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So Covid-19, huh?

Hey everyone, wasn't sure if I wanted to comment on the Corona Virus outbreaks or not, but it's gotten to the point where I feel I could at least offer some encouragement. I'm a little under-informed admittedly (took too long to learn it was a respitory fever smh), so please look up your government stuff for what you should and shouldn't be doing. My state just gave the order for all citizens remain home, no non-essential travel...so, looks like I have nothing but time to work on my writing haha! I intend to keep brainstorming my Ruins alternate ending! There's some important details that need ironing out before I can begin drafting, a certain little puzzle of plotting if you will. It'd be very easy to make it all a bunch of gush but I want to make it tight. So, keep clean for Kuvira, won't you? Lol ❤️

My dad said in all his years he's never seen a situation quite like this. It may be oddly comforting to remember that this is a new experience for everyone! Plans change and get postponed. Also prayers going out to those suffering from it to get the treatment they need. In the meantime, what should all us unaffected people do while in lockdown? Lots of things actually! There's no need to feel closed in!Talk with distant family and friends online! Do some spring cleaning around your home! Start up some exercises! Work on a hobby or craft project, or write like me! (Play videogames like me too, haha.) I hear depending on your location you can even go on walks? That might have changed idk. If you're not actively involved with Covid, that's actually a good thing. Keep it that way until further notice to keep it from spreading. Don't put others at risk. Stay safe and stay clean, ya'll. ✌️

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The Future of Me.

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Hello and welcome to another Dirty Kuvira Apologist(TM) direct! Forgive me for being me, I'm just updating in a (hopefully) brief way, sharing where I'm at with my fandom stuff to anyone who's interested. I've been more inconsistent than I'd like to be, not that I desire to be inconsistent. Where to start!

1. ROTE's ending fucking sucks.

This is probably known but I need to admit it for my mental health. My optimism has only hurt me when it comes to trying to rationalize Ruins' ending, because there is no rationalizing that which wasn't rationalized in the first place, rationally. I can and will rant about this topic when I have the internet to do so with, but I attested all throughout Ruins' publication that it was doing just fine as a Kuvira comeback story, and heck I still do! ...Except for the ending. That terrible horrible embarrassing confusing mess of an ending. It's so hard to explain, gosh it's such a damn mess. Basically, Kuvira got a happy ending but it's hard to be happy about it when you realize how it gets there. Whether you look at is as abuse or incompetency (the latter can lead to the former tbh), Ruins' ending tries to make Kuvira's defiance out to be a flaw, eeeeven though it's the only reason that Team Avatar is saved and Guan is defeated. For her to be forced to say she is 100% guilty on all fronts of her life is proven by Ruins itself to be utterly, painfully falsified. Ruins' ending belongs to a different fucking book, and even then I don't think it should've gotten past the beta-reader stage. Kuvira (after forfeiting the Empire) is doing good and is nowhere near as dangerous as ROTE suddenly decided she was. Also: does Bryke is toxic assholes? Who can say. At this rate it certainly won't be them. No I'm not salty I'm more accurately sour and bitter as all Hell. But!! Here's what's sweet...!!

2. Life From The Ashes.

Like I said in one of my recentish posts...Fanon vs. Canon. Fiction is formless and sometimes even the original author doesn't know what exactly they were doing. If you don't like a certain detail in a story, you just follow Joker's random but applicable advice from Batman: Arkham City: "You can ignore it. Just, delete it!"

This is all a very roundabout way of saying I'm writing a fucking alternate ending for Ruins of the Empire ya'll. And considering my first actual fanfic was a 120,000 word fifth season for LOK, this should be as easy as taking candy from a prepubescent child. (In fact, rewriting Ruins would be a perfect segway into rewriting that first fanfic, so I'm kinda glad about that.) Cuz here's the thing! Ruins' ending didn't just corrupt Kuvira's closure, but it also made the new govenor plot peeter out in a very unsatisfying way! Just "yeah do whatever you want guys, work it out I guess." Like wtf? If Kuvira's ending had been clean, I would've been able to overlook the main plot getting essentially dropped, but no, both were smothered. So, in the spirit of restoration, why not combine them?

I know, I know, it's a bit of a longshot, and I already said this once in a theory/prediction a few months ago, but Toph DID already register a spot for a Miss Beifong to become governor, so why let that go to waste? ;) That'll be the candy-stealing part to figure out. Not to mention why the FRICK would you include Korra and Kuvira back-to-back on the cover when that never actually happened in Part 3??? Not even metaphorically!! I'll have to recitify that aspect as well. If you've seen uh ANY of my posts here, you should be painfully aware that I am outrageously fond of the idea of "the K girls" becoming friends. I'll be reserved about it I promise! This ending will be a beginning is all! If you catch my (platonic) drift. I aim to make everything overall not only more human and understanding for Kuvira, but a realistic 50/50 "one step at a time" vibe in general as well.

Soooo yeah. I got plans, ya'll. Take heart. Bryke may have given Kuvira life but they don't have the authority in how she gets to live it. The fans do. It may not happen for a little while yet, but I will most certainly brief those interested in my ideas for my alternate ending in the meantime. And if you want spoilers for my original ending extended thoughts just imagine me with a headache cussing out Bryke lol.

In other news, been playing Yoshi's Island lately. Adorable ass game it is.

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This is from eons ago but it still comes to mind.

This hurts. This hurts a lot. This hurts not quite as much as it did when I first saw it but it's still rough for many reasons. Seeing Kuvira restrained in general is pretty obviously painful for one, but the underlying reason for that is the fact that she's so misunderstood.

Cuz that's the thing. Kuvira's NOT crazy. She's very sane and that's what's unfortunate! The Great Uniter should've never happened, but she was either abused into thinking the way she did, or if she was truly just rebellious since birth, she's still repeatedly shown to be conflicted about herself the entire time! She's a confused victim either way! *hoarse screaming*

The only thing that's crazy is thinking people act out of pure evil selfishness. It's not like that. It's more like cause and effect. "Bullies were bullied. Hurt people hurt people." Feeling like you've got nowhere else to go and nothing else to do but push back against all the garbage isn't crazy, it's pretty damn normal considering how our world wishes to operate. "They think we'll just sit there and take it, like good little boys!" Or better yet, "Why should I apologize for being a monster when no one's apologized for turning me into one?"

How can someone apologize for something that's not entirely their fault? Cause and effect. Ask yourself why did that person resort to what they did in the first place? And even if the answer is someone is literally clinically insane, that doesn't change the fact--if only enhances it--that they will need HELP to improve.

“Kuvira is crazy!”

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I MADE THIS REALIZATION A LITTLE BIT AGO AND HAVENT BEEN ABLE TO POST IT

THIS IS ACTUALLY KINDA BIG GUYS WTF

KUVIRA STILL THINKS OF SU AS HER MOTHER, EVEN THROUGH ALL THIS!

IN THE HEAT OF THE MOMENT, SHE ACCIDENTALLY CALLED HER MOM

gang did kuvira just call suyin mom

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#spoliers

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#Spoilers

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what do you think of the kuvira flash backs in ruins of the empire part 3?

I liked that we got a closer look into Kuviras past life with the Beifong family and she showed a bit her vulnerable side in the last picture,..

BUT there could have been much more....

Like, why didn't they show us how Kuvira lost her temper? How did Kuviras parents treat her? What lead up to this situation? They were just hiding this in 2 or 3 speech bubbles! This is the most important fact we got about her past, the reason WHY Kuvira was abandoned by her parents. Another question is how could Su leave Opal alone with a violent kid, who nearly killed her own mother? Or wasn't it that bad? Was it an accident?

This comic still left a lot of open questions...

Why were they making Kuviras redemption even more difficult? Kuvira already did a lot of bad stuff, and then they turn her into a aggressive, bratty child, who nearly killed her own mother? Wasnt a giant mech, destroying a whole city, killing Hiroshi etc. enough to make a redemption and forgiveness nearly impossible?

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I finished Ruins of the Empire and I feel like I’ve been starved to the point where it’s not enough I NEED MORE I need to see Kuvira heal and be finally happy I really just need to see the genuine and carefree smile on her face

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HAHA YES KUVIRA WASN'T THE ONE SEGREGATING PEOPLE IN THE PRISON CAMPS IT WAS OTHER GENERALS' CORRUPTION NOT HER'S KUVIRA'S NOT A XENOPHOBE

I apologize, just let me celebrate this one little victory. I always knew something was missing in the assumption of Kuvira supposedly being racist, that being the fact that she never said anything about hating the other nations; people just assumed it 'cause she was already doing so much shady stuff.

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On the brightside of all this, at least the cover for the triple-chapter bundle for Rote is absolutely beautiful. Korra and Kuv posing up a storm in the front. I love Kuvira's hair here; her classic bangs mixed with the bun is goddess levels of pretty.

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Why Kuvira's happy ending isn't happy...

Hey guys. I'm still exhausted and still nauseous, much less chipper than my previous post was. So I'm back with some thoughts on Ruins of the Empire's ending.

I'm still okay with the idea that Kuvira was just afraid to open up to the Beifongs instead of them neglecting her. A fine interpretation, still plenty of hurt puppy feelings to wrap warm blankets around. And them offering her hospitality is again beautiful in a way; I love reconciliation. It's honestly been my hope for Kuv and the Beifongs. Her living with them after all this is not my problem.

So why am I still sick? It's Kuvira being forced to say that she was completely guilty and did no good.

And as a symptomatic flaw, Kuvira saying Su has "nothing to apologize for." It's super selfless of Kuv but them both having faults would've been so much more realistic and digestible. Kuvira saying she's always been in the wrong just hurts because her being unable to open up or trust others isn't exactly something she can control. Like, "Just open yourself up to the possibility of getting hurt and betrayed again! No sweat." That's just calloused and lacking in any self-awareness. (She was also super happy during her confession and it just feels like they were cramming words into her throat.) Suyin being merciful and saving Kuvira from going back to prison alleviates this point somewhat.

(Little rant: that little bit of alleviation is getting smothered because it's wrapped up in so much legal garbage. Court and the justice system is just...so inhumane and sterile. And Suyin freakin' doubles down on that fact by reiterating Kuvira is on house arrest! "We'll put you back in prison if you even think about escaping." Perhaps that could be just a teasing joke but there's some things that just have too much emotional weight to be innocently funny. I'm trying to take it as a joke, and I can honestly see them all throwing around some banter around like that, but Su's body language in that specific panel didn't indicate much levity.) They took off her cuffs though. That's important. She has autonomy. But yet she also she doesn't cuz she's on house arrest. No wonder I'm so confused and hurt.

If the comic had just cut out a few lines of dialogue, I think I might be totally fine. If the book had literally ended WITHOUT Kuvira and Suyin's conversation and just skipped to the last two pages with their hug and Kuvira being freed, it would have been such a cleaner ending. No joke.

But Kuvira being forced to apologize when she did do good (potentially after being abused) has made me relapse in my eating habits. This wouldn't have happened it the book didn't end this way. Of course Kuvira couldn't get a clean ending. It's a happy ending but it's hard to be happy about it. I just want to stop feeling sick.

I've tried using different interpretations. Kuvira being abused and distrusting hurts, and being defiant and prideful still doesn't work. Nothing is making this ending good. A person in Kuvira's situation needs HELP, not punishment. No matter the reason she acted out, it's just terrible and horrible for her to be made to do this. Kuvira DID DO GOOD before she got corrupted, and she DID FEEL GUILTY about the bad she caused after it was all said and done!

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Hey all! Dove here.

And holy shit have the past 12 hours been absolutely exhausting for me. My brain is wracked, my knuckles numb, I'm sweating, and my tummy has been upset the entire time. This is my...what, third time writing this update?

So! How are you? I could be better. I read Ruins of the Empire Part 3. I have...no opinions on it currently! I have heard and formulated many theories on its ending. At first, I thought it was a beautiful surprise. Then I realized some things and went through nearly all the 5 stages of grief in one sitting. Some think it's an absolute betrayal of Kuvira's character, and I started agreeing. I was so damn confused and frustrated...until I realized a third theory:

We read the damn book wrong. The Kuvira we thought we knew may not have actually ever existed.

Wow I sound like I'm joking. Let me explain.

FANON VS. CANON. What do you know?

Back in Book 4, we never actually knew the full story with Kuvira. All we had were assumptions. We knew her biological parents sucked, but we kind of just assumed the Beifongs were lazy parents too. And that may not actually be the case. Likewise, we kind of assume Kuvira resented the Beifongs for abandoning her, when that ALSO may not have exactly been the case. It may actually be the opposites for those two.

I'm not saying Kuvira was actually evil all along. My little "asshole theory" has yet to be confirmed, and, if my current theory turns out to be correct, it was never truly even CLOSE to being that way in the first place.

(I am never saying little and asshole in the same sentence ever again...)

BASICALLY, if Kuvira was never evil, and the Beifongs didn't neglect her, what's left?

This: what Bolin said Opal said back in Part 1...

My current theory? Kuvira was never trying to escape a neglectful adoptive family. She was just afraid to accept their love, hence her distancing and habit of running away. And understandably so!

This paints Kuvira praising Suyin at the end of the book as a perfect mother in a SO much better light (supposedly the light it was meant to be seen in in the first place.) Yes it still hurts to see Kuvira humbling herself and calling herself guilty, yes it hurts to see her be treated so roughly for so long, but, here's the beautiful part: Suyin didn't leave Kuvira to suffer in prison due to her lack of coping mechanisms. (Agh it hurts, the thought hurts.) She did what a mother SHOULD do. The thing that makes me tear up just thinking about it. She... Well, you probably read the book. Basically, custody can refer to overseeing both prisoners and children. ❤️

...Orrrrrr maybe I'm wrong and Bryke deserves to be fired. Who knows! I don't, yet. I'm gonna be rereading ALL 3 parts of Ruins with this interpretation in mind. I'll be relaying my thoughts here. We're in this together, everyone. I'm not giving up just yet. I WILL have answers. I'm gonna face this head-on.

Like the goshdamn heroine who inspires me does.

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Dear followers,

I intend to read Ruins Part 3 tomorrow. Would you be interested in me posting all of my predictions and summary-thoughts tonight? Crappy internet has allowed me to remain free from spoilers.

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Guys I'm scaaared about ROTE Part 3..

It's rather uncharacteristic of me to be apprehensive all of a sudden, but I can't help it. I have been positive--and still am--about Ruins as a whole, but things are...catching up.

Part 1 brought Kuvira back just as I remembered her, and showed that they were gonna DO some stuff with her. Part 2 got delayed but it was FIERCE, not as lore-heavy as I had anticipated but fierce. Despite Part 3's summaries saying Kuvira's gonna pull some kind of trick, I almost feel like 2 has already showed her true colors. It showed that not only is she genuine in the present (which *I* already knew, teehee), but even Suyin did, no, HAS a softspot for Kuvira. Her parents didn't love her, but even after all this, even despite how cold she's acted, Suyin doesn't truly "hate" Kuvira. I'm finally starting to see Su's perspective amidst all this now. It probably hurts to see your daughter you loved step all over on your ideals, and to top it off she said she's "not guilty" you're just not sure if you can trust her anymore...that is, until the end of Part 2 when she declined to put her in the platinum cell 😏😏😏

So again, I've been down with what's happening in Ruins. It's been making things surprisingly less painful concerning the...EVERYTHING about Kuvira. (The five year wait for it to even happen and electrode belt not withstanding. But hell even the belt I get Asami's reasoning for using! Not the belt itself but just the no-win situation of not knowing just how much Kuv could be trusted in the moment. Asami should've have shocked her, but Kuvira shouldn't have choked Guan. But then again, we all knew Guan was cheating and brainwashing people so he kinda deserved. Messy messy messy. That's how Kuv operates.)

Ruins has been fun(?), but...here's where I'm getting nervous. Just look at what there's still left to bring closure to in Part 3: Kuvira and the Beifongs, Kuvira and Baatar, Baatar and Sheng (seriously were they a thing?? skskdjkdsk), Kuvira and the Krew, AND getting the new governor, AND addressing Kuvira's fate--is Ruins going to be her swan song, a bittersweet farewell, or is it going to solidify her as an important part of The Legend of Korra's future which she indeliably is and rightfully deserves??

I just...that's so much for one last book to handle. These books are a liiiittle on the short side for me, so I just...can't help but fret that something might go wrong. Either Part 3 is gonna be a pulse-pounding gauntlet of hype and emotions, or...maybe Kuvira's curse of never properly getting full closure is going to continue...

I don't want to assume that nor am I predicting that. I'm only fearing it. Again, if Part 3 leaves me just sobbing, I am totally alright with that. Make Kuvira's redemption be as liberating as the five year wait to see it was hopeless and agonizing.

Unfortunately, only time will tell. We can't control it, we can only wait It's officially released on the 25th. I'll be digging into our endgame sometime soon after that I reckon. And even after our little trilogy here wraps up I'll still be looking back and nitpicking the positives 'till my fingers fall off.

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Say what you will about the new Sonic movie but I for one am still taken aback by the impeccable pathos they gave Sonic himself. I have never had this kind of sympathy for the character before. I'm a little floored!

Living as isolated as he did, he used his physical superspeed and hyperactivity (always talking, often to himself) to comfort himself and try to distract himself from his lonliness, essentially acting as his own friend.

Can this be a feature in all future Sonics please lol?

(The movie itself is mildly cheesy but still rather genuine and hilarious! You should enjoy it if you can take it easy and enjoy being entertained.)

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Hey friendo! Just wondering where you found the preview pages for part three?

You mean the one with Korra & Kuvira fighting back-to-back with Zaofu in the background? That's Part 3's cover, it's easy to find when you search it up in stores. I've only seen the cover but they quite possibly could be officially previewing actual pages now! Been swamped and trying to avoid spoilers so idk, might be out of the loop

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You may have heard of Part 1's Itty Bitty Kuvira Committee. Now there's a Cute Cramped Korra Council.