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Here I am in the middle of it all. Not at the bottom, not near the peak. Just caught between the climb and the collapse.

And still, the days stretch thin. Work, grind, give, repeat. I bleed into my hours only to see it all disappear into the hands that are not mine.

Everyone wants something. Everyone needs something. And somehow, I’m always the answer.

It’s a dozen voices pulling at me. Requests wrapped in guilt, needs disguised as love, obligations I never chose but bear anyway.

They call it responsibility. I call it drowning. Because I can’t breathe under the weight of things I’m expected to carry quietly.

There are days I break the numbers apart, cut corners, stretch coins, pray to make it through. And still they ask, as if I am a well that never runs dry. As if I wasn’t already pouring from empty.

No one sees what it takes to keep standing. No one hears the silence after giving everything and being told it still isn’t enough.

Here I am — not at the start, not at the end. Just… here. In the middle. And the middle is the heaviest place of all.

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A little coffee break after lunch. My bestfriend met me near my office for lunch and coffee. An hour was definitely not enough for a catch up.

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I am so overwhelmed right now. My thesis manuscript's deadline is in 2 days. My groupmates won't really cooperate on anything. I chose them as my groupmates and now I feel as if I have made the wrong decision.

From the very beginning of our thesis 1 subject, the proposals, title defense, and revisions, i feel like i did all the work. No part of the manuscript was not rewritten by me. They have tried to write but it was all shit. No joke. It was like they haven't graduated high school yet when in fact, in a months time we are bound to graduate college.

I'm sick of doing all the work. All they did for our thesis was compile and recompile the chapters, mind the margin and the spacings. And even then they fail. Fucking hell. They are so incompetent. Then they have the guts to individually message me complaining that they were doing more work than then other members and that this time around someone else should compile the chapters. Like wtf??? That's all you're tasked to do and you still want to pass on that task. Gosh. I'm just so overwhelemed.

I saw the other groups pass their manuscript today and wow let me tell you i found one paper to be unexpectedly excellent. Our paper was supposed to be compiled already but i thought fuck it let me revise the last chapter again, it needs to be better.

I asked the help of my groupmates to revise and surprise surprise, no reply. Someone said that she thought we were done with the paper and i told her we needed to revise. They all said to do it tomorrow but i bet you my life, i'll still be the one to do the work tomorrow.

They can't put two sentences together in the paper without messing up. What the hell is wrong with their minds??? To think these people are also candidates for latin honors? Fuck this shit.

It's like i have to command them everytime so that they will move otherwise they think there is nothing else to do. Just wow.

Be ready for that fucking peer evaluation because you are bound to get that fucking failing mark from me you fucking bitches.

ANYWAY SORRY FOR THE RANT. HAHAHAHA

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Here is my brand new challenge! So many people have asked if I would be doing it again this year and I really hope you will all enjoy doing it! I’m so excited to get to know you all through the posts and celebrate winter with you!

❄️ Info ❄️  

If you do the challenge, use the tag #winter studying challenge so I (and others) can see your posts. I will try to reblog as many posts in the tag as possible. 

This challenge will run for 6 weeks - from the 1st December to the 14th January

There are daily prompts for every day of the challenge

But, as always, I don’t expect everyone to be able to post every day so you can always do catch-up posts!

If you have any questions, feel free to send me an ask!

❄️ Rules ❄️

If you want to do the challenge, please reblog this post

If you do it on any other social media platform (ie. Instagram), please give credit (my instagram | my tiktok | my pinterest)

The challenge will officially start on the 1st December, but if you come across this later, you can definitely start anytime during these six weeks!

DISCLAIMER: Quite a few of the prompts in December are to do with Christmas because that is what I celebrate at this time of year. I was very aware of that when I was writing the prompts but I did not think that I knew enough about other festivals and holidays at this time to write prompts about them. I did not want any prompts I made to be disrespectful. If you don’t celebrate Christmas, please know that this challenge is still for you! You can either just use the prompts anyway (if they are applicable) or adapt them to fit the festival or holiday that you celebrate. If it is impossible to adapt, then simply tell me about what you celebrate during winter because I am excited to learn about them! 

❄️ Prompts ❄️

1st December - Do you like winter?

2nd December - What is your favourite thing about winter?

3rd December - What is your least favourite thing about winter?

4th December - What is an unpopular opinion that you have about winter? 

5th December - Are you usually busy during winter?

6th December - Do you get a break from school/uni/work during winter?

7th December - How do you stay motivated during winter?

8th December - What is your favourite winter outfit? 

9th December  - What winter activities do you love? 

10th December - What do you usually do during the holidays?

11th December - What is a cherished family tradition from your childhood?

12th December - What is a favourite family Christmas/holiday memory that has stuck with you through the years? Why?

13th December - Does your family have any odd traditions during the holidays?

14th December - When do you buy your Christmas presents?

15th December - Share a memorable gift-opening moment from your childhood.

16th December - What is the best gift you ever gave someone?

17th December - What is your favourite Christmas movie?

18th December - What is your favourite Christmas song/carol?

19th December - What is a Christmas song that makes you cringe?

20th December - What is your favourite and least favourite holiday/winter food?

21st December - What was the most memorable holiday celebration you had at school?

22nd December - Finish this thought, “It wouldn’t be Christmas without _____.”

23rd December - If you could design your own ugly Christmas sweater, what would it look like?

24th December - What is your Christmas wish?

25th December - Merry Christmas! Tell us about your day!

26th December - What do you do the day after Christmas?

27th December - What was the best moment of Christmas?

28th December - What are you grateful for?

29th December - Christmas or New Years

30th December - What is your best memory from 2020?

31st December - Would you rather stay home or go out on New Year’s Eve?

1st January - Happy New Year! What did you learn in the past year? 

2nd January - Have you made any New Years’ Resolutions?

3rd January - What is your aim for 2022?

4th January - What is the most important thing that is going to happen to you this year?

5th January - Would you rather live in a world where it is always winter or always summer?

6th January - What is the weather like during winter in your country?

7th January - Do you like the cold and where is the coldest place you’ve ever been to?

8th January - What is one place you could never live because of the winter weather?

9th January - Have you ever seen snow? When was the last time you saw it?

10th January - Would you rather have a snowball fight or build a big snowman?

11th January - Would you rather have an entire snow week off from school or an extra week of summer vacation?

12th January - What is your favourite winter drink?

13th January - Have a birthday in winter or in summer? 

14th January - What was your favourite thing about winter this year?

❄️ So this is the challenge! I hope that you will join in and enjoy doing it this winter! Please message me or send me an ask if you have any questions about it or just want to have a chat <3 ❄️

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Some late night thesis work...

Q#2 - How long do you plan on pursuing academia?

After my bachelor's degree, I plan to work for sometime before continuing to law school. So that's another 4 more years in academia and another year after that for bar reviews. Anyway, plans never go according our way, so I guess we'll see!

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pembroke college looks good during golden hour

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Currently prepping for tomorrow's meeting with my thesis mates. Hopefully, they will all have great inputs tomorrow.

Answering all the university asks in my daily postings, so here we go:

Question 1: How far along are you in your studies?

I'm currently a graduating student on my 2nd to the last semester! Yay!!! I'm working on my thesis and by 8 or so months, I'm gonna graduate already.

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Will answer all of this daily so that I will be motivated to post.

university asks

How far along are you in your studies?

How far do you plan on pursuing academia?

What made you want to attend university?

What do you study?

What do you wish to accomplish by studying at university?

What do you want to do with your degree?

What’s your dream job?

Has university been what you expected it to be?

What’s the most important thing you have learned about yourself at university?

What surprised you the most about university?

What classes are you taking this/next semester?

What has been the most interesting class you’ve taken?

What has been your favourite class you’ve taken?

What is your favourite professor like?

If you have to write a thesis, what are you going to write it on?

What is your weird academic niche?

What’s your favourite thing about academia?

What’s your least favourite thing about academia?

Would you go to a different university if you had to choose again?

Would you choose a different subject if you had to choose again?

If you couldn’t study the subject you study now, what would you study?

What is your favourite course style?

Theoretical or practical?

Best book you’ve had to read for a course?

Worst book you’ve had to read for a course?

Favourite online resource?

The topic of the best essay you’ve written?

Would you ever consider getting a phd?

Who is doing the most interesting research in your field at the moment?

Do you have any minors?

What is subject you wish your university taught but doesn’t?

What is an area of your subject you wish your university taught but doesn’t?

The best advice anyone has ever given you about university?

Do you care about your grades?

Do you think you study enough?

How did your attitude towards studying and school change between high school and university?

What do you do to rewind?

Best tip for making friends at university?

Are you involved in any clubs/societies/extracurriculars?

Have you done or are you planning on doing any internships?

What is an interesting subject that you would never study yourself?

What has been your favourite thing about university so far?

What is your plan B career?

Do you ever regret your choice of subject or university?

Do you ever regret going to university?

How do you study?

What do you wish you’d done differently in your first year?

What things do you think you did right in your first year?

What are your thoughts on Academia?

Strangest university tip you have?

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Reareanged my study space again. I need a little more space and minimalism to help me focus on my thesis. My old study table gets crowded easily because of a shelf on the right side so I removed it and put on a new wallpaper.

Next goal: repaint the walls.

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Bought a new notebook from the japan store yesterday. 2 am in the morning today, as I was about to go to sleep, I got a burst of motivation and I started working on my thesis. I also filled my november calendar before posting it.

This month will be eventful but it will be a good month!

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I missed the studyblr community!!! I plan to regularly post again. ♥️

It's thesis season for me. Our group's proposed topic has finally been approved after 10 proposed topics. Thank you lord!

Coming up with topics is really exhausting especially because you have to really dig deep into a topic before you propose it to make sure that it is connected to our discipline, it's relevant, and is thesis worthy.

Wish me luck!!!

Anyway, i bought a ring light for my online class. Just a small one. One of my profa complained last semester that he can't see me clearly, and my video seems foggy so here we go hahahaha

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my masterpost | my studygram | ask me anything | how to stop procrastinating series

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[transcript under the cut]

Other advice posts that may be of interest:

All About Procrastination

How To Study When You Really Don’t Want To

Common Study Mistakes

7 Strategies to Improve Concentration

Keep reading

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i’ve done one too many research papers and have learned the different ways of collecting research data cos of my course! here are 4 different ways of collecting data for qualitative research studies, as well as the different approaches under each type! personally, my current fave is the content analysis! i’m currently working on a paper using that method <3 honestly wish i could have learned about these different approaches, instead of just opting to conduct interviews for all my papers in the past. but i hope this helps!

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Reblogging this as it is now thesis season for me!!!

Okay. If you are doing research - especially history research, here are a couple steps to possibly save your life.

1) Get thee to wikipedia.

Seriously. You can’t site it because it has the academic credibility of some random graffitti, and you can’t quote it because the exact writing and content changes every time it gets edited, BUT:

It will almost certainly be more accurate than printed encyclopedias, which are updated every ten years or so, and only require a few eyes compared to wikipedia, where any trolling will probably get you banned or suspended in hours. Not to mention it’s getting a LOT more peer reviews. So you can’t quote it, but it’s probably fairly accurate.

And the best part? After just about every tidbit of information, there’s going to be a little citation number. If you click it, it’ll take you down to the references section (and even highlight the relevant one). You can then go to the original source - which will be much more credible. What’s more is you’ll have specific page numbers (if it’s a book), and you’ll know exactly what kind of information you’re looking for.

2) If it’s a book, Internet Archive is your best friend

The search function isn’t great if you’re looking up questions like you would into your google (or ecosia - if you want to do a good thing for the earth) search bar, but if you know the author and year the book was published, it’s great. You’ll have this information already on hand from step one, if that’s how you found the book in the first place.

There are about 30 million books on Internet Archive and counting, so there’s a good chance they’re going to have what you’re looking for. However, about half of them are check-out only. Checking out is actually easy. You need to set up a free account, and make sure to give them a valid email address because they will send you a verification email. After that, you can check out any book you want for an hour. (excelent for focus!)

If you are only looking at specific pages, you should be fine, but there’s also other longer options for checking stuff out for some books. (I think?)

Also, in many books, you can search for specific keywords within the book, and there’s a little slider at the bottom to find pages.

3) watch Overly Sarcastic Production’s “How to do research”

Seriously. It’s amazing. My first point is confirmed in the video which is just more proof that I’m right /hj

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taglist: @candlemouse @bookdragonfanish @book-limerence

as always, if you want to be added to/removed from any of my taglists, just let me know! Lists found pinned to the top of my blog :D

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I've been inactive for almost the whole month of may and wasn't able to continue the 100 days of productivity challenge that I started.

May has been a rough month for me but hello june! It's finally my birth month and It's going to be good! June is always good to me.

And congratulations to me as well for making it to the Dean's list! Second semester is going so crazy fast, but I know I can keep up.

It's also time for me to look for an internship but the difficult thing about it is that it can only be online.

I'll try to be more active in tumblr this June!

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100 days of productivity

6/100

May 6, 2021

We were supposed to just have asynchronous mode of learning until modified enhanced community quarantine lasts but our professor for media laws and ethics requested for a sync class. He's confusing af, cause he doesn't make sense at all when he talks. He's jus rambling on about random things.