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🎨 drawing for commissions 🔗twitch.tv/mochipon_

look! the vstreamer finally vstreaming again!

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i had intentions of streaming today, well for the past 2-3 days, but everyone's needed my attention like almost constantly for the past at least 4-ish days so i'm feeling kinda scrambled and tired.

i am going to ATTEMPT to wake up at a reasonable time tomorrow and try to do a stream but my alarm has basically refused to wake me up for the past few days and it's been incredibly annoying.. fingers crossed.

hoping i'll get to bc one of my parents is also home the rest of the week and it's incredibly difficult to stream with them around always interrupting.

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okayokayokay i had a long weekend of not really doing much on pc (mostly cos i was pouty and upset towards the beginning of it about my newer pc still not being functional) and i've been brainrotting with my friend and sibling on a game franchise i loathe + was worried about my grandpa making it through a risky procedure today when he's already really weak from the past months + complications.

but i feel a bit better now. brain is refreshed. time to get back on some art things. OTL have to drag the works i was doing off my newer pc tho. such a pain

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spent the day with my plants. re-potted some of them to bigger pots (top middle is a BEAST at growing)

sibling says they're gonna give me their succulent plant, too c:< excited cos it's 'donkey tail' and i love those so much. gotta figure out how to keep it since it spills over and hangs ~

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so here's the deal...

i really really really hate coming on anywhere and fussing, ranting or lamenting about things but… i'm extremely stressed, frustrated and upset.

my main pc is fucked, apparently. for the past 3 months, i've been working off of my old, dinosaur aged pc (it's 10+ years old, barely works, has trouble booting etc) ever since my newer pc started having serious issues. over this past weekend, i was finally able to take it the shop and get it looked at. they informed me a day later that one of the ram sticks was bad (as my partner had already suspected) and i was charged 100 bucks for this discovery, that i had to borrow from my parents.

they voicemail that i had received informing me of the issues found, that if i wanted repairs, it would cost 40 bucks alone for install + whatever price i chose to spend for new ram stick(s), however, once i visited the store to actually SPEAK to someone (their phone system is trash and no one would answer/return my call), i was told any parts install would cost SIXTY bucks instead and offered new parts costing from 100-120 in range, which would ultimately make the total cost + the 100 for diagnosis, close to 200 bucks.

my partner says that's a ridiculous price to pay for something that can be popped in and out to replace but unfortunately, i'm not very knowledgeable about hardware and hardware installation so i don't feel confident in going in there myself and replacing it/them even if i got my hands on new parts and we are also long distance so he's not able to do the install for me.

what i thought should be 'thankfully', the shop took out the 'bad' stick and i was told i should be able to bring my pc home and use it RELATIVELY normally without replacing it at this time, it just would not be able to run at the same capacity as it could have if it had both sticks of ram installed. at this time, it's worked for a total of.. a day and a half normally and without issue before having the same major issues again; web browser/tabs crashing, apps fully crashing or not operating (discord is currently a blank/grey window for me right now and i have to use the browser app to even use it), inability to install anything and finally, a full blue screened pc crash; so now i'm assuming BOTH sticks were bad and the brand installed is trash. (i do not know the brand of any parts installed in my pc as my ex purchased them all months before our relationship ended)

so what's the point i'm trying to get to?

i'm in desperate need of some money. i'm a disabled, unemployed person who my parents basically resent for needing their support for survival and i've been trying VERY hard to work towards making ANY kind of income from my creative skills in order to start saving up to attempt to move out of my parents' home and across several states to live my partner as, after being kicked out and left by my ex, has landed me in yet another home that doesn't respect or treat me fairly and takes a toll on my mental health/stress and motivation/focus on a daily basis. the added daily stress of not knowing if my (EXPENSIVE) devices are reliable and functioning has made it extra difficult to stay focused and motivated to keep moving towards my goals.

i currently have no financial nor food security as my parents often (intentionally) leave me out of meals, don't allow me any cash to go shop for myself and tell me to get a job, on the rare occasions i do happen to ask for 5-10 bucks for some dinner, same as they did when i asked for them to help me repair a device that COULD be a job for me if i could just get it back to working condition.

i am VERY new to doing commissions and i understand it does take some time to establish a good work flow + trustworthy reputation as a commission artist but i am determined to work hard and as efficiently as possible to provide clients with the best possible work i can produce. i am NOT, however, new to the art market world as i've had many mutuals and friends who have had commission shops or have gone on to produce their own physical merchandise so i've had many years of observing the processes and progressions.

at this current time, i'm considering setting aside my plans for vtuber development i had for this year which would have included working on small, 'mini' debuts leading up to a larger, legit debut as i progressed to learn to make my own environment overlays and assets + relearning live2d skills to rig my own model, to solely focus on constantly making art to showcase my skills for hire. i am also considering, after polishing up my commissions page more, including smaller, bonus arts with larger piece purchases as a small thank u for people helping me gain work and funds for my needs.

i'm just.. really drained and tired of prolonged issues taking a toll on me, both general life things i've experienced most my life and now these frustrating tech problems that i hope would have been non-existent with a newer pc as i had been experiencing many troubles with my old pc for years (this new pc is only a year old). i'm ready to be able to have peace in my life and to focus on things that are fulfilling to me and bettering skills that bring me joy.

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hey all, it was supposed to be a game stream tonight but my pc is acting a bit funny still and it's been kind of a stressful day so i think i'm gonna take tonight off and if i feel like it this weekend, pop a stream on then. if not, see u all monday ~

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❱❱ 🔴 live now ~

🎨 art study 🔗 twitch.tv/mochipon_

trying to fight the adhd to practice some arts drop by, hang out and maybe even study with me ~

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i just got a call back about my desktop i dropped off at the shop yesterday already. was s'posed to take 3 days. and wouldn't u know, it does have a bad ram stick like my big brain, smarty pants partner said

and they wanna charge 40 bucks just to install it 🙃 what a time to be long distance from partner cos he could do it for free orz (he coulda honestly done it all for free other than the cost of a new stick OTL)

(i don't feel confident enough on my own to do it as i don't mess with hardware/installation and even the guy yesterday said they're positioned in a weird spot so i feel even LESS confident about it)

i'm hoping that the install cost + new stick doesn't end up being another 100 OTL but i am glad it's not a more expensive problem bc i was so scared it was an SSD or mobo issue

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so. i finally took my newer pc to the shop today. was a bit miffed bc i had gone up there a couple weeks to talk to someone about how much it would cost to figure out what's wrong with it and i was told then it was free for them to look at and told today it was anywhere between 100-200 bucks.

which was annoying. thankfully, my mom agreed to pay to get it looked at bc i didn't wanna have to lug it back home and take it back up there again at some other time to do it all over again (it's extremely heavy) but i'm PRAYING it's an inexpensive fix bc i'm prolly already not gonna hear the end of needing $100 just to get it diagnosed. but with that being said, i'm gonna adjust my commission stuff around so i can try to earn that money back (and whatever else i might need to fix it up) to pay mom back (and then hopefully start saving for a new phone cos mine is whacked rn)

(i also didn't care much for the attitude of the person who helped me. they were kinda acting like i don't know shit about pcs)

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i recently found out that one of our local grocery stores carries ramune now so i HAD to grab one cos i have yet had to a chance to try it.

i was so excited to buy it.

i finally opened it and tried it today. it's more seltzer-y than i expected but the strawb flavor is still good and overall i'm enjoying it ^^

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we finally finished calamity! (minus a successful boss rush but we got to at least like.. 93% 😭)

i'll be finding a different game to play for next week's friday game stream c: (i just gotta remember what games i had going before we wanted to blorb out to that one XD )

❱❱ 🔴 live now ~

🎮 Terraria (calamity mod) w/ partner 🔗 twitch.tv/mochipon_

is THIS the night we finish calamity? 👀 who knows these last few bosses are kicking our ass XD

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❱❱ 🔴 live now ~

🎮 Terraria (calamity mod) w/ partner 🔗 twitch.tv/mochipon_

is THIS the night we finish calamity? 👀 who knows these last few bosses are kicking our ass XD

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i keep stumbling across this game in development and it's soooooo cute. not sure if the dev is opting for a pixel style or hand drawn, both are extremely cute but there's something extra endearing about the hand drawn ; w ;

hope to see this release some day bc i would love to cozy up with it in the future ~

Little bakery

Mary the squirrel bakes the best pies in the while Wanderwood! Come here, sit next to the window, have a cup of herbal tea, and rest before your next adventure.

Background art for the slice-of-life game Wanderwood.

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❱❱ 🔴 live now ~

🎨 working on commissions 🔗 twitch.tv/mochipon_

making myself hungy drawing delicious bread 🤤

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❱❱ 🔴 live now ~

🎨 working on commissions 🔗 twitch.tv/mochipon_

c:< finishing up some commission work and jammin' out to eurobeats ~

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❱❱ 🔴 live now ~

🎮 Stardew Valley (new update) 🔗 twitch.tv/mochipon_

two adhd doofuses play new stardew update!

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