normalest-sskk-fan

[normalest-sskk-fan]

sskk dying for each other again it’s time for me to put Hadestown back on repeat

[normalest-sskk-fan]

FRIENDLY REMINDER THAT IT ISN'T HATE

Akutagawa 👏 doesn't 👏 hate 👏 him

He was just told to hate him, taught to hate him

Akutagawa was so ready to despise Atsushi, to kill him, and then...

And then he really saw Atsushi for who he was

He learned about Atsushi and grew to know him and trust him, seeing Atsushi as his other half

He saw Atsushi from his own perspective, no one else's

I think he loves Atsushi.

[normalest-sskk-fan]

💜

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Imagine you are Atsushi. You think you know a man. You think you see him for who he is- bleeding claws and all. You think that you are sure in his character and in his entirety. You think that after so many battles and so much death, there is nothing else for you to know.

You are wrong.

You think the two of you could not be more different or distant if you tried. You think that despite any change you may have brought, he is still someone you could never understand. You've come to terms with the idea that you both are simply two sides of the same coin.

You are wrong.

And it takes an unfeeling blade for you to finally learn how much so.

You learn that you only vaguely knew him- a shadow blurred across your vision. You learn his claws are not simply bloodied from pain caused but from pain given- from climbing a mountain insurmountable even to one as strong as him. You learn that you knew his surface but not his core- something no battle had ever taught you. There is so much you have yet to know.

So, you follow.

You learn the two of you are not so very different, the distance no more than a few steps. You learn that any change you brought in him was because, unknowingly, you were speaking a language that you didn't know he spoke right back. You learn that the hate that he held for you was born of a desire just as your own.

So, you follow.

And you learn that there was never a coin at all, just a mirror- a thing made of broken edges, bruised bones, and hateful words. And you learn there were never two sides, simply two caged and cornered animals staring back at the other- hearts bleeding and hands grasping.

Grasping for acknowledgment, for acceptance, for a reason, for permission, for someone to tell them they were finally enough.

You stare at the man in the mirror, a dark anger of a person- all sharp points and serrated defenses- and can see yourself in his eyes. Eyes that don't look at you the same way they used to.

You wonder: when he looks in this mirror, does he see the same?

You will simply have to ask him once you return.

Imagine you are Atsushi. You have seen the heart of a man. A man with whom you cannot accurately describe your relationship- no word seems precise enough nor powerful enough. You still don't fully understand him. He still confuses you, annoys you, and causes an itch you cannot seem to scratch.

But none of that matters because you have already decided he is worth sacrificing for. Becuase he is Ryuunosuke Akutagawa.

You have already made it to the door that- if done right -will guide you back to him, aided by the ghosts of his past and yours.

And so, you place your hands upon the entrance and push.

[normalest-sskk-fan]

sskk were gay in the last bsd chapter

there is a new bsd chapter

"oh man I hope sskk are gay again in this chapter"

read the chapter

sskk are gay in this chapter

Me when I'm reading the sskk are gay and in love manga and sskk are gay and in love

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Me when I'm reading the sskk are gay and in love manga and sskk are gay and in love

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Atsushi saw Akutagawa's past. He learned about Akutagawa's trauma. He knows how Akutagawa was treated, how he was taught, what he was put through.

He understands Akutagawa now

He fully sees Akutagawa for his humanity now

Atsushi has seen Akutagawa's darkest, most vulnerable side now

And that's just so...

I can't even put it into words oh my God, their relationship is so complex and heartfelt I'm screaming

I have a feeling that Akutagawa doesn't mind Atsushi seeing his past, seeing him at weakest, lowest point

I think their trust runs deeper than that

Also Akutagawa isn't alone anymore. Nor is Atsushi, because they have each other. Akutagawa has someone who knows and tells him he isn't weak, Atsushi has someone who can be by his side and save him. I feel like without each other they aren't complete

[normalest-sskk-fan]

"and then..."

AND THEN WHAT AKUTAGAWA

YOU REALIZED YOU DIDN'T HATE HIM? YOU REALIZED HE MEANT THE WORLD TO YOU? YOU REALIZED HE VALUED YOU? YOU REALIZED YOU CARED ABOUT HIM? YOU REALIZED THAT HE WAS YOUR EQUAL?

oh my god chapter 122 is killing me it's amazing

If the actual end of the sentence is "and then I realized I love him" I WILL LOSE MY SHIT.

[normalest-sskk-fan]

I'M TRYING TO PUT TOGETHER BRAINCELLS AND MAKE COHERENT POSTS ABOUT CHAPTER 122 BUT I CAN'TTTTT BECAUSE MY BRAIN IS STILL PROCESSING EVERYTHING AND I'M SCREAMING 😭

sskk nation is having the best time of their lives rn

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Do not fucking even try the argument "but Akutagawa hates Atsushi" with me

I will only respond with these panels. And probably an entire essay on their entire relationship but still

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Do not fucking even try the argument "but Akutagawa hates Atsushi" with me

I will only respond with these panels. And probably an entire essay on their entire relationship but still

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Do not fucking even try the argument "but Akutagawa hates Atsushi" with me

I will only respond with these panels. And probably an entire essay on their entire relationship but still

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Do not fucking even try the argument "but Akutagawa hates Atsushi" with me

I will only respond with these panels. And probably an entire essay on their entire relationship but still

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Do not fucking even try the argument "but Akutagawa hates Atsushi" with me

I will only respond with these panels. And probably an entire essay on their entire relationship but still

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Asagiri please I'm begging you I NEED a scene where sskk talk about each other's trauma and trace each other's scars

Like just imagine Atsushi gently touching the scar on Akutagawa's neck with tears in his eyes as they talk about their pasts IT WOULD BE THE THERAPY I NEED

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Asagiri please I'm begging you I NEED a scene where sskk talk about each other's trauma and trace each other's scars

Like just imagine Atsushi gently touching the scar on Akutagawa's neck with tears in his eyes as they talk about their pasts IT WOULD BE THE THERAPY I NEED

[normalest-sskk-fan]

Big fan of codependent enemies. 'If anyone's going to kill me it has to be you. You're the only one I trust to do it right' type shit.