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“You still crave lemonade, but the taste doesn’t satisfy you as much as it used to. You still crave summer, but sometimes you mean summer, five years ago.”

-Alida Nugent

I’ve been subject to a pretty drastic change, lately. Change, growth, time, perception, changing social connections—have all been on my mind. I feel both numb and overwhelmed, both excited and exhausted. Never before have I felt the presences of my past and my future pressing upon me this acutely—and yet never before have they appeared to me this hazy. I am not entirely sure what is going on, but there would be less point if I did. What are we even doing here? Life is interesting.

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Letters to Milena, Franz Kafka

Embrace, Peter Wever

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It is just a little exhausting sometimes to be subjected to the world.

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1. “The Spirit Is Too Blunt an Instrument,” Anne Stevenson

2. In the Vortex of Passion, Leonid Afremov

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“I wish I knew what to do with my life, what to do with my heart…I do nothing all day, boredom settles in, I look at the sky so I get to feel even smaller than I already feel and my mind keeps poisoning itself uselessly.”

-Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

People are so much.

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Quote, poet Dylan Thomas

Hammock, artist Peter Wever

On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous, poet Ocean Vuong

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The world is so much bigger than I could ever wonder it to be. I can’t handle it.

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Where does the performance end and you begin?

instagram | prints

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‘I’ve been lost but I’m here now. You’re the only person who has ever been able to find me.’

1.Sappho | 2.Ron Hicks | 3.Sappho | 4.Käthe Butcher | 5.Vita Sackville-West | 6.Helena Janecic | 7.Sue Zhao | 8.Helena Janecic | 9,10.Sappho | 11.Helena Janecic | 12.Sylvia Plath | 13.Milt Kobayashi | 14.Elliot Wake | 15.Sir Lawrence Alma-Tadema | 16.Julie Anne Peters | 17.Käthe Butcher | 18. Joseph Sheridan Le Fanu | 19.Patricia Highsmith | 20.Helena Janecic | 21.Virginia Woolf | 22.Patricia Highsmith

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Every time I wrote your name, I lied. Every time I wrote your name, it was the truth.

1.Clarice Lispector | 2.Nickie Zimov | 3.Warsan Shire | 4.Pablo Neruda | 5.Madeline Miller | 6.Nickie Zimov | 7.Madeline Miller | 8.Vincent van Gogh | 9.James Joyce | 10.Nick Lantz | 11.Ocean Vuong | 12.Nickie Zimov | 13.Richard Brautigan | 14.Keaton St. James 

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I want to be a tiny person and sit in a man’s breast pocket

And fall asleep while he walks in the woods

And eat crumbs in his pocket

I feel

Nostalgic

For a place that doesn’t exist

I want to sink into nothingness

And fall asleep

While smiling

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“The way to love someone is to lightly run your finger over that person’s soul until you find a crack - and then gently pour your love into that crack.”

— Keith Miller

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mental illness is like you will crave love but never feel comfortable around anyone ever. your welcome

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What a beautiful thing it is, to be understood.

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28 March 2020, 2:23am night

It started raining while I was brushing my teeth and I looked up at the ceiling and smiled

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I am unsure whether I am capable of truly falling in love. But what does it mean to “truly” fall in love, when love is but a glorified evolutionary mechanism? A means of making us fuck? Sometimes I wonder if my approach to love is too logical.

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A large cloud of which I am very fond.

We think of ourselves as looking up at the sky, but there is no up or down in space. When I lie on the earth and consider the sky, I can gaze downwards into it, into the infinite depths beneath me. Gravity is the only thing tethering me to the earth, preventing me from falling into it, endlessly.