naoikyu

[naoikyu]

The Sixth

Hõla amigos,

I'm here again, well nthg has been going on very recently. Busy with more exams that are gonna last a month, then again I'll have a month free for prep for another month full of different exams of which I'm 90% will make me lose my mind. Well of the the girls who actually contributed a whole lot in tuning my mental health and also in me having a huge breakdown that lasted a week had texted me on snapchat. Well I ofc didn't see it immediately cuz I was busy in a tuition and before I could open it the text was gone, deleted, poof into the air. well that's all the things that happend from the last post date till now. see ya later ppl ;p

tata, bye bye

𝓐𝓭𝓲𝓸𝓼

naoikyu

[naoikyu]

The Fifth!!

Hõla Amigos,

It's been long since ive written anything on this platform, just to update whoever is keeping up with my posts I scored above average in that "important" exam and well everyone is kinda happy for me but those marks I got also got their expectations for what's to come next cross the limits of the sky.

My dad is back 2 days ago, best part is he got the best assorted chocolates that last absolutely delicious and he got me 2 Chanel perfumes, although I don't have the habit of perfumes but ever since I started to grow fond of strong scents even I want to start using a perfume. One of my dad's colleague/friend send me sterling silver necklace and rings set that also had lab grown diamonds imbedded in them.

Next batch of exam are gonna start soon somewhere around 16th of March. Run BTS is again on hiatus , why ppl I understand one of the members is away for a while and soon one by one are also gonna take a small break from their career's for military enlistment. And NO I'm not one of the crazy fan's of BTS, yes I do like their music and their variety show Run BTS cuz it's damn funny and even the content is real creative. I also do like all the other Kpop groups, BUT above all singers, song-writers, rappers I love I mean I absolutely LOVE Taylor swift.

Anyway that's all for now, see you all soon.BTW ppl who want some show recommendations please do watch Sky Castle, it is quite a popular show many of you may have already watched it. But those who didn't make sure u guys do, also it isn't a romance drama. If u do watch some romance drama recommendations do drop by a message

𝓐𝓭𝓲𝓸𝓼

[naoikyu]

The Fourth!!

Hõla Amigos,

to everyone out there who reads these immature useless posts of mine which are mostly or lets just say always of me ranting about my issues in my teenage life (I'm 17 btw). So u might or might not have noticed the ! mark beside the title, if u did then good job *pat, if u didn't well u did now so, good job *pat. I'm in an absolutely good mood. It's the beginning of 27th January 2023, 5 days to go for THE exam which I think i will do well maybe slightly well, anyway hoping for the best. So here's the tea about my life, I've officially cut off all my connection with those toxic people from my grade and never have I ever felt so damn free and good, as I don't need constant approval of what I'm doing and I don't need to get praised for everything I do, I mean they used to praise each other even for chugging a water bottle in one go which I thought was necessary cuz well I can be influenced easily. I spoke about this all about my two best friends and the best advice I got was, "Forget the people, forget what happend but, don't forget the lesson". That was so meaningful full and I'm really thankful I have people in my life who can give me such advice. I also spoke to another person we used to be close but then she has her own group and I used to but still we are good friends and she has been through the same with the same ppl like me anyway I helped her then and she repaid the favour. Calling it like a favour isn't ryt ig, she was always there for me no favours but yea a support I can lean on at any time of the day. Anyway that's a chapter closed and in the journal I wrote about them I gonna write maximum one more entry after the exam is done and put it away forever. I will still have it and take it with me everywhere cuz I don't want others to read, this is a chapter closed and in a few months a new chapter starts and the set is gonna be whatever university I will be getting in. I still hope they have a great life ahead cuz even if they didn't consider me their friend and only pretended to be one for me but I did, I considered one of them as one of my best friends too but yea it doesn't matter anymore. Wishing that what happend to me to re-happen in their life wouldn't make me any different from the ppl I resent (them) and I beg to differ so yea but still I hope everyone what they deserves at the end. After all, all this journey is for a happy ending isn't it (kinda girly or princessy but doesn't matter I want a happy ending in whatever way form it may come all that matters is happiness)

IDK if I will get a relationship or more drama or feel more burdened BUT one thing's for sure I will make friends that are gonna be worth calling friends for life. There's only requirement to become my friend Don't Be Toxic, that's all. If you're an introvert no problem mate I got you, I have two best friends who are the world's biggest introverts,

Have a great day ppl,

𝒜𝒹𝒾����𝓈

naoikyu

[naoikyu]

For the very first time ever an outsider whom ive known for months hurt my mental health to the point where I want to ruin myself, thanks to those 3 ppl who are by my side as my pillars helping me move on and make my new chapters preview as beautiful as possible.

naoikyu

[naoikyu]

The line quoted in the previous post is from this song, I have absolute no idea how many ppl already know this but if u have forgotten this song then I'm reminding u of this and for those who don't know well this is my first song recommendation to you

ENJOY!!!!!

[naoikyu]

The Third

Hõla ppl,

This is the third instalment for my ranting session, by now I have 2 notes on my 'The First' post and 1 follower, and that's still great progress at least for a first timer like me. I'm good at talking to ppl but when it's expressing myself in form of words, which I love to do but I can't cuz I feel I'm not thaaat great with words. Anyway moving on, it's the 23rd of January 2023 and 9 days to go. I just hope I can make it and yes I've also made progress in my studies. The initial plan made after it was confirmed that my dad would be out of the country for the first session of this exam, that my mother would take me for the exam which I wasn't very happy with. Not cause I'm not on great terms with my mother always but she was never involved in my academics and school stuff ever since I was in kindergarten until now (I'm in 12th grade ryt now). But it was fine as we had no other option and my maternal grandparents couldn't come over as my grandpa and my dad had a huge fight couple months back, but yesterday my grandpa called my mom enquired about my exam session date and promised that he would come over a day before and accompany me to my exam. My mom absolutely looooovvveeesss her father and when the fight happened she was down for days and even till day she was sad that her father said he wouldn't come unless my dad apologised, before u get the wrong idea my grandpa was at fault in the fight he kind of betrayed my dad. Anyway he promised he would be there for me and I LOVE my grandMA more that anyone, she is the kindest soul I've ever met even after getting shit from most of the people in my family she still manages to go through everything with a smile on her face and she always supported me no matter what. Another thing in my family other than for me and my dad everyone has a very strong belief in astrology and according my stars my father and both my maternal and paternal grandparents are lucky for me. Anyway I'm hope my progress jumps higher and I actually get into a university that would make everyone proud.

Thanks to the 2 ppl, 1- who like my post, 2-who follows me. I don't know if ur comfortable being tagged or else I would've tagged u guys and thanked u. Anyway, have a great day folks.....

Wait. I forgot to mention this before but, there's this line from a song called 'Say Less by Rosie Darling' it goes:

"You find the chaos, if that's what you believe in"

P.S I'm open to all song recommendations

𝒜𝒹𝒾𝑜𝓈

naoikyu

[naoikyu]

The Second

So, yea I'm back again with a new load of shit I need to spew. I need to study yet I'm not for god knows what reason. My dad actually left for the business trip last night, and yea a month to go to see him again. When he returns his facial expressions will be either be full of disappointment or half or maybe one quarter filled with disappointment, 'cuz there's no way in hell is this man gonna be proud of my doings completely unless and until I've achieved the unthinkable which I'm not aiming for yet, emphasis on the 'yet' please. It's the 21st of January 2022 and 11 more days to go for the life deciding examination. Anyway I promise I'm gonna start on when my mom comes back home and at least completely 2 chapter before shutting down my brain for a good, well required 7hr sleep which btw I'm gonna loooooooovveee. Anyway hoping I actually ace this exam like I was planning and hope I find some motivation out of somewhere so that I get back to studying and start working my ass off againnnnnn..........

Have a great day ppl and also please spare from any negativity on my typo's or errors. This is just like an entry thing I'm going the difference is that it's on a social platform for who ever's out there to read, cuz lets agree what bad in making a few anonymous friends who are up for a good ass convo.

𝒜𝒹𝒾𝑜𝓈

naoikyu

[naoikyu]

The First

14 day's to go for my exams, I'm stuck in a place where ive never been in before. When ppl advised me to start putting my effort that I'm capable of I just waved them off thinking that by the end of the day I'll still have more time, after all i've only wasted one single day. Now that the deadline's close I realise the value of every single day I've wasted. With the continuous verbal tortur my mother has been putting me though all my life, now seems a bad time to do the same but nope she dosen't understand and still says absolute shit to me like always. My rock a.k.a. my father is flying out of the country for a month and ill be having to attend my exam the "life changing exam" without him, this being the first ever time I've ever done something this important without him, so hoping to have some beginners luck! Hope I can ace this test too and make it out like I always managed to do so.

I've just started out on Tumblr and wanted to put my thoughts out of my head. Wanna criticise me go ahead, mock me for my idea. But by any chance if u have thoughts that are somewhat same as mine I would love to have a good conversation with some who can actually out themselves in my shoes and can understand, not just those ppl who can do that but anyone who can help me get out of my misery. Anyway,

𝒜𝒹𝒾𝑜𝓈,

Naoikyu