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I just want something wrong to happen to justify why I feel this way

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me when I leave and never come back

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I can't do it I'd never do it I'm too much of a fucking bitch about it to do it but god do i want to, I want to give up I want to be gone, noone cares nobody acknowledges it nobody comments on it I could be sobbing about to pass out or throw up infront of them and they wouldn't fucking acknowledge it still they'd ask are you okay I'd say yes and boom conversation over just fucking kill me give me an excuse I don't want to talk to anyone I don't wanna be around anyone how can nobody take a fucking hint I wish I had an excuse a good reason to do it but I don't so my shit doesn't fucking matter

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I've never felt worse

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I feel nauseous i hate everyone I genuinely want to strangle someone and I can see through them I see they don't like me I know the truth so st9p fucking faking I'm not an idiot I'm not stupid I'm not naive tell me the truth

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everyone should just tell me they want me to die a slow painful excruciating death whenever they say no to hanging out..like damn I see through you guys

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I will sell both of my kidneys for a consistent friendship that I'm secure in and don't overthink and end up ruining it for myself because I can't live in peace

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life

i dont think i have friends anymore, ive become so insufferable and annoying or im angry and mean. everyone frustrates me and i can tell they all like eachother more than they like me and it makes me want to die because i dont understand what ive done. ive tried so hard for so long and ive put myself out there ive been loud, quiet, nice, mean, neutral, friendly, avoidant, EVERYTHING, just to find a version that people like and none of those versions have worked. im so tired of being around people to the point ive stopped all contact with everyone but now they all have eachother and are happy and ive realised im quite literally useless, theres no reason for me to be in anybodys life because i have no positive qualities, fml

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waking up early to stare at nothing and zone out for 20 minutes is my favourite hobby

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what I hallucinate as I bleed out in the bath on a random wednesday at 2am

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do you guys also ruin every good thing in your life or is that just me

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do you guys also ruin every good thing in your life or is that just me

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if I kill myself they'll finally feel bad for what they did to me

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I wanna dissappear, i don't wanna runaway, I just wanna vanish and be gone and nobody can conspire about what happened to me or where I went and everything's the same I'm just not there

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I love my cat she's so cute when she dies nobody is gonna be able to contact me bury me with her

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life is annoying

i'm so overwhelmed there's so much to do and so much going on around me i cant keep up and minor inconveniences make me wanna cry and isolate myself so nothing bothers me ever again and my room is so messy so its hard to feel less stressed in there but the idea of cleaning it just makes me wanna die

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tbh