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Grotesque and raw in the same way hearts are used to represent emotions. Savage and violent in a way that makes you a human. Kind and vulnerable in a way that makes you a monster. Because what if the things that scare us are just trying to protect us? What if we don't thank them after we took advantage of that?

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Once upon a time, in a place… not so far away from here,

lived a tiny boy. 

The tiny boy would run and laugh, laugh and run, sometimes even sit and chuckle. 

And within dead leaves he would lie and fall asleep. 

Yeah, within dead leaves is where he would fall asleep. 

The Tiny Boy lived in a rock. 

Next to trees so large and near a gorgeous pond. 

He would play all night and day, 

he would hide and joke around, 

and before sleep, the boy would pray, 

and before his pray he would pet frogs. 

One day the Boy wandered far away, away where the trees he loved couldn’t be seen. 

And no matter how hard he seeked, he could only watch the night embrace the forest.. 

The Tiny Boy decided to sleep, “Maybe tomorrow I will find a path!” 

But when tomorrow arrived, it left as soon as it came. 

And the Boy cried while promising the stars “Tomorrow I will definitely find a way back!” 

And so days passed, blurring into months. And then a year turning into more. 

The Boy looked up at the sky one time again. 

“If only I could be taller, just for one night, then maybe I’d be able to retrace my steps…” 

But the sky did not answer, and so, once again, the Boy fell asleep cold and afraid.

And the Boy dreamed, and then he woke up. 

He started to walk in the same direction in which the Sun woke up. 

But he noticed something quite perturbing for him: the trees were not tall and the river seemed thin. 

However, he kept walking towards the sun. Surely he just needed more sleep, and he could get it once he found his way back home. 

And then night came in drowning all lights and sounds. 

And the Boy laid back on top of some dead leaves he saw on the ground. 

“Maybe tomorrow will be the day” he said as his eyes closed and he cried once again. 

But when tomorrow arrived, the sun didn’t seem to move. 

The Boy kept walking, feeling more tired every hour. 

And when he almost lost hope and his eyes began to call tears to his face, the Boy saw something that made his knees shake. 

“That’s my house!” the Boy yelled, excitement and relief could be felt in his voice, “and that’s the pond where I would pet frogs!” he thought as he ran towards it “...but, why is it… so…” 

A pause, a heartbeat, a blink from The Universe Itself. 

“...small?” 

The Boy looked down at where his house was. He couldn’t see his mother nor could he move a muscle. 

And even the pond, gorgeous sanctuary filled with memories his mind couldn’t seem to recall right now, was just a puddle waiting to dry off the mud.

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words by kait rokowski

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Nature is beautiful ^_^

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it probably does stack.

10² has 36 units more than 8² 10² has 19 units more than 9² 9² has 17 units more than 8².

oh void you literally have to. find the previous odd number. and add it until you reach the desired result.

let's find 26². starting with 30² which equals 900 and has 59 units more than 29². 29² has 57 units more than 28². 28² has 55 units more than 27². 27² has 53 units more than 26². which means that 30² has (59+57+55+53) units more than 26² or 224 units less than 900. 26² equals 676 because it's the result of 900 minus 224.

you know what at this point it's easier to just multiply it but this is more interesting for some reason.

it works going up too. 13² has 25 units more than 12². 12² has 23 units more than 11² and 11² has 21 units more than 10². so 10² + (25+23+21) = 69 which means that 13² = 100 + 69 = 169

this is such an unnecessarily long process i love it.

do other powers do similar stuff.

thinking i discovered something worldchanging but in reality i just accidentally remembered something they teached me back when i thought watermelon was a difficult world

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THERE IS

so the pattern is basically. odd numbers. that makes perfect sense, trust.

3² has five circles added to 2², right? (because you need to add the number with itself and then subtract one) so in theory 10² should have 10+10-1 circles more than 9² which means 19 circles more than 81. AND IT DOES.

we now know how many units does the number add to its predecessor.

let's try with 20. in theory 20² should have 20+20-1 circles more than 19². 400 - 39 = 361 361 = 361

this is one of the tricks you use once in your life i swear.

now i wonder if the trick stacks(??) and if it does then how does it do it.

thinking i discovered something worldchanging but in reality i just accidentally remembered something they teached me back when i thought watermelon was a difficult world

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I think that I'm suppossed to hate you without regrets or lust, without any of the passion that covers our love with dust and recalling all the time that we'd felt mutual disgust just for the sake of drowning in memories that seem unjust.

"Oh, Daphne I implore you, please just allow me to explain, Their words are untruthful, I beg you to hear to me instead. Daphne, look into my eyes and we might be able to talk, I know I promised you heaven, please forgive this empty hell, although it's not really my fault since I'm under your spell"

"Dear Artemis, sun amongst stars, your charm sure has its limits. While I don't feel any heated dissappointment, as you might, I sure discovered that your face tends to blush right as you lie.  Not convenient for a person like you when you need our trust.  And changing the subject, may I ask why do you care so much?"

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was somebody gonna recommend me the sailor song or was i supposed to discover it through a trafficshipping animatic

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for the record, i was "how many clouds can i see in the sky today" bored. but then inspiration took my hand and started counting how much of a gap is there between perfect squares and if it follow or not a pattern.

for the record, it does follow a pattern.

1² = 1 and 2² = 4 the gap between 1 and 4 is of 3 units. 3² = 9 so the gap is now of 5 units.

it continues with all the odd numbers, i guess. i don't know if there's a way of knowing in which odd number they are though, if that makes sense.

thinking i discovered something worldchanging but in reality i just accidentally remembered something they teached me back when i thought watermelon was a difficult world

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thinking i discovered something worldchanging but in reality i just accidentally remembered something they teached me back when i thought watermelon was a difficult world

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When that group shows up to a birthday but they're just nameless fools without full stories.

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Question: How do people feel gender? How do they know what feels right or wrong? How do genderfluid people know that their gender has changed? How do agender people know that they don't feel gender? What does it even mean to feel a concept?

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I is the I You was before You became the I You am.

- My transgender self in a dream.

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me when the consequences of my own inactions (i haven't realized)

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i NEED human interaction, chat

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something something detroit: become human is my favourite game something something something

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If my excuses don't justify the space i've filled then infinity itself will be the answer to my pleas.