ocdbrucewayne

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this isnt true i was experiencing a delusion

oh my god one of my long time close friends blocked my number bc he found my edtwt account bc im a fucking stupid idiot

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oh my god one of my long time close friends blocked my number bc he found my edtwt account bc im a fucking stupid idiot

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sorry im struggling a lot lately and i need someone to help me i want to relapse im too fat i hate my body its too curvy.

i dont care abt your motives as long as you can make me skinny.

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The pain of discipline is better than the pain of regret

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i want to be 85 pounds

i want to be so small and frail people constantly worry about me

i want to see my bones without having to suck in and pose

i want to shop in the youth section because even adult extra small is too big

i want to disappear into nothingness because it would be easier

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im almost done with a 20 hour fast that i might extend to 22/23 hours so i can do OMAD and i bought some low calorie snacks and palmini noodles so i have some lower calorie options for when i do eat.

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when i was a kid in the 2000s my mom said to me “if you ever develop and eating disorder just dont make yourself throw up its not worth the damage to your teeth” bc she has a fear of dentists and it has stuck with me all this time. when i do purge its never in the typical way, its with either heavy exercise or laxatives.

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i planned on doing a 20 hour fast but i think im going to go ahead and break it at 17 hours so i can have some veggies

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im so proud of myself i can do this

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reminder to be proud when you tell someone "no thanks im not hungry"

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whoever invented zero calorie sodas i am kissing you on the mouth

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5’0” tall thinspo for my short anas

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i hate ednos and how i keep gaining and losing the same 5 pounds like oh my god why cant i just lose the weight and keep losing weight

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b0nesp0 works as a great motivator for me bc it grosses me out enough that i lose my appetite. i dont want to be THAT skinny because i know the health risks but i do want to be slightly underweight. who knows maybe when i get underweight i’ll view b0nesp0 as my goal body. for now it works the same way as reverse th1nsp0.

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give me the strength to not take miralax tonight before bed

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i need someone to help me ⭐️ve. ive been eating over 800 calories the last few days and i want to get back down to 800. someone needs to help me get back on track.

no minors im an adult.

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ate a whole meal with my family (around 300 calories) and i feel SICK. its weighing so heavy on me. ive only had a little less than 500 cals today and i feel ill.