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actually bro why am i staying clean for someone who doesn’t even give me the proper attention they should in a relationship?? like you don’t even fr care ab me.

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i’m trying so hard to stay clean but everything is getting to me and i need something, and then im looking back at how much weight ive gained, idk why i can’t stop eating rn it’s driving me insane, i miss being noticeably small and skinny, everything is driving me crazy.

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smoking is so attractive…

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i miss being 100 pounds and cutting all the time.

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i was doing good, wasn’t relapsing, wasn’t even thinking about it either, it’s sad that the tiniest thing makes me relapse. i’m almost disappointed in myself.

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cvt right before work, mid shift my arm started feeling achy almost 💔💔

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i haven’t cu t in a while, i’ve felt the urge to but ultimately don’t have energy, it’s sad.

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i wish i could cut deeper than what i do, tbh staying clean hasn’t been an option lately, i can’t stay clean even if i tried though.

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i luv my little box :>

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i’m struggling so hard to stay clean, i just wanna cut everywhere on my body.

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i miss when i cut my wrists. it’s always felt more relieving there

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