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it's a been a long time,

I shouldn't have left you. 

I've missed this electronic diary of my thoughts and moments.  It has always served a great form of therapy for me. 

I will be launching a new blog soon.  It will be focused on products I love and lifestyle related things I want to share with the world.  It will include a sprinkling of stories from my life and reflections as well.

You can find it as latestsarah.blogspot.com in March. 

Currently listening to "Voodoo Child" by Jimi Hendrix

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My deflated ego

Lately I have been reflecting on my time in college and making some much needed changes to get me to where it is I think I want to be. 

Mainly, I am eating smart, making my bed every day and no longer wearing hoodies.  It feels good to take care of myself. 

Six months ago, I would have never guessed I would be where I am today.  I planned on pursuing graduate school after completing my undergraduate degree.  I am passionate about Higher Education and wanted to attain a master’s degree in student affairs.  

Graduate school was my fool-proof opportunity to reinvent myself and become a professional sorority woman.  My ultimate goal was to work in fraternity and sorority life or student conduct on an established college campus.

And then a. I had an epiphany that I did not want to be in school because I am just not very good at or tend to care much about school (I am however excellent at work) and b. I did not get into a school with an assistantship offer so graduate school was no longer an option for me. 

This change of events has been a blessing in disguise for me. 

After loads of self pity and red wine, I am ready to start building up my confidence and am excited to do something about my future.

I am lucky girl to have gone to school and graduated with no student loans and a family that supports me both intellectually and financially.  I should not be sitting around feeling bad for myself.  Life is good, so I need to treat it as such. 

  I have been spending the past few weeks volleying back and forth and back and forth about what types of jobs I want to apply for after graduation.  Fortunately in California, it is rarely a requirement to have a master’s degree in student affairs to meet the provisions of higher education jobs.  But part of me has fallen back in love with advertising and sales and school—I just needed a break from sororityland to remember that I picked my major for a reason. 

Today I decided to apply for both and trust the universe.  I am young and have nothing to lose.

  Currently Listening to: “Better than Revenge” Taylor Swift

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Hungry for Hunger Games: I can read again

Prior to opening my mind to the Hunger Games the last book I read was probably The Bell Jar, for my project on Sylvia Plath my senior year or high school.

Of course, I had cracked a book, other than a text book, open during this 5 year span.  I read through half of two Nicholas Sparks books and the first Pretty Little Liars.  I have even built a decent sized collection of self-help books with fun titles like If You Have to Cry, Go Outside and The Flirting Bible.  But these aren’t books you read.  They’re books you flip through once and then put on a shelf so others can comment on them. 

I decided I would try and read the Hunger Games on a whim.  I do enjoy reading, I just find that almost nothing can keep my interest—perhaps this is why I love magazines and news? 

I never would have imagined that I would have completed reading all three books within two weeks, before seeing the move AND never reading the Wikipedia summaries to find out what happens so I would not need to finish them.

After completing the Hunger Games, I started the Dragon Tattoo series and am seriously tapping into my intellectual reader-ness.  Want to become inspired, read Hunger Games!  It is not an epic story or super cerebral but it is enthralling and gains the readers commitment within the first few pages. 

Read it. 

  Currently Listing to: “Birthday Cake” that sloot Rihanna and her abuser Chris Brown (I judge them so much I can’t even download the song—he gets none of my money)

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Let’s talk about insomnia

If you have never experienced what it’s like to not be able to sleep, then I please tell me which deity it is you pray to because I am getting on board. 

Lately, I cannot shut my brain off.  Every night I just lay in bed for hours.  Awake.  Thinking. Thinking. Thinking.  I can’t stop thinking.  It just might be the purest form of torture self loathing behavior. 

When I finally sleep, it’s practically daylight and its scattered with loud bird chirping.  Coupled with my phobia of birds this make for really nervous, anxiety ridden sleep. 

The only way I can sleep decently is to meditate.  I highly recommend everyone do this. 

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You know your growing up when your friends are out partying and your home working on a media planning budget...and its $1 drink night. 

Priorities. 

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Move over Tim Tebow, @MichaelLorber is taking your place

He’s here to stay.  In my online world, that is.

Let me remind you all that I am not some creepy creep and I do in fact have many other things to do with my day than research pseudo-celebrities.  This is simply a form of stress relief for me. 

If you don’t know who Michael Lorber is, then you clearly are missing out on the reality TV gem that Bravo provides with “Million Dollar Listing: New York,”’ seriously, get on the Bravo train.  Middle-aged women everywhere are doing it, you might as well too.  (My own father can name every housewife; your brain could too be filled with TONS of useless nonsense!)

For some reason, I can’t help myself but be drawn to Mr. Lorber.  I think it may be his uncanny resemblance to a good friend of mine or his never ending supply of old man clothes that make him so interesting. 

Personally, I seem to dress like I’m living in 1968 or a grandmother, with the occasional touch of soccer mom or glittered shoes.  I feel I can relate to vests, pocket squares, glasses and mixed patterns.  I can’t help but find the male equivalent to floral prints that look like they’d make great curtains alluring.

He also has great taste in shoes.  After selling men’s shoes at Nordstrom, I learned that you can really tell a lot about a man based on his shoe choices.  Classic, tasteful, investment pieces—that’s what he’s got.  Expensive ones.  And they’re even trendy.  

Random thought—I’m not sure about this whole shoes with no socks thing that East Coast people do though.  What is that?  This thought came to me because I tweeted about Lorber’s fancy-pants red socks and he replied that he prefers to be sockless.  Thank you for the reply but seriously get some flippy-floppies and let your tootsies breathe.  I don’t even know what shoes would be appropriate to wear sans socks other than boat shoes or Toms; I know ya’ll aren’t wearing Vans with seersucker.  Someone enlighten the West Coast, we’re too casual to understand. 

On a more serious note, and why I bring Mr. Tebow into the mix, is what I found out about Lorber from googling him and checking out his Twitter and LinkedIn profiles. 

Like Tebow, this guy is a full on BAMF.  Totally hard working and clearly dedicated to giving back.  Other than that, I’m sure they are absolutely nothing alike or maybe they are.  I’ll never know because this is a blog and not real life. 

Anyways, Michael Lorber is a Senior Vice President at some established Real Estate Firm in New York City, is quickly becoming a Bravo-lebrity, probably has hobbies/a life AND has completed a BS, MS and a JD.  Please, stop making us look bad and be less educated—guess that’s why he makes the big bucks. 

This guy is a board member for like 02369 organizations.  To name a few:

Cancer Center Leadership Council

Love Heals

Babson College

New England Aquarium

Children’s Hospital Boston

So he supports education, love, scientific breakthroughs, children and wildlife.  And Boston, my favorite place in the big ‘ole USA.  (If ever he wants company on a Boston trip, I can name one person who would like to go!)

  PLEASE.  Over achiever.

  Why doesn’t Bravo include all of these awesome things he does on the show?  That shit would certainly make middle aged women like my mother swoon and double his Twitter follower-ship.  Now I’m just making stuff up. 

That’s all for now.  He’s fascinating.  Watch MDLNY.  First you’ll think he’s a totally un-cool and then you’ll see him be totally smooth.  Once your blonde brain is done hurting, you find his unconventional charisma charming. 

  Listening to: “Titanium” David Guetta, feat. Sia and “Never Gonna Give You Up” The Black Keys

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What I learned from @Joan_Rivers and hair extensions

Confidence. 

You know that feeling?  That look in the mirror and feel unstoppable feeling? 

The I cannot waste a good hair day/great outfit on an insignificant day feeling? 

Take me to happy hour because my sassy pants are coupled with a flirty attitude and a desire to prance around like I am the hottest thing you've seen in a while. 

Thank you Joan Rivers for inspiring me to wear blue nail polish. 

 Essie "Aruba Blue"

And hair extensions, thank you for reminding that an extra incha makes a lot of difference, in more ways than one. 

Currently listening to the sound of hair dryers everywhere...working hard at the salon....

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11 more questions for @TimTebow

So I lied....This is the final time I shall speak of Tim Tebow....maybe....

What is your daily "beauty" routine?

How do you feel about swearing?

When was the last time you watched porn? Have you ever?  (Insprired by Bravo's Watch What Happens Live Plead the Fifth)

What was adjusting to college like after being homeschooled?

What advice would you give to young adults questioning their Faith?

Will you wear wrinkled clothing? (I am currently wearing a linen shirt and everytime I walk by a mirror-mind you I work in a salon-I want to drop kick my own butt to an iron because wrinkles are painful to look at)

Do you have any weird habits or fears?  (Example: I am terrified of birds and can't sleep with my closet door open)

Do you collect anything?

Will you dance?

You're singing karaoke, what song?

Why did you start your foundation and what are your ultimate goals for it to reach?

Currently Listening to "Not Over You" Gavin DeGraw

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So what if I like things in excess....

One of my best and worst qualities is that I become completely obsessed with certain things. 

Addictive behavior runs in my family and I am no exception.  While some find themselves addicted to alcohol or drugs, I waste precious time in my mind thinking about chapstick and whatever it is I am obsessed with at the moment. 

As a child, I was one of those horse girls.  You know, the weirdos that draw horses and such?  Don't worry, I didn't walk around neighing; I was at least cooler than that.  At the height of my horse obsession, I decided I was going to grow up to be a police officer that rides horses, so I could around them all the time.   

After growing out of awkward phase one of my life, I became a collector of t-shirts with witty sayings.  If American Eagle screen printed it, I owned it.  If I only understood half of the sexual inuendo I was walking around with on my chest...

In high school, I developed full blown chapstick addiction that plagues me to this day.  I find a few chapsticks in every bag I own, random pockets and cannot pack a bag for a weekend away without bringing at least 5 with me...what if I were to lose one?  I wouldn't be able to function.  I would rather be without my iPhone for a week than without chapstick for a day.  There hidden in spots in my room and car.  Finding a chapstick in my pocket is like finding a $20 bill I forgot about.  My secret Santa at Delta Zeta gave me a gift of chapstick.  The thought of being without chapstick makes my heart beat fast and my chest feel tight.  Google tells me that you cant be addicted to chapstick, but last time I checked, that's addictive behavior....

In college, I became fixated on Delta Zeta and sorority life in general.  I now have an entire shelf full of books about the history of fraternal organizations, women in college, hazing and secret societies.  At least this obsession is educational?

Now I find myself loving things in excess....shoes, coffee, Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, hair products and grad school research. 

I can also listen to a song over and over and over again for like 2 weeks...

What's next???

Currently Listening to: "Wild Ones" Flo-Rida and Sia

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My (imagined) interview with Tim Tebow

I decided to take a break from posting about my quarter life crises and values and serious stuff and dabble in creative writing. 

I am feeling inspired by the NFL Playoffs, a glass (or two) of Cupcake Vineyards Sauvignon Blanc, aspirations to work with college football players as an educational advisor, Toby Keith's Red Solo Cup and this video of Tim Tebow making a young boy's wish for the Make-A-Wish Foundation, which made me cry like my mother when she watches Lifetime movies, proving that I do, in fact, have a soul. 

After watching a weekend of fabulous football (Go 49ers!) I made the decision to take my love of football to twitter. I quickly found myself following Mr. Tim Tebow and googling a series of bible passages.  From there, I took to his website; he has an amazing web presence btw.  As I read about him and watched his videos, I couldn't help but be a bit impressed by his accomplishments and commitment to Faith. While I recognize his Faith is not the only thing he brings to the table--he seems to be a genuinely kind, talented and thoughtful person--I think it is admirable that at a young age, he is so open to discussing and soundly aware of his personal values and standards. 

Now, I grew up in a family that loves to party with a conflicted relationship with organized religion; my extended family tends to be a mix of practicing Mormons and practicing alcoholics/addicts of some kind...it makes for interesting family events. Luckily, my parents raised me somewhere in the middle, but we tend to be surrounded by extremes.  

I do appreciate the moral teachings of a faith-based life, but the verdict is out on my own personal beliefs; I'm still figuring them out.  I've done my research, mainly wikipedia and googling "Does Tim Tebow have a girlfriend?" and put together a series of questions I would ask this man if given the opportunity.  Following is how I would imagine our interview would go down...

We would meet for lunch, because that is acceptable in professional journalism.  He shows up 5 minutes early because he is a gentleman and that is what he does. Dressed in plain, white t shirt, jeans and Nikes he greats me with a not-awkward-one-armed stranger hug (the ones you give willingly, not like when you hug someone you secretly hate), a genuine smile and a "Nice to meet you."  I imagine he would wear a really big, blingy watch, because well, he can.  Then we would get started...please note, this is me putting words in his mouth. Please also note, I am not creepy.  This is the extent of my thoughts and research on Tebow.  I just felt a need to know more about this pop culture phenom. 

me: Thanks for meeting me today.  I can't tell you how much I appreciate you taking time out of your busy schedule. 

TT: Of course, Miss (because he is a gentleman).  I am always happy to meet with press (lies, but he is excellently trained by his PR team).

me: Let's start off easy, how did this season go for you?

TT: Great, I am lucky, blessed, yadda yadda.

me: You were really successful leading your team, are you excited to be playing with the Broncos again next season? 

TT: Of course, I am lucky, blessed, yadda yadda.

me: Speaking of next year, let's get to know you a little bit better.  We know that there aren't a whole lot of guarantees for professional athletes when it comes to their futures.  If you weren't playing football, what would you be doing?  I know that you have a degree in family, youth and community sciences.  

TT: If I wasn't playing football, I would spend my time building the Tim Tebow Foundation.  I find a lot of happiness bringing relief and opportunities to communities and children in need. I would advocate for home schooled children, CURE, Make-A-Wish, etc.

me: I don't think I have ever met a young man as committed to giving back...

TT: Well I am lucky and fortunate to be raised in a family where giving back has always been important.  It has been a regular part of my life, it doesn't seem like hard work, it's just what you do when you have more than you need; you give graciously. 

me: That is truly inspirational and I hope many young boys pick up on your dedication to building better lives for people.  Let's get personal, :) Are you single?

TT: (I suspect he will have a perfectly rehearsed answer to this question...) I don't really have any time for relationships with football and my Foundation.  There are a lot of girls I have the opportunity to meet, but its hard.  I like to be social and get to know people, I don't want to lead people on so I am careful.

me: Careful?  How so?

TT:  There is a ton of opportunities for me now.  For me to be around women and parties and access of anything, really.  

me: I'm sure.  Your handsome, successful, a Christian, humanitarian and polite; are you single?

TT: Yes.

me: Ready to mingle?

TT: Now he redirects this conversation.  

me: Anyways..."tebowing" just became a real word!  How does that feel?

That's enough of imaginary conversation....Other questions I would be curious to know his answers to:

How do you feel about tattoos? 

What is something no one knows about you?

What is your guilty pleasure TV show? 

How would you spend your perfect vacation?

What is your most embarrassing football moment? 

What are your thoughts on gay marriage? 

Will your children play football? Will they attend school?

How has your relationship with Faith changed over the years?

Do you consume alcohol? 

What traits are you looking for in a partner? 

What are your hobbies/interests?

What is your least favorite trait/feature in women?

What is your favorite trait/feature of yourself?

How does it feel to be in the dictionary?

Do you have any annoying habits?

In the end, this is one lucky guy.  He's just two years older than me and has reached so much success, that isn't slowing down anytime soon.  It is remarkable that he has maintained his Faith and commitment to his community while he has so many opportunities for potential nonsense/shennanigans/debauchery in front of him. 

In my imagination, where I am being a totally irrational girl this is the precursor to the inevitable: meeting, dating and subsequently marrying Tim Tebow.

Currently Listening to: "Pretty Lil' Heart" Robin Thicke featuring Lil Wayne

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Thoughts while cleaning my room-

Where did all these purses come from?

Why did I ever buy this?

…this still has tags? greaaat

oh, I’ve been looking for that!

I bet this doesn’t fit anymore…*tries on*…nope

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Moving, falling in love and other grown up shizz...

As I get further and further into my quarter life crises, I continue to be repeatedly tripped, kicked and man handled by this thing called adulthood.  It’s like all of a sudden I am a grown up.  While I recognize that yes, I have legally been an adult for nearly 5 years, it’s just beginning to set in. 

And its unsettling.

Yesterday I had the most hilarious yet discomforting conversation with a professor writing me a graduate school letter of recommendation.  It ended with her telling me, “It’s hard to be an educated feminist and end up married; but you just have to make it work.” 

She called me to tell me that one of top choice schools would likely be a terrible fit because a California girl will be nothing but bored in small town Ohio.  While I appreciate her thoughtfulness and concern for my amusement, I am not going to graduate school to party and live a hipster life. 

My priorities are to go to school, kick academic a$$ and work very hard in an assistantship, master yoga, craft and rediscover photography.  In that order.  Nowhere in there is my personal entertainment a huge priority.  I suppose we will see what happens if you take the California city girl and stick her in the middle of nowhere because I apparently need to be concerned for my own sanity.  I do know that I will need to find a bar that plays good music for dancing, other than that, I am pretty low maintenance. 

  Back to being a feminist…

After my professor spoke on the dreadful boringness that is the Midwest, she asked me about what my plans for love were.  “What are you going to do if you fall in love in Bowling Green or Oxford, Ohio?  You wouldn’t really consider living there your whole life would you?  You’re all California, you’ll never last…”

Touché doctor of media law.  Maybe I couldn’t last in Ohio all my life.  Good news, I have absolutely NO intention of spending any more time out of beautiful California than necessary.   

It was pretty exciting to tell her that duh, I’ve totally already thought about that.  I’ve decided not to fall in love while in graduate school.  Unless it’s with a hunky future doctor that plans on doing his residency in a fancy West Coast place like Stanford or Berkeley. 

More on my love life and future husband coming soon...

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My quarter life crises....let's talk about it....

So...so much has changed in my life since my last posts. 

I don't know what it is with me and blogging, but it seems like I have a 'hit it and quit it' approach to telling stories about my life.  I blog every day, or multiple times a day and then I fall off the face of the earth for a bit.  I don't really get it.

What I do know is that writing down my thoughts is oddly therapeutic (wtf is that extra 'e' there for?) and a wonderful stress relief for me.  

Why my life is in crises in 5 simple steps...

1. I am 22 years old and as single as can be, kind of by choice, but mostly because I am selfishly focused on myself and being a over scheduled maniac that I don't make putting myself out there a priority

2. I have yet to graduate....and my grades are not stellar

3. I recently moved back into my parents house destroying all hope for a decent social life

4. I have credit card debt..and a parking ticket I really need to pay

5. I cannot find inspiration to write my graduate school essays...I am a decent writer but I've yet to find a muse

I just want to go back to sororityland....

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What I wish I could tell people when they call me at work...