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Me: I need to take care of myself if I want to feel better!!!

Also me: let’s see how long I can survive on coffee and cigarettes

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Being a system is:

“Hey homie, you seem a bit off today. You good?”

Me who’s been dissociating/feeling disconnected from myself all day: “oh yeah man I’m good.”

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What a conundrum

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Traumatized, miserable and permanently sad.

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me: *fasts for days*

*excessively works out*

*gets dizzy/lightheaded*

*is exhausted in the middle of the day*

*cries when food is offered*

everyone I know : doing great girly😊💖💕✨keep it up🤪 🤪

me:

[ohgoditssatan]

Me: I need to take care of myself if I want to feel better!!!

Also me: let’s see how long I can survive on coffee and cigarettes

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Quick reminder for the boomers out there, if you thought your parents were mostly wrong or disagreed with them, or resented them, but didn't say it to their faces... That's not respect. That's fear. Respecting someone means you genuinely think highly of them, not that you pretend you do just to stay on their good side. Kids today who speak out against their parents either on social media or to their faces are just being more genuine than you were, the levels of respect are the same

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abused kids culture is being startled by basic human decency

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A child: developes a mental illness, struggles with school, tries to seek help

Parents: How can you do this to me? You know how this makes me feel? Stop being so dramatic! Other kids have it way worse! How can you embarrass me like that??!!

A child, now adult: Still mentally ill, but has now learned to never open up

Parents: Hey sweetie 🥺 if there's anything going on 🥺🥺 you can open up to us!!! We're FaMiLy 🥺🥺💕💕💕

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i have a number of emotions, including: cowboy, lesbian, halloween, unconscious, 70s soft rock, pure unbridled rage, void, i’m dying squirtle, and pull the trigger piglet

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do you ever get scared that you’re unintentionally toxic or draining to be around, like you’re the bad guy

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just because I stop talking about it doesn’t mean I’m okay, just got tired of feeling like a burden

-s

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thinking that what happened “wasn’t bad enough” is a sign that it was.

your brain wouldn’t be trying to protect itself from the reality of what happened if what happened didn’t hurt you.

questioning if your trauma “counts” as trauma is a sign of trauma.

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“what happened to you made you stronger” 

i was a child. i didn’t need to be strong i needed to be safe

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brains say, "I know a spot" and take you to a traumatic memory from 2011