ommanoid

[ommanoid]

yellow! kindly check my wattpad account. i’ve published 1 poetry book so far. it’s called “thoughts in the galaxy” thanks :)

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[ommanoid]

kindly check my page in Wattpad :)

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[ommanoid]

MY TIME

i’m not hoping but maybe one day

someone would come and kill the poet in me

someone who wouldn’t let me feel sad and alone

someone who would always make me smile

someone who wouldn’t let my heart break

someone who wouldn’t give me reasons to lose faith in the world and in the people in it

someone who would take away my darkest thoughts

someone who wouldn’t let my pen bleed on my paper with the words that run in my head all the time

someone who would take away my sorrows

someone who would make me the worst poet

because i write about tragedies

i write about betrayal

i write about dishonesty

i write about lies

and i write about all the things that made me believe that love is just a waste of time

until then

i will continue writing

so bear with me

and just read on

[ommanoid]

STIGMA

it haunts me like a predator

ready to strike and attack whenever i let my guard down

it’s something i can never escape from

it’s something that’s written on my name

it’s something that people always choose to see

it’s something that i created

and now it’s killing me

[ommanoid]

EMPTY

i was about to write what i feel

but i have been staring at this blank space for hours now

and i couldn’t think of anything to write

until i realized that the empty space says it all

i feel empty

[ommanoid]

THEY DON’T LOOK BACK

people leave

they always do

no matter how much you want them to stay

they would still walk away

you would just get used to see them turn their back on you

and you would just close your eyes so tight

so tight and yet it would still hurt

it hurts to see them walk out the door

and you know what’s even more painful?

they don’t look back

they just leave

[ommanoid]

MOMENTS

that moment when you awkwardly smiled at me and said goodbye

that moment when i felt each butterfly in my stomach slowly died

that moment when even the touch of the wind felt like needles pinning in my skin

that moment when i tried to hold my tears back and slowly grinned

that moment when you held my hand and i knew it was the last

that moment when i wished the hands of time wouldn’t run so fast

that moment when i remembered all the things you and i used to say

that moment when i tried so hard to think why things between us would end that way

that moment when i tried to stop myself from crying and silently counted “one, two, three...”

that moment when i tried my best to simply whisper “four” but then my tears betrayed me

that moment when i realized that a couple of steps distance could actually feel like a million miles away

that moment when you turned your back even when you knew that beside you was the only place i’d like to stay

that moment when i started to step my foot and walk back home alone

that moment when i was walking the wrong direction because i knew that “you” were my “home”

something in that moment has changed and i knew

i’d never love anyone the same way that i loved you

[ommanoid]

REFLECTION

i saw a very lonely man this morning

God, he looked empty

with the way he sighed

and with the look in his eyes

i could tell that what he’s going through wasn’t easy

he looked like he didn’t have enough reason to smile

and to look at the world differently

i thought to myself “how poor can he be?”

it wasn’t too long until it hit me

i was staring in the mirror

and the man was me

[ommanoid]

People leave. They always do. No matter how much you want them to stay, they will still walk away. You will just get used to see them turn their back on you. And you will just close your eyes so tight. So tight and yet it still hurts. It hurts to see them walk out the door. And you know what’s even more painful? They don’t look back. They just leave.

[ommanoid]

I'm taking my time

I’m not hoping but maybe one day someone would come and kill the poet in me Someone who wouldn’t let me feel sad and alone Someone who would always make me smile Someone who wouldn’t let my heart break Someone who wouldn’t give me reasons to lose faith in the world and the people in it Someone who would take away my darkest thoughts Someone who wouldn’t let my pen bleed on my paper with the words that run in my head all the time Someone who would take away my sorrows Someone who would make me the worst poet Because I write about tragedies I write about betrayal I write about dishonesty I write about lies And I write about all the things that made me believe that love is just a waste of time Until then, I’ll continue writing So bear with me and just read on

[ommanoid]

when even smiling

doesn’t hide the pain anymore

[ommanoid]

Only the truth can give you absolute freedom

You know who you were. You know who are. You know what you did. You know what you're doing. You know where you went and you know where you're going. And with all the strength you can muster, you may fly like a bird now, dear child. Fly like a bird 🖤

[ommanoid]

you turned out to be

everything you said you're not and that is the saddest part

[ommanoid]

"Until then I'll smile and hide th truth that I know I was happier with you."

[ommanoid]

[ommanoid]

We are captains of sinking vessels Languid souls trudging like river stones As hearts be sprinkled - ashes from bones May love guide us so, and find our way home.

[ommanoid]

this year is slowly being too much the weather is too hot my body hurts a lot my heart is filled with tears oh god - i’d like to skip these years

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