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I think my asks are getting ate lowkey. If not ignore but how would Argus think if he died like William. I’m a cold dark place alone and from a heart attack after years of abusing his spouse and children. Would he feel fear and regret?

What about if he drowned? Are the thoughts different or not?

I have an ask or two about him drowning, so I'll answer the heart attack part for now >:3

Argus remembers the day his father died like it was yesterday. He remembers the way William complained about the summer heat and ordered his son to grab him an ice cold beer. Argus cracked the can open and wiggled the tab until it came off, a habit his father had instilled in him; pull tabs and beard hair do not mix, he had learned.

He skimmed a little beer off the top, just whatever began to froth out, his own repayment for being his father's 'beer boy'.

And then it was back to watching football with the old man, yelling at the screen as if the players and ref could hear them hurling insults. William prods at him, tells him Argus needs to take his training seriously. He'll be in high school next year and he's joining the football team, just like William did, as did his father before him, and his father before him.

William rubs at his aching jaw and smears a droplet of sweat into his tanned skin, his brow furrowed in annoyance as he takes another sip of his beer.

Argus doesn't dare ask his father if he's okay. He already knows the answer. I'm fine, damn it. You sound like your bitch of a mother, not lettin' me have a single moment of fuckin' peace.

But he isn't fine. It only grows more apparent as the afternoon grows long until William is clutching his chest with one hand and trying to dial 911 with trembling fingers.

Argus can never get the image of his father, this big, strong man, the man who'd broken bones and left permanent scars, curled up on the cold floor. It didn't look like the movies. William's jaw hung open, the whites of his eyes visible through his parted eyelids, and a scrap of ugly wallpaper clutched in his fist from when he tried to catch himself on the wall.

He's older now, he's achieved his life goals; he got married, had a few children, raised them the same way he was raised. He was everything he was supposed to be.

Argus groans and complains to no-one in particular when the ache in his shoulders just won't go away. He must have overdone it while working, he just needs to take it easy, kick his feet up, maybe enjoy a drink. He deserves it, doesn't he? After everything he's done for his ungrateful fucking family.

God, he's tired. Can't anyone else pick up the slack for once? He didn't raise his sons to be lazy sacks of shit, and who's been playing with the fucking thermostat, he told them not to fucking touch it!

He's coming down with the flu, or maybe his spouse fucked up breakfast, either one is equally likely at this point. It feels like he has to 'correct' them more and more often. Perhaps they're purposely trying to piss him off. As if staying home with the kids is difficult. He's the one actually working his ass off.

Lying down doesn't make Argus feel any better. He's exhausted, he's nauseous, and the room is beginning to spin. A horrible sensation settles deep in Argus' gut—pure, utter dread.

Something is deeply wrong with him.

He turns and shifts and drags his hands through his hair as if it'll sooth him. Sharp pain needles into his chest, right over his heart, and he knows.

He knows how William felt all those years ago, the fear, the pain, the realization that he's dying.

Argus fumbles digging through his pockets. He nearly drops his already shattered phone on the hardwood floor. His fingers tremble as he dials those three little digits.

911, what is the address of your emergency?

It's a struggle to get his words out, to spit out his address, his name, and the possibility that he may be having a heart attack. The operator stays with him for however long it takes for paramedics to arrive. His thoughts grow cloudier with every passing second, he rambles about anything that comes to mind; his spouse, his kids, how he doesn't want any of them finding him dead, how he's scared.

He doesn't really remember the paramedics showing up, or being carted into the ambulance. One minute he's staring at the ceiling, the next he's in a hospital bed with nurses and doctors hovering over him, telling him that he's lucky to be alive.

His spouse is there, a mix of emotions on their face that he just can't place; sadness? Anger? Relief and disappointment?

No, that's crazy. They're happy he's alive, they're right at his side, and they're going to be there while he recovers. That's all. His kids will be overjoyed that he's home. There won't be an awkward silence, no muttering under breath, no outbursts of I wish you fucking died.

They're going to be a happy family again. He'll make sure of it.

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Hehehehe I want Argus to call me a f*g and do nasty, violent things to me <3

Anon the way I shrieked when I saw this in my inbox

He would do it though, especially when he's really struggling with his sexuality. Argus tells himself that he can't be gay, doesn't matter if he's balls deep in a man's ass or fucking a man's throat.

He tells himself that it doesn't count if he hurls abuse and insults at the man beneath him, if he slaps the man around, punches him in the side, makes him cry while pinned beneath Argus' large frame.

He's straight. He's just establishing dominance over this whiny little bitch impaled on his cock. Argus won't even cum inside of him, he isn't worth it. He'll pull out and allow ropes of cum to land on the man's ass, or perhaps even hold the man in place with a firm grip in his hair and smear cum over his nose and cheeks.

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For the yandere demos: of course! Please do! Also- you're the best!

Okay soooooooo I have used a lot of my free time scouring through itch.io and because I am a particular type of freak I have been seeking out dating sim games with a yandere love interest. These are not all the games I've found and not even all of the ones I have enjoyed, but these are some of the examples I have found that have the most interesting premises or I think the yandere character is particularly interesting.

Please note, because of the nature of the games, all of these are going to have triggering content in them. The titles I provide will include a hyperlink that will take you to their page on itch.io and those pages should include a list of content and trigger warnings. I believe all the games listed below allow for the player to choose their own name and the majority allow you to choose your gender and pronouns and those that don't assume gender neutral pronouns.

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Sacrarium Pario

So far, this one is my absolute favorite because it is very different from anything I have seen. The premise is that the player is a magic-using mercenary who has been captured by a couple of living deities known as the Creator and the Creation. You're alive for now because there's something interesting about you. Can you keep their interest long enough for help to arrive? Or will you even want to be rescued?

It looks likes the full game will eventually have both a platonic route and a sort of stockholm syndrome romantic route where you become involved with both of them. There's violence and some wild body horror stuff but it is very fascinating and I am looking forward to this game's development.

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Duality

What if you were in a love triangle with one guy? Well, two guys, but they both happen to share the same body. Also, they're both yanderes and they've both set their sights on you.

The demo for this game is pretty short so far but it sets up the premise for some interesting lore. Nothing too violent in the demo at this moment since it's more of an introduction to the characters. Worth replaying to get the different routes/endings.

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14 Days With You

One day at work, you meet a very cute guy who just so happens to look like the current anime character you are crushing over. What a wild coincidence! And it has to be just that, because the only thing wilder would be if someone was constantly monitoring you and knew everything you liked so they could make themselves into the perfect partner for you. But that couldn't happen... unless???? 😏

This is actually one of the first games I found and to this day one of the yanderes I think is the cutest. The demo only includes one day so far but I am intrigued by the story being set up and excited for more. For those interested, there is an optional nsfw scene in the demo.

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There's Something Wrong With Sunny Day Jack

For some odd reason, the player is being haunted by an entity known as Sunny Day Jack, the host of a children's show from the 80s. He's always around you and only you can see and hear him. He's kind of perfect—a little too perfect—and he's your new best friend forever.

This is a game that has a lot of time and love put into it; a lot of polished art and real voice actors and a little lore thrown into the game that's available after the first playthrough. Warning: the demo does include 1 of 2 different nsfw scenes that you will get depending on what choices you make through the game. They are intended to be consensual but last I played they were unavoidable.

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Lurking For Love

The demo for this game has everything I want in a yandere game; a gentle-looking unassuming guy with hundreds of little red flags that would be easy to miss if you weren't actively playing a yandere game. Like, gee, it sure is nice your neighbor is bringing over your mail when it gets misdelivered to him. Oh, weird, it looks like your new bottle of shampoo must have leaked because the bottle isn't full anymore. Oh wow, you don't remember replacing the ink in your printer last night but you must have because here it is. Just little things. Oh well, time to go bake cookies with the neighbor who has ten different locks installed on his front door :)

It's important to note, while the demo is pretty much safe for work, the full game looks like it's going to be a lot more extreme than a lot of the other games I'm recommending. Like, potentially Boyfriend To Death levels of extreme with graphic torture/guro stuff. That is generally very much not my cup of tea but this demo has so much work and love put into it that, regardless, I have to recommend it because it is very good. Not sure if I would be able to stomach the full game but I am emotionally invested in its development.

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10:16

The player has recently died and they have been sent to Hell. Thinking that this must be a mistake because you were a good, church-going person, you traverse through the Nine Circles of Hell so that you may reach Satan and plead your case. The game starts as you arrive at the Sixth Circle and meet with the demon of this domain.

I'm in love with the tone of this game. It feels so elegant and bigger than it is. Likely because this is but one story in an entire universe made by the creator but the story itself stands alone well enough on its own and it is my favorite by the creator. This is the only one on the list that is not a demo but a short, completed game. If the other games on the list are the introductory chapters of a novel, this entry is a poem; short and succinct but beautiful and complete.

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These are my top 6 games since I couldn't narrow it down to 5. I might recommend more in the future but for now these are the ones that I think are the most interesting and deserve more recognition.

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Homicipher Masterlist

Posts are in chronological order from oldest to newest.

General headcanons (Mr Crawling, Mr Chopped, Mr Gap)

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Homicipher hcs Homicipher hcs Homicipher hcs

SGDFDSGDS OFC IT'S YOU

Mr Crawling would love kisses. Like he would be randomly kissing you throughout the day/night as a way of greeting you, saying goodbye, getting your attention, or even just because he remembers it's something he can do with you.

I think Mr Chopped is interested in human culture, at least in some small way. Get that head some manga and a portable DVD player, he's locked in on Lucky Stars.

Don't ask why, but I could see Mr Crawling being shockingly good at sign language. It's just something about his vibes.

Mr Chopped would also love hair dye. IDK if that exists in the ghost world but he would go CRAZY for some fun and funky colors.

Mr Gap is kinda into the idea of being famous. He's not coming out of that goddamned vent but he is basking in the glow when photos of him appear in magazines, he wants to be cool and mysterious and have people talking about him.

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Homicipher...

HOMICIPHER RAAAAAH!!!!!

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I'm still dealing with The Ooze but I've also been playing Date Everything and unlocked around half the characters sfdsgsdgs

So when I finish acting like a perishing Victorian child maybe I'll drop some headcanons for Date Everything and Homicipher.

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Orion grew in me so fast, I didn't like it at first but it just suits his curly haired lil face

YEAH!! And I like the idea that a dude named Orion gravitated towards working for Space Amazon.

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guess my favourite character super hard edition

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A quick doodle inspired by recent events.

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On today's episode of more romanceble Black characters we have the sisters Raeya and Ara from lost in limbo

Fun fact Ara is a trans woman

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Oh they're both so pretty!! I love how the lighting doesn't shy away from them.

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Ya girl is down with the sickness right now, but I should be back to answering asks by the weekend, this flu has just knocked me the fuck around,,,, and I took too long to get my flu shot bc I didn't realize flu season was coming up 😔 <- is very dumb

ANYWAYS in-between languishing like a Victorian child with Consumption begging to see the ocean and chugging liquids like my life depends on it, I've been playing a lil Homicipher (shout out @dortie) VERY FUN, recommend it for anyone that likes horror and puzzles, especially language-learning/cipher puzzles.

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wait, what if argus ends up with... a pregnant woman?? i read in a previous ask that he would literally break up a relationship if he liked someone enough to do it, so what if his love interest happened to find out they were pregnant from their ex *after* getting into a relationship with argus? would he leave them?

He doesn't like the idea of his beloved being pregnant with another man's baby. It infuriates him, actually. That son of a bitch has tainted his darling, he's just trying to 'win' against Argus, it's that bastard's way of staking a claim.

In short Argus takes it very personally and acts as if an injustice was purposefully committed against him. He'll be suspicious of his beloved, too, practically interrogating them and demanding to know exactly when that thing was conceived. He may even insist on going to a doctor.

Well... he and they will be seeing a doctor either way, because he is not raising another man's 'mistake'. Doesn't matter if they want to keep the baby, Argus insists that he gets the final say, and if they don't agree to an abortion he'll have to use other, more violent, methods.

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i love ur oc cherie so much i wish she didn't end up with that tall ass woman-hating sullivan boy 😔💔

EHE good news is that she doesn't have to <3 I just default to her when I need to give Argus a non-reader insert wifey. She is not going down without a fight because becoming a tradwife is like. her actual worst nightmare.

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HIS NAME IS FUCKING.... ORION CARLING??????

AND WE'RE LEARNING THIS IN A MERCH DROP???

AND THE OTHERS WILL ALSO HAVE THEIR FULL NAMES REVEALED

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god forbid argus gets a son who is very scrawny or just.. lanky in physique. bro will fume at the prospect of having a son who's dog water at sports i bet

Oh absolutely. He tells himself that his son is just a late bloomer, Argus didn't start filling out until he was around 13. Sullivan men tend to be big; tall and broad, god help their mothers. He decides that the best remedy is to just make his son keep practicing.

Argus Sullivan will not raise a pathetic little quitter. It doesn't matter if his son is out of breath or tired or hates sports, he better get down on the goddamn grass and do some goddamn push-ups right this second.

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Y’know, I keep on thinking about like, the inherent tragedy of Argus falling in love with someone in part for certain aspects of their personality, but then, the way he expresses his ‘love’ he’s not likely to see those personality traits. Like their sense of humor, maybe a certain liveliness or willingness to stand up for their friends. That’s part of why he falls in love with them, why he needs them to be his and why he’s willing to use violence, abuse, force, kidnapping etc. to make them his and keep them his, but this very same tactic means his darling would be walking on eggshells, potentially alternatingly terrified of him and incredibly angry at him. Especially if he kidnaps them. Which isn’t really an environment conducive to expressing all of those traits. It certainly doesn’t make one feel safe enough to express themselves freely.

There’s just something about the way that he can force them to obey, force them to stay, force them to not fight back, force them to let him fuck them, force them to say ‘I love you’, but he can’t force them to actually love him—and in trying to make them his he chips away at some of the things he fell in love with. It’s almost like it’s all in vain. Like he wants two conflicting things—he wants their heart, but he doesn’t want the risk that comes with someone freely giving you their heart that it can be taken away. He wants them but he’s too terrified of the risks that come with any relationship that he’s willing to destroy his darling to keep them.

I can imagine Argus with a darling he’s broken into being completely obedient, terrified of him. So they do their best to perform the role he wants from them. But it’s still a performance. And Argus knows. He ignores it, but deep down, it gnaws at him. But this is the closest he can get. Because he’d rather this than them leave. But he still misses they way they’d say his name before they knew to be afraid of him, the way they’d laugh with their friends, the way they’d smiled at him back when there was a chance , at least in their mind, that this could go any other way. But it can’t. He loves their wings but…they might fly away. So he has to clip them.

Anon I am so obsessed with this ask how are you inside Argus' head. I am kissing your big beautiful brain oh my god???

This is like. A scarily good analysis of his character. A big part of Argus is self sabotage. He's very attractive, a provider, hard working, and can be charismatic when he wants to be, but he's so nasty, abusive, and controlling that he ends up ruining every opportunity he gets.

It's like the sunk cost fallacy; Argus keeps ruining his own life, but he is desperate to prove himself (and by extension his father) right, that he can have the life he feels like he deserves, that everything he's done wasn't for nothing.