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"if you really had DID you wouldn't care if you got fakeclaimed"

I'm sorry but people are ALLOWED to feel emotions about being fakeclaimed

If someone who's disabled just so as BREATHES online you guys go "lol fake" no matter what

We are allowed to angry and upset over this

It's not a sign of faking to feel emotions

It's hurtful and sends people into denial spirals

What fakeclaimers do IS HURTING DISABLED PEOPLE and then y'all call us fake for being HURT by what you say??? Your a fucking bully.

If someone is bullying someone they have every fucking right to be upset.

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"omg you're a system!!! it just be so fun to have friends in your head!!!"

Yeah. They are my friends but you know what's really not fucking fun? Seeing how intelligent an alter is and how much they want to pursue their dream career but they can't because we share a body. Seeing how creative and talented alters are but we can't spend hours and hours drawing because we share a body and the body has to work. Seeing that an alter really wants to do something and we just don't have time, they say it's okay but we share a body and I know how they really feel.

Yeah I have friends in my head and I'm constantly letting them down because the things we all want aren't physically possible. Yeah that's really fun.

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So as someone that is looking to write their own novel I’m super curious:

If High Fantasy takes place in another realm and low fantasy pulls fantasy elements into this realm… what is it when modern aspects and concepts are pulled into a fantasy realm?

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A personal vent - this is my experience and may not reflect other autistic experiences.

Approximately 16% of Autistics are in full-time work.

Approximately 32% are in some form of paid work.

I am in the 16%. And it fucking sucks.

"You are doing so well!" No. I'm not. I'm mentally extremely unwell and in constant burnout. But it's either this or being homeless.

"You must be high functioning then." Besides the terminology, it's kinda a no, too. I high mask. I don't function at home. I can barely take care of myself. It's all fake.

"Count your blessings!" No. This is a curse for me because I was late diagnosed and forced to live NT for 36 years of my life. I am not coping and I am not happy on an autistic level.

I don't go out, I can't watch shows or movies because I'm too exhausted, week-ends are barely enough recovery time, I'm in therapy that's holding the flood at bay just barely.

"You should just quit." I can't. We would lose everything and in the current economy my husband's income is not enough. We'd lose the house, the cars, the cats (which are like my children). And finding another job that pays me $29+ an hour for what I do isn't easy or a guarantee it won't be worse for me.

"You are so lucky to be able to work." I'm not. Please, my sweet dumplings... understand that I'm not.

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Shoutout to all the people who...

Are always talked over in group settings

Rehearse what they are going to say loads of times in their head and still end-up with their words coming out jumbled

Take longer to process jokes/people's speech

Just get brushed-off when they ask people to repeat their jokes

Always feel like they are seen as an acquaintance rather than a best friend by others

Find parties overwhelming and feel boring for preferring nights in

Feel lonely but also don't know how to go about making friends as an adult

Feel embarrassed/ashamed for not having friends

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Microdosing polyamory by dating a system

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Okay so… a little about us… (will update properly once I’m not so tired/fuzzy)

We’re the Omen of Onism System, a fictive heavy Dx’d DID System also living with multiple chronic illnesses, AuDHD and FND.

Until we feel more comfortable on here we are happy to just go by Oni, but I’ll also introduce you to some fronters with some emojis:

✨(myself) - 23, Host, They/He, Bigender (Transmasc/Non-Binary), Queer Concubus 𓆩♡𓆪

I enjoy art, writing, reading, gaming and DIY

🍭 - 18, Co-Host + Physical Protector, They/He, Transmasc mostly, Elf

Like listening to music, gaming, urbex, lollipops, DIY and generally being a menace

🐺 - 17?, I dunno what I do, He/Him

I like lounging around, playing games and being outside. Forests are nice.

So yeah, that’s us for now I guess. Nice to meet y’all.

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