2 EP02 only to cultivate his abilities, not caring that he might have killed his subordinate if he failed to activate his newfound ability.

"𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚙𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚠𝚒𝚌𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚘𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜." - 𝙳𝚊𝚣𝚊𝚒

Asides from physically abusing him, Dazai also abuses Aku emotionally, constantly taunting him that his ability is weak. Even after transferring into the ADA, he still haven't acknowleged Aku's ability. Instead, Dazai repeatedly told Aku that his ability is weak and that he would never be a match for him - up to crossing the line and deeming his ability inferior to his new subordinates in the agency.

"𝙼𝚢 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚜𝚞𝚋𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚟𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚞𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞." - 𝙳𝚊𝚣𝚊𝚒

This took a huge emotional toll for Aku - because we all know that this emo boy's greatest wish is for him and his ability to be deemed powerful.

Moving on to the next victim of this cycle- our sweet Kyouka. She's also often physically abused by Aku, as seen from a couple of episodes in S1.

But then, there's a significant detail that I completely missed during my first watch - something small but so crucial.

Aku was trying to become a better mentor than Dazai.

"𝙵𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢, 𝚊𝚗 𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚖𝚢 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚑 𝚏𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐!" -𝙰𝚔𝚞𝚝𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚠𝚊

Look at what Aku said here. As we all know, this man rarely considers someone below him in ranking worth fighting, let alone someone who was powerful enough to face him. Yet, he considers Kyouka to be an enemy worth fighting - his equal.

You see what this means? Akutagawa had acknowleged Kyouka's ability - because it's what he wanted the most, but could never get from his own mentor - Dazai. He knew how it felt to have your ability deemed weak, and maybe, deep down, he didn't want Kyouka to feel the same way. He was trying to not repeat Dazai's mistake.

But that wasn't what Kyouka wanted.

Ironically, it's what she hated the most.

Demon Snow killed Kyouka's family right in front of her eyes. She hates her ability. Hearing Aku acknowledge her ability, saying that it's well-suited for killing people - it must have utterly destroyed her inside.

What she really wanted was the opposite of what Aku did - she wanted her ability gone. She wanted to be accepted as a human being, as herself, instead of her worth revolving around her ability.

But then, Kyouka got what she thought she'd never find - hope.

Atsushi and the rest of the detective agency came and pulled her out of the darkness she was trapped in. They gave her a new life - a life where she would never have to kill again. They gave her a home where she wouldn't be defined by her ability.

Just when she thought her nightmare was over, she encountered Aku again in S3 ep 10, and they fought. But after seeing the newfound light in her eyes that he had never seen before, Aku said to Kyouka something he knew he would never be able to hear from his own mentor :

"Kyouka. I'm happy for you."

And so, this cycle of abuse finally ends.

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I love your art! Keep up the great work! (Could you please draw axolotl again? It's so cute!!!! 💙💙💙)

Hello! Thank you so much!!!! Here he is!!! 💙💙💙

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every photo of a shoebill eating is progressively worse than the last

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^ it's not my business either but, this sounds more like an excuse rather than an apology. You knew it was a bad thing to do, you made "a joke" about it, don't excuse it- if I was just gonna shorten this message, it'd be "I'm sorry but you accused me as a pedophile even though it was a joke and I knew it was wrong."

Stop with the excuses and make a genuine apology

so I will be leaving this account. I may or may not make a new account. if I do make a new one, I absolutely will not tell anyone. ESPECIALLY those that were quick to defend their friends, those that brought astrology into this for some fucking reason, those that mentioned my username publicly even though it was clear I wanted to keep my identity hidden, those that shamed and blamed me and those that act like I don't exist after I posted a screen recording (which was what you all desperately wanted me to do). I won't be interacting with ANY of you. I won't associate myself with people like that.

It's sad to know that even some adults can't help you in situations like this and that you really do only have your friends. and DONT EVEN talk about how, because we're kids, we haven't experienced life. well obviously you don't know shit. I've seen kids that have experienced things that they shouldn't even have to experience because they're KIDS. so don't say that shit. I will forever stick and stand up for minors, as a minor myself because wow there's fucking adults that can't protect us. unbelievable.

on the good side,

thank you so much to those that messaged me and also supported me, I genuinely appreciate it. and to those that have followed me and were only here to see my content, I'm sorry that you had to see all of that, and also thank you for all the support. I'm glad to know that I help many people out there and that I inspire people. I wish you all the best. I won't be deleting my account because I know that my PACS make people happy.

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Folks, friends, y’all…. esk*mo is a slur. I understand a lot of people don’t know that, I don’t want to be a dick about it, but I’ve been seeing it in fics. Wanna write “esk*mo kisses”? Just say “nuzzled noses” or something.

I’m not here to call anybody out, it’s been in multiple fics, I’m not vague posting. This is just a psa. 👍🏻