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Cause know you can only starve so much, till you like how it feels

Please Eat - Nicole Dollanganger

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I know my life will end in suicide. I'm sure of it.

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A lil' vent:

i have to move back into my parents house for the summer cause i can't afford my own place and im lowkey so scared cause being around them is my biggest trigger. I just don't want to revert back into the scared little girl they expect me to be, I want to actually continue living my life instead of being so depressed that I can't go outside or do anything but rot/$h. But I know that they will insult/shame me and make me doubt myself. They think the way i dress/do my makeup is whorish, they purposefully bring up my phobias (from when i was going through a major depressive episode) to encourage me to not get a job or try to date, and they freak out when i dont pick up the phone or respond to texts immediately (and i have to constantly update them on where i am). They've been nice enough over the phone, since I i moved away but anytime we're in the same room they end up cursing me out or calling me crazy (which really hurts since they never noticed or cared that i was mentally ill while growing up, and now they use it to make me insecure). I know this is super melodramatic, and that my parents care about me, but I just don't want to become a husk of a person again.

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‘i’m so tired’

‘but you didn’t do anything all day.’

i really hope you get tortured and die miserably.

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I feel so unwanted and unloved, it’s killing me

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spring: depressed in a hopeful way

summer: depressed in a manic way

autumn: depressed in a nostalgic way

winter: depressed in a depressed way

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♡ i dont think the world is better off without me, i think im better off without the world ♡

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reblog if you eat less than a toddler ପ(⑅ˊᵕˋ⑅)ଓ

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I peel myself away in layers, but no matter how much I strip, I’m still here trapped in a body that isn’t mine, wearing a face that won’t come off.

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“Forget everything. Open the windows. Clear the room. The wind blows through it. You see only its emptiness, you search in every corner and don’t find yourself.”

— Franz Kafka, Diaries 1914-1923

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me rn

one last binge then i’ll lock in please ill lock in i swear

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atp my moods swinging by the hour :(

atp i feel like id rather be depressed than have my mood keep swinging every eight hours

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Upon Receiving My Inheritance by William Fargason

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