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Any of you fuckers remember me? It’s mylifeinfandom and I’m back bitches 👏👏 although when the fuck I changed my url I don’t know

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i am, for a while

not coming on here in fact, i'm making a new blog. i can not deal with the hundreds of followers i have despite u dont talk to me but i feel like im too known now i've had this blog for five years and the last thing i wanna do is deactivate. like properly. but i cant go on feeling the way i do rn i know, i have a lot of people who follow me who are neurotypical, and people who are not. i know a lot of people dont understand how my head works, and you probably dont understand my posts at the minute. i am so so looking forward to my baby being born, and i'm still months away, i am literally guarding this tiny person with my life, as i care too much for babs than i do myself, so killing myself is obviously out of the question. in pregnancy you get a shit tonne of hormones. like, loads, and the fact that i have p bad mental health along with all these hormones is making me worse than i've been in months. seriously, months i need time off from this blog to go and be anonymous in my own right where i can restart my story to people who are actually helping me, not people who are probs thinking 'here she goes again' like i know the majority dont even read this shit so this is a gd bye, and i am hoping i'll be back, in at least a fee months, and if when i log back on there are messages for my new blog, i will tell you, thank u

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inspiration for autumn

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this is so GOOD and PUre

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i think im gonna stop coming on here for a while?? like i either send asks and offend people or i send asks and no one answers so i feel like a total asshole because i must be getting ignored for some reason??? its mostly anon too so im sorry im unintentionally being a bitch but what else can i do?? not be myself i mean i would LOVE that but unfortunately /personalitydisorder/

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spoilers pls dont shoot me if you read (3rd book because i skimmed overviews bc i was getting agitated idk)

i dont get the maze runner?? like if they're supposed to rebuild the world which is dying off bc they're immune, are all the lads supposed to u know with kaya? and reproduce with her? and stuff?? like idek poor girl probably doesn't wanna do that much

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After reading back the messages i sent to that person (that offended them, but i really didnt mean to, there were spelling mistakes which read as diff words an im stupid not to check first) it really wasnt that bad and in just about to disassociate i can feel that coming on so im reassuring myself it wasnt that bad! no it genuinely wasnt and i apologised multiple times but apparently they dont care because obviously i was looking down on their (their for a reason did folks) mental health but in the end i didnt mean what it looked like and i apologised so it has to not trigger me into disassociation despite the fct im finding it super hard to type bevause thats what it does i cant feel inside my bldy bevause im not into it im gonna stop typing bevause i thought it wouldhelp??? but i infact need spencer brb

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Your daily reminder, if you needed one, that the mainstream press are a bunch of corrupt bastards.

Christ. The Tamir Rice one still takes my breath away.

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does bpd interfere with education? just because i could never, never, get on with education. i was never motivated, it enjoyed it, and i sure as hell did not get on with teachers (tb to one time i was trying to quit smoking and threw all my stuff off the table and shouted at my tutor and she literally told me sit down and get on with it), and most students i didn't get on with either because i was 'weird and crazy' like i honestly never perceived myself as 'crazy' (a horrible i word tbh) but all through schooling systems (secondary, and then college) people called me dark, and mental, and odd, and all sorts of shit so yeah, does bpd interfere with your schooling life and has anyone else bad severe problems with it? it's why i'm not going uni, i know i couldn't deal with it (big ups to those who do deal with it as difficult as it is x)

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How We Treat Mental Illness Vs. How We Treat Physical Illness

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That lady looks so worried haha love it