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In another world, I do hope I can meet you again.

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It is still a hard thing to be vulnerable. I dont want to worry people and spread bad vibes. I only do when things are really hard.

It hurts when we open our hearts to people because vulnerability comes with the risk of being misunderstood, rejected, or taken for granted. However, the act of opening up is also a courageous step towards genuine connection and emotional growth. While not every experience of vulnerability will be positive, each one teaches us more about ourselves and others. It's important to remember that the pain of a broken heart often leads to greater strength, wisdom, and eventually, to finding someone who appreciates and reciprocates our openness and honesty.

R.M. Drake

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"It only takes 5 seconds to say hi"

I know as adults, people's lives are busy. With a lot of stuff personal stuff going on, some people have no time to communicate and reconnect with people. I think that's the harsh reality of growing up. Friendships come and go, and your friendship is taken to a test. In a romantic relationship, long distance are the hardest. It's hard to make it work. In a friendship, it also is. So why is it that for friendships long distance can work while in romantic relationships, it cannot? What is the difference? Is there a difference in love?

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Tutoring Experience

Date: May 31, 2025

I have tutored this semester, and it has been a wonderful experience. However, sometimes I wish I didn't because I was so busy and tired, I couldn't fulfill all my responsibilities. Nevertheless, I do hope that they at least learned something and passed their exams. Me? I wish I could have done better. Tutoring this second semester, when there were comprehensive exams these was so tiring. Still, it was a wonderful experience for me. Thank you, everyone!!

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Thesis Journey

Date: May 31, 2025

It has been a long time since I last posted on my blog. A lot has happened these past few months, and I haven't been motivated to post. However, I'll now share my thesis journey.

Last April 29, we had our defense proposal. It was stressful since they moved the date a month earlier, and we only had a week to consolidate the papers and finish analyzing our data. It really was a stressful week, and I was even venting to a friend about how I didn't feel anything anymore during that time. We were really clutching that week. Even the forms were only given the day before, and we were still editing too, so it was so tiring. My legs were about to fall out because we had to go back and forth between the offices and the printing shop outside school. It was a good thing I had a laptop since it saved us so much time. In the end, the only comments were format and better representation of figures, which were easy fixes. I was so glad it was over, and we were supposed to have an evaluation exam in the afternoon, but it was moved. I did celebrate and ate ramen alone in SM Batangas to treat myself before the big exam week the following week. Our thesis adviser, Mam Angie, has been so helpful to our thesis, and Doc Bryan has helped us so much to finish our thesis. I don't think we could have survived and finished our thesis without them. I will always be forever grateful to them, and we wish to repay them in any way we can.

Why do I look super awkward in pictures? Anyways, last May 22, our program chair signed us up for a college research competition. We are to present our thesis to them. It was like another defense proposal, but without grades. We also had to present a 10-page summary of our paper and align it with the Sustainable Development Goals (SDGs). It was nerve-wrecking, but we did it. We didn't win anything, but I felt happy since the panel was really intrigued with our study about Liberica coffee. Not to mention, our thesis adviser is super supportive of us because we had a mock defense at lunch before our presentation. She was there too, watching us when other thesis advisers were not there. I'm too grateful, she was always helping us with everything. Good news, though, is my classmate won an award, so I'm happy because someone in our program grabbed one. Their thesis title is really interesting, and it was even supported by DOST.

Do you think everything's finished? We have no rest because after the research forum, we had to prepare our paper for hardbound. We had to make the last edit changes and several requirements. It was so stressful and I was really crying every night. I couldn't even vent out to people except my brother. I won't explain what happened but my partner and I were so stressed and I was really feeling down. I beat myself up a lot because I keep making mistakes. Not to mention, I'm insanely broke because we had to print 5 copies of hardbound which costs around 4K in total. I'm really helplessly broke HAHA. Anyways, we did finish everything last May 22. We submitted to the Dean, library and registrar. Everything is finished now with our thesis. It really was a rollercoaster.

This time, I have to finish the practice sheets and exams given by the review center because we will start our review in June. I had to pause studying for weeks too, because it was tiring to always study. Last semester, we had exams every week or every other day. In addition, we also had to finish our experimentation and writing of the thesis paper. Everything is done for now. I didn't take a lot of pictures due to stress, but I will still remember them. There, the only pictures I got were of our food in the cafe we usually get our stuff done, since the place has wifi and is near school. Sometimes, I wish I had taken more pictures and videos, but I'm happy to share even these little memories in my blog. I do have these memories in my heart. Even if I forget them, I would still remember the feelings I felt during these times. That is the end of my thesis journey blog for now. I don't really post pictures on my Instagram, instead, I write here because I can share my full experiences and opinions here.

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Understand me. I'm not like an ordinary world. I have my madness, I live in another dimension and I do not have time for things that have no soul.

Charles Bukowski

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I am now craving for garlic bread 💖

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Maybe it is time to live life as if it is your last

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Date: April 09, 2025

I bought a digicam a while back. Today, the stickers and strap I ordered arrived! I am so happy to be getting a digicam even if they are old because I have always wanted a camera of my own. I know phones are better but I like to carry a small camera that is dedicated for photos only! I want to take lots of photos for memories. I began to take simple photos during my college because I regretted not taking any during my high school years. This time, I want to use it to capture memories of my travel, experiences and people I loved!! It looks like I don't need a job anymore to buy an expensive camera because I already got one (which is cheaper and also almost brand new). I got a great deal with this.

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Worries

Date: April 6, 2025

There are days where I feel incompetent and worry a lot. Im very emotional so I tend to get sad and cry a lot in my sleep. I keep telling myself "everything will be fine" but the thoughts in my head say the opposite. I feel scared, anxious, worried about the present.

"What if I cant make it?"

"Everyone is doing well except me"

"Am I good enough?"

"Am I just a failure?"

Even if I keep convincing myself all of these will pass, deep in my heart, I could not see the goal. Right now, I just feel so anxious of my tests this week, I keep crying haha. I just lost all my confidence. I dont believe in myself.

Sometimes, crying and overcoming the moment are what I do to ease the pain. It wont go away but just for a moment, I want to keep going. There were days wherein I want to end myself, but I stopped myself. Why? I dont want to see people cry. I just cant bear knowing I would end myself without doing all the things I want to do. Im still young after all.

Im here, we're here trying to survive. Even if we cant see the light today, I hope that someday, everyone who had been struggling with life, can see the light.

Even if I feel scared, I just have to keep going. Even if I just want to skip to the future, I have to overcome the moment. That's life, it is painful but it is also beautiful. I like to convince myself it is beautiful.

These are some lyrics of a song I listen to always whenever I feel sad. "Life is still going on" from NCT Dream. Their music gives me hopes and I like to read them whenever I feel hopeless.

Everyone seems to be going ahead, I'm the only one that has stopped

That's life, A vague sense of anxiety that seems to be unavoidable

Tell me if you're feeling that, I feel that too sometimes

Why is your spirit down these days?Straighten your shoulders, I'm by your side

Nothing can stop you from doing it

Someday things will pass, you'll know that in the end

Life is still going on after all. Remember that.

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Wonder huh? Isnt it always nice to be curious of things you like? You get engaged and into the flow of things.

Always be on the lookout for the presence of wonder.

E.B. White

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Im emotionally drained and tired. Can someone hug me just this once? I need comfort from anyone. I wanna cry into someone's arms and let them tell me everything is going to be okay.

She is at a point in her life where she just wants to hug someone and tell them how tired and drained she really is. Someone who can make her feel safe, seen, secured, and protected.

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I used to be like this with you, careful of every action and word I say to protect the friendship. But now I dont. This means I let you know I trust you and please never ever break my heart.

“I like when I don’t have to be careful what I say. That’s when you know you’re with the right people.”

— Unknown