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Better/Worse/Different

By Monty

Scratching at the glass

Savoring the smoke

Swallowing back my guilt

“I will be happy”

A phrase I recite

While my nails grip my skin

In the same way you used to grip me

“I am happy”

A phrase I choke out

While memories swarm around my neurons

Skin picked raw and dried

A shuddering half-assed panic attack

Followed by a peaceful yogurt bowl

Eaten while staring out into the bright sky

Summer is coming

And I am changing

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ED recovery is really difficult, weight gain is hard to accept, blah blah… I FINALLY FIT INTO MY FAVORITE GREEN JEANS AGAIN WITHOUT A BELT

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DON'T SCARE US LIKE THAT!!!!!!

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Jkjk

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So @screecherofthenight made a post about social media au and I knew I had to draw it

Wolf 359 hype house is such a phrase lmaoooo

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This is a week old I’ve already changed my ford style (under the cut)

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Silly guys

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a big part of what makes eiffel feel like such a real person to me is that he's so average and unfulfilled even by attainable metrics. like, not even getting into any pop culture escapist fantasies. eiffel is the kind of guy who thinks if he was born a few decades earlier he'd be a traveling musician living out of a van, but realistically he'd be doing more or less the same stuff. he could be a local radio dj or a guy with a used record store or drive an old truck and have a yard full of rusty old cars up on cinder blocks he's trying to revitalize. he could be a skater, if he had the patience, and, um. the balance. zach once said that if eiffel had the money he'd buy a motorcycle and never learn how to ride it, just take a bunch of pictures of himself with it and tinker with it constantly, and if anyone asked why he doesn't ride it, he'd keep saying he wants to do some more work on it first. i think about that so much. there are a lot of things that he could do, that fit his sort of character archetype, and they aren't even remarkable things, but he doesn't. eiffel drove a corolla and worked at pizza hut and probably lived in a shitty apartment. sincerely, this is the best thing about him. this is why he's a real guy to me.

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Befriending people with different political views than you is all fun and games until you let it slip that you hate any and all forms of government and believe social disrupt is necessary for change to be made 😬

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All fun and games until you’re doing the full choreography and you pass the police like this

The uncontrollable urge to pull this move every time you listen to Overcompensate. Whether you’re walking, driving…

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josh pls return to your emo phase

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*walking into my therapy appointment dressed fabulously and smiling* haha yeah the guilt from experiencing PTSD symptoms is crushing me

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thank you for following me I have nothing to offer

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“Haha I’m an old soul”

Meaning going on a trip contains me lining up a wall of my medications on the counter

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Nobody understands the intimate relationship between stale snickers bars and me when I miss lunch to study

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Hey look it’s me

the most laid-back man in casualsberg 🎧 (once again drawn for me by @jamisonrivv!!)

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the chaos siblings