Andā¦ I got
Blocked
But my great neph neph was being cute today wanna see??
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All this grief.
All this feeling.
All this love.
Where do I put all of it?
If not you,
Then where?
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And just like that
I miss her
Fucking hell
This is frustrating
Why?
Why?!
Fucking why do I miss her?
Because she has my heart
Because I am still in love with her
I still crave her presence
I still miss her smile
I still have her laugh on repeat in my memory
And her touch lingers within my heart
I still feel her breathing against my shoulder
Iām so weak
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Itās best that I go
Yeah, itās best that I leave
I have nothing and no one
Hell, Iām nothing but weak
I went to get help
It just made things worse
And I have no medical so I canāt talk about it
Why the FUCK am I still on this shitty earth?!
Itās best that I leave
Yeah, itās best that I go
No one wants me here anyway
And I donāt care to be here anymore
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I call it why the fuck am I still alive
When nobody wakes you up in the morning, when nobody waits for you at night, and when you can do whatever you want, what do you call it, Freedom or Loneliness?
Charles Bukowski
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I thought we were good
Better than, I thought we were great
I thought that for me -
You would want to wait
But that was too much to ask for
That was too much to expect
But I thought that when youāre with someone
They owe you at least a little respect
But that was too much for me to want
That was too much for me to need
And it was ridiculous of me to think -
That your wouldnāt want anyone else if they werenāt me
But that was stupid of me
Maybe it was selfish
To think we were forever
To think you wouldnāt want someone else
But I thought we were good
Yeah I thought we were great
I didnāt think that youād leave
Especially not this way
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Itās so easy to leave me
Why canāt someone just stay for onceā¦
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No wonder she left
Itās me
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I didnāt think Iād lose her
I didnāt think it was an unforgivable mistake
I didnāt think Iād lose everything
But I did
And Iāve never been so lonely and isolated
Iāve never wanted to die like this before
This kind of pain came out of nowhere
And somehow losing someone whoās still alive feels worse than when my mom died
I feel so intensely and deeply throughout each day
Iām so exhausted
I just want a break from feeling
I just want to
Disappear
Because I donāt belong here
Sheās made it clear that I donāt belong with her either
Iām just here
Meaningless
Iām trying to find the good, or a sign to point me in some kind of direction
And I even tried creating my own kind of sign
Yeahā¦
Somehow even that one turned into ākill your selfā
I am actively searching and trying to move on
Butā¦
For what?
Whatās the point?
Sheās not coming back
Sheās gone
My family is fucked up and i am absolutely miserable
And no one even wants me here
I donāt want me here
Please
Just let me die already
There literally is no point in keeping me alive
Itās not going to āhurtā anyone
Or ātraumatizeā them
Itās not going to make anyone have āsudden regretā or āfeelingsā for me
Please just let me die already
Please
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Day Oneā¦
No weed
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And the right thing to do right now, is to finish this pill bottle
āBeing brave doesnāt mean you arenāt scared. Being brave means you are scared, really scared, badly scared, and you do the right thing anyway.ā
ā Neil Gaiman
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Yeah I knowā¦
I feel it
Itās time to end things
āBut sometimes you make a choice in that moment and you know in your heart itās going to change everything.ā
ā Unknown
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Itās not going to get better
So I give up
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Iām trying along with the rest of me
Wish me luck
āKill the part of you that believes it canāt survive without someone else.ā
ā Sade Andria Zabala, War Songs
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Iām not better on my own
I wish you were blowing up my phone
I really wish I had you back
Sometimes it be like that
But Iām not myself the nights youāre gone
There aināt no way Iām moving on
Iām not afraid to love you now
Wish you were in the same town
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Those were the best years of my life and Iāll never have any more good ones
So itās best that I leave
Yeah itās best that I go
Itās best that I disappear
While nobody knows
Itās best that I give up
While Iāve got the nerve
Because this is a life
That I donāt deserve
So itās best that I go
Yeah itās best that I leave
Itās best that I overdose
Because I know no one will miss me
āYou canāt spend the best years of your life waiting for someone to love you back.ā
ā Unknown
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now i am forced to somehow un-love you. as if i never craved your touch, your kiss, or simply your presence across the room. i am forced to pretend this heart is not longing for your return. we are now two strangers who shared a past, and an imaginary future together. i am forced to dry my tears at night and make myself believe this is for the better. my arms no longer have a home. and your absence will forever torment my soul.
- dee (i am forced to forget us)
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