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Randy is so lucky he wasnt a teen in 2018 you know his mom wouldve made him download Life360

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ouch..

in a lot of ways randy & benson mirror each other but there’s this one gaping disconnect in which being hurt and being powerless was so fundamental to bensons childhood, and so integral to his worldview following it, that he cant really parse randys trauma. to have felt so immensely in control of his environment at that age, to have felt his own impact on the world around him so deeply that it completely stunted him. to have felt dangerous, to have hurt instead of being hurt, and this being a bad thing? hes. not really following, sort of in amused disbelief until randy starts crying. even after that he rolls his eyes at him, tells him to just forget it. like i’ve always understood benson picking a giraffe, what it meant to him then, this idea of seeming so impossibly tall and sturdy and at peace, but it took me way longer to get what it meant for randy to pick a crocodile, a creature defined broadly by its danger and violent tragedy, that those things are fundamental to its nature. their jaws will grow back their blunt hooked teeth a dozen times over. it’s what they’re designed for, they cant help that all they can do is bite down.

randy, on the other hand, i think is left understanding benson. not all of it, it’d be impossible for him to, but he is able to him in a way benson misses out on in miss beards bathroom. randy is smart, he is observant, with for what little benson gave him, both involuntarily & intentionally, he paid attention. 

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beach day with parker, samira and mel (watching santos trying to surf but actually eating shit)

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LOOOVE THEM

like … benson going in to work on his 40th birthday, as miserable as he’s ever been in his life. four decades on the planet and nothing to show for it but a minimum wage fast food job and a room in his ma’s house. his back is all fucked up from the shitty box spring and from lifting crates in the storeroom and his dick only works like half the time and he’s starting to find gray hairs in his mustache. it’s a pretty sad fucking state of affairs and he doesn’t see any real way out of it.

he’s mopping up and feeling real sorry for himself when bradley walks in and says hi, benson, and pushes a small white box into his hands. because months ago, when the kid was in one of his rare talkative moods that only happen when they’re closing together, alone, he’d asked benson when his birthday was. and benson had answered, just to get bradley off his back. he’d forgotten that conversation completely. but bradley remembered.

it’s a chocolate cupcake from rouses with white frosting and a piped buttercream flower. benson licks it off his fingers during his lunch break, leaning against his car. the sugar makes his teeth ache. he feels ridiculous. he feels kinda good.

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Trinity Santos and her pet roommate Dennis Whitaker

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real talk I am incredibly grateful that the pitt writers included the scene where robby reprimands langdon for speaking to santos that way. does santos overstep at times? absolutely. but robby said it best: harassment has zero educational value.

and let’s not pretend that langdon was trying to teacher her in that moment and just made a misstep. he was attacking her personally because he didn’t like her, and that’s shown since he chose not to reprimand samira at all

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Trinity Santos I love you with my whole heart

trinity santos and her FRIENDS!!!!

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DAMN this is good

THE PITT: I got 99 problems and a bitch ain't one! i love my doctors on screen !!! crazy how they're going to be my pillars of strength when i start med school

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Randy Bradley, I’ll always love you

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this came to me in a dream

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jennifer's body au for the passenger!!!

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a visual i like to bounce around in my head that is often at odds with fanart is that benson isn’t a strong, healthy dude. he’s a mid 30s tradey-type piece of shit who’s smoked since he was 13 and only really retains muscle because he’s a typical southern boy who works with his hands.

he’s probably got an egregious farmer’s tan that causes him to cut the arms off his old shirts once he finally notices, bags under his eyes, and the Dirtiest Nails™️ you’ve ever seen. He’s the kind of guy you have to remind to put out his cigarette/spit out his toothpick before he wanders in for a family dinner.

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lesbian ranson i love you 😖😖

Doodleess

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i sort of fell off of The Passenger in the middle of writing a fic due to finishing up uni but now that im free i'm forcing myself back into it so i can finally finish writing about benson and randy getting blazed