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so i recently put on a bunch of weight (like 10 pounds) because i thought i was going to join the military but a few weeks ago, even though i am well qualified, the military was like "lol nope" just bc i used to cut myself and I never really felt comfortable with those extra pounds so ive been working on getting rid of them and ive already lost 5 pounds

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so part of the reason i was feeling so shitty about stuff the other night is just because it was the middle of the night but it still does suck

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i think the worst part is that i don't really have anyone to talk to about it so i have to vent it out on here where absolutely no one will see it or even care and i just feel alone and sad and i want to cry but i can't

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idk why i let shit like that bother me but i do and it sucks because it made me go from being in a great mood to super sad in like .02 seconds

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i know i shouldn't care but

i was seeing this guy for a while and fell hella hard for him and then one night we went out with some other people and i got fucked up and i didn't hear from him for like two weeks until I texted him to find out why and turns out he "ran into his ex" that night and got some mixed emotions and he apologized and told me he wasn't ready for a relationship with me even though he greatly enjoyed my company (so this was all about a month and a half ago and ive been seeing this super nice guy the past couple weeks so i really shouldn't give a flying fuck BUT) tonight facebook was like "hey you might know this guy" and for some reason i decided to creep his profile for a minute and found out he's in a relationship with someone now and it just really hurts

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The fact that my absence doesn’t bother you even the slightest makes me sad to wonder if my presence ever mattered at all in the first place.

meanwhile, i can’t stop missing you (via tbfhprincess)

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How to get away with murder: be a baby goat.

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oh no

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storm over the serengeti. (click pic of link for credit x, x, x)

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The Derpiest Goat in all of Derptown

I love my Marigold.

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Bloody Mary

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I’m not the type of person to give up on someone. Yes, sometimes I get really mad and upset so I need a minute or awhile to cool off and process everything but I’ll never abandon you. I don’t leave people. That’s just wrong. And personally I think that’s why it always hurts so bad when people leave me. Simply because I hold on so tightly.

(via fuck-wit-me-you-know-i-got-it)

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Bonbon took a nice shower and snuggling in a blanket 🐑💓