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story time.

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Actual Depression Tips

Those thousands of plates, bowls, wrappers and cups in your room that have been there for weeks and are going mouldy?

Invest in a plastic laundry basket like this one: 

you can by it here on amazon. they usually are really cheap and easy to get pretty much anywhere, and you can put all the plates/cups/wrappers in one easy-to-carry place rather than all over your bedroom. If you put it at the end of your bed, or beside it, next time you go downstairs you can just bring every plate with you at once.

also, you can get a Dishmatic washing up brush like this:

you can fill it up with washing up fluid so you don’t have to waste spoons squeezing it out every time you wanna clean a dish. They take pretty much a whole bottle of liquid at once so all you need is water! they’re super handy and you don’t have to get your hands in gross dirty water.

All those clothes all over your floor?

if you get another one of those laundry baskets i linked up there, it’s much easier to throw it in there rather than in a laundry basket, if you’re like me and just sorta throw stuff on the floor. 

if you prefer a laundry basket though, you can get a double hamper like this

which makes it easier to sort your laundry in. the next step is bringing it downstairs which is a bit of a struggle. my trick for it is rolling a d20 dice using this roller and if i get a number higher than 10, i get up and do it. if i don’t, i stay sitting/laying down for another hour or so.

Having trouble getting up and making food?

Two words: CANNED FOOD. 

if you get a little box or a basket (i have one in the shape of a kitty under my vanity) and keep it in your bedroom along with a can-opener and a utensil, stuff like this can last FOREVER. 

You can get all sorts of food in cans, and most of it is microwavable so it’s an easy cook! Also, fruit slices generally come in cans of their own juice, so they double as a snack AND a drink!

You can also get bottles like these:

these ones are sistema shaker bottles and they take about 700ml per bottle. i’ve found it’s way easier to just fill up a bottle with juice/water instead of making cups all the time.

Bath/shower just not happening?

For this, I’d recommend baby wipes - they can really make the difference in cleanliness of your body! These you can get, like, anywhere, but here’s a link for some on amazon too.

I also recommend some batiste dry shampoo for your hair! all you do is spray it then brush it in

Feeling lonely or isolated?

There’s a whole bunch of cool discord servers you can join! they’re usually open to anyone with the links (it has voice calls but not video as of yet) as well as Skype where you can video call friends! discord server group chats are fun because you can talk to people whenever you want to, but you don’t have to go in there if you’re not feeling like it.

These are just some of the things I do to help myself cope with my depression. It isn’t ever easy to do, but these, hopefully, are some things that can help with some of the struggles that come with it. These aren’t things that will “fix” the depression, or instantly make it better, they’re just some suggestions that can help - Seeing a doctor or a therapist you trust on top of these things can make all the difference.

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Transgender veterans and activists are speaking out against Donald Trump.

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Shots fired

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As someone who has been living with severe suicidal ideation my entire life I wanna tell you all something, you don’t have to stay alive for yourself. People will say it’s a bad idea to live for external things because they’re temporary, and it’s true living for yourself is ideal but if you’re not to that point yet that’s ok too. 

I’ve lived for my dog for the past 4 years, before that I lived for my snakes, before that I lived for my cat. You can live for whatever needs you and whatever matters to you. Live for your best friend, live for your plants, live for your pets, live for your animal crossing town. Live for whatever keeps you alive and the day will come when you can live for yourself.

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i really needed this today, so for anyone else who might

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I really want a science fiction story where aliens come to invade earth and effortlessly wipe out humanity, only to be fought off by the wildlife.

They were expecting military resistance. They weren’t counting on bears.

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Shirt Neutrality by Wingfeather (on tees here)

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it’s honestly so funny watching wikipedia and many historians desperately avoid calling a king who was so very obviously gay “gay” despite the fact that he fucked several guys and explicitly expressed physical attraction to them

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want to hear a joke? me and my anxiety sit inside a burning building and i say, “hey shouldn’t i call for help?” and my anxiety says “nah, you’re good” and i say, “i’m kind of sure i’m dying  and there are people outside  who are nice and are good at  firefighting” and my anxiety says, “they’re only nice  because they have to be  you shouldn’t burden them, they have plenty of other things they’d rather be doing” and i say, “how do i get out of here? can i at least think calmly?” and my anxiety says, “we don’t get out and we spend the whole thing crying.” and i say, “but"  and my anxiety says “shut up.” and it’s all very  funny.   i’m saying; my body is a burning building, i’m saying please don’t worry, i know it’s not your job to save me and besides, i don’t die lonely; i always come with the worst of company.

we’re all laughing. // r.i.d (via inkskinned)

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I felt so happy and chipper this morning... Now I don't.

Family fucks me over every time

My head hurts, my eyes hurt, my chest hurts, and my stomach hurts.

But none of this matters because they aren't going to change a thing.

I regret going to sleep

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my parents don’t know how to parent

-every kid who just can’t

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fucking ken

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I AM FUCKING TIRED OF THIS

KIGO IS A FUCKING ASSHOLE IN EVERY FUCKING REGARD

YOU think she's nice? That bitch doesn't give a shit about you, your problems, or your feelings. She is a Sociopath who doesn't care about anything but her self. AND I AM TIRED OF BEING THE PERSON SHE MAKES FEEL LIKE SHIT I AM TIRED OF BEING THE PERSON WHO SHE FIGHTS ALL THE TIME WITH I AM TIRED

Wanna know why I hate going anywhere without my arms covered up? It's because I'm trying to hide. It's not because of the hair on my arms or the scars, it's because I have had Kigo tell me for years everything about me is stupid, pointless, and I should shut up. She treats me like I am not worth talking to and I AM FUCKING DONE

When I get the chance, I want to leave NC, but I can't because leaving Mom alone with Dad or Kigo SCARES ME I am terrified of leaving Mom alone with either of them because Dad is sometimes the problem

You think I have anger problems? Sweetheart, I don't blow my shit and start swinging. People run away from me just because they think I'll hurt them WHEN I HAVE NEVER THROWN A PUNCH AT ANYONE IN THAT ENTIRE SCHOOL I yet to understand this, by the way. Kigo however, starts swinging when she doesn't get her way.

The Only Person In This Entire World That I Hate Is Her.

I hate the way she treats people like they don't matter, I hate that she never puts anyone first, I hate that she is so two-faced in front of people. If she doesn't like what you're talking about, she think's it's stupid and tells you to shut up until you do. You think she's nice and bubbly? No, she is a horrible smart person who has no problem insulting you or anything you do and because she is the way she is, everything gets dismissed because A) you didn't expect it, or B) you didn't get it.

Another thing I despise, THE SECOND OUR PARENTS ARE HOME she twists it around and I am the bad guy.

I LOCKED THE DOOR TO THE BASEMENT. She was down there. She told me she wasn't going to clean the basement. She insulted moms cooking, grabbed a chocolate muffin that mom made for Loki and I (Kigo has said on more than one occasion that chocolate is disgusting), and when I asked her why she would want a chocolate muffin. LAST chocolate muffin, she ignored me, I said "Hey" once, ignored again (she was literally five feet away from me). So I got pissed, and yelled "Why can't you even try to have a normal fucking conversation with me!"

I Try Ever Fucking Day To Get Along With Her And I Get The Same Thing Everyday And I Can't Keep Doing This! She's supposed to be my sister but she treats me like trash even more often than my father DID!

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Unhinged turned 1 today!

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That does not brighten my day. It makes me think of things I don't even want to remember!