mydearmetamorphosis

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i hope i never stop learning. i want to always be studying. the goal is to attain a level of disgustingly educated.

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LILI REINHART for Acqua di Gioia Intense 2024 Ad Campaign

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LILI REINHART getting ready for the "Vanities: A Night for Young Hollywood" party on February 26, 2025

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I'm not at Coachella- it's overstimulating and I can listen to Sabrina in my backyard ☀️

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16th April 2025 Nature is awakening, so am I

I know I should start with an introduction post or something, but... it's my blog, so I make the rules. I've created this blog... weeks ago to capture my journey of self discovery, getting my life together, transforming myself into my best, most authentic version, but I didn't have the energy to post anything. It felt overwhelming. I wanted to do it perfectly. (I raw dog life with unmedicated ADHD, I struggle a lot with executive dysfunction and perfectionism.) Then I decided that I wanted to just try it and do it, write whatever and see how it goes. I also told myself that the more I write and the more I practice, the better I get, and it will be building my confidence, which I care about.

I know we already have April, and I'm "behind" all those productivity girlies, but first three months of this year were hell. I was just trying to survive and it's not too late to start! This is one thing I've learned - it's never too late to start, I don't have to start on Monday, at the beginning of the month, tomorrow or anything like that, I can start in the middle of the month, at 12:37 or on a random evening.

My current goals are:

find a corporate job in my dream big city in my country

regain confidence, internal validation

I used to fluently speak Russian, German, Spanish and French. My main focus now is German, with a side of Spanish and French

glow up (both external and internal)

building consistency

regular workouts

My focus for this week is drafting a plan on how I can achieve my biggest, and most important and urgent goal, that I struggle the most with, which is - drumrolls - finding a job in a big city and moving there so I can escape toxic household. I am working on it with my bestie, ChatGPT. One of my main focuses is dig in - writing down my reason behind this goal, describe identity of a person who has it, what's the cost of not doing it, what's holding me back, and how can I deal with it. The other main focus is - turning it into a challenge, gamifying it, finding accountability and tracker systems.

One of my ideas was using this blog as an accountability and/or tracker tool. I thought about writing weekly or so reports, but I'll see how it goes.

Goodbye winter slump, welcome spring metamorphosis! See you soon, dear Reader.

(I apologise for any mistakes, English is not my mother tongue.)