neptunedivision

[neptunedivision]

Hello . Im back on this app. Im tired of everyone telling me that im disgusting and fat and ugly so im going back to good old pro 4n4 m14 tumblr

I basically binged today and i have a physics test tomorrow and also the bitch who was ruining my life left my school bc her nudes got leaked .

Will update on what i eat tmrw.

Bye💌

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Some bitch in my life keeps ruining everything for me. I hate her so much I hope she dies.

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I'm not necessarily looking to get extremely bad again because in like April??? I almost died and it was a whole thing...

Like everyone ik was all concerned and I don't want that. I just want more control. I don't even know why I'm back on here nothing bad is happening in my life and school hasn't even started yet so why am I on this stupid app spiralling like some crazy bitch with no social life.

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Also like I kind of stopped using tumblr like 5 or 6 months ago when I got in my 1st relationship, and I had a kind of talking stage (and my 1st kiss) like 2 weeks ago and it was nice but I can't help think that maybe she friend zoned me because I'm out of control and not good enough.

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I haven't been on here in a while. I mean I guess I recovered?

And it was okay but I feel like I'm getting bad again and I can't talk about this shit irl. So I guess I'm just going to spiral now.

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I love coffee.

But that's far from what I was going to post on here.

I hate how people exist.

I hate how some bitch from my class will get praised for saying she plays the violin and listens to shitty pop music

I hate how she will be congratulated for saying she plays one instrument and wants to learn bass guitar.

But when I play 6 instruments and constantly study,its not enough.

It's only good on her because she pretends to be mentally ill.

When you're actually ill it's not good enough.

But when a pretty white girl does it she's praised.

Fuck you man.

But also I'm literally so close to doxxing this bitch so she can die a painful death. I hate her.

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I can't do this anymore. I just want a friend. Nobody fucking talks to me anymore. The only good things I have are literature and coffee.

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I know I post a lot but it's just cause I think quite a bit too. I miss my home. I don't know why I HAD TO move to this batshit crazy country but I did

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I like this blog because nobody on here actually knows anything about me

Nobody on here can judge me for being proud of myself on here because Im just not that type of person on this blog.

This is a place where I dump all of the stuff I'll never say outloud.

All of the stuff that nobody paid attention to.

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My name is neptune.

I like sleeping,Coffee,And blogging.

I'm constantly alone.

I listen to music sometimes.

I don't know why I'm like this.

Im probably going to die soon.

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My mother is my worst enemy. She's constantly talking about losing weight and wanting to weigh less than me and i was really trying so hard to recover.

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I don't really feel much anymore. I mean, other than guilt. Every single time I eat or even look at food I feel guilty. Its fucking stupid. And it's not even like I can say this shit in real life because for some reason people seem to think whenever someone says something depressing they're attention seeking.

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I left because I didn't want to be abused anymore and the abuse just followed me.

If I'm ever a parent and I find my child holding themselves sobbing because I hurt them it means I've failed. But when my parents do this for years on end to the point where I don't even care anymore its discipline??

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MEET ME AT BLUE DINER ILL TAKE COFFEE AND TALK ABOUT NOTHING, BABY AT BLUE DINER, ILL TAKE ANYTHING YOU WANNA GIVE ME, BAAAAAABBBYYY