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i reread a few of our messages today. what has me gotten me to this point? the last few messages showed how i was trying to see what was wrong. and you wouldn’t tell me anything. 

it brings back bad feelings. anger, frustration and sadness. 

i need to forever forget you.

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thinking of you

::m(k)s

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fri(ends)

to the ex friends, 

i don’t mean to be mean. or harsh. or “bold”. 

i love you. and i want(ed) the best for you. 

best of luck. 

xx. m(k)s

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i can admit it now.. i loved you 

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Note #2: 

When I look back to when we were friends, it’s crazy to me much how I loved you. 

Yes, I LOVED you.

You were my favorite person in the world - the one I wanted to be with 24/7. 

I was afraid to admit this - even to my best friend. Love? Love is crazy. And I was crazy enough to think you might’ve love me too.. or at least care for me. 

It wasn’t a selfish or jealous type of love. It was the kind of love where I just wanted you to be happy, and get whatever you wants. 

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sometimes i still think of you:

NOTE #1 

I don’t miss you anymore, or feel sad. 

But I still can’t help but think about you at times. 

Sometimes, I feel weird that you still pop into my head. 

We haven’t talked forever, and we left each other on bad terms. 

I no longer feel the need to fix us - or just make us “okay” with each other

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Which reminds me of this stupid thing I did. One night, I had a dream about us. I’ve sat down somewhere outside and we apologized to each other.. and I made the stupid mistake messaging you the day after and telling you about this and trying to get closure... 

it was a waste of time. 

m(k)s