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does anyone want to do a study on generational trauma with me?!!!! myh mom was nauseous with bananas and a particular type of sausages when she was pregnant with me could this cause my general dislike for them? or am I looking at more freudian solutions, like, yeah this explains why i have no boyfriend although i in my ego and superego want one???!!?!?!? like the id is unwilling and the ego is weak? * ** * freudian terms again sorry he is antiquated ** this is a goof post . i think.

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I love how dressing unusually can give children the feeling that a person is from another time and place.

I was teaching kids today and they got fixated on the usual ‘are they dead now?’ question when I was talking about historical figures. So I was just like ‘Yes, they’re dead now, everyone who was alive in the 1800s is dead now.’ and then one kid was like ‘Except for you’.

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Some say I have a big heart

Then why do I feel so small

Heart Lines, Gemma Troy, p.22

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How many times

will I burn

before I learn

self-love

doesn't involve a flame

-- Gemma Troy, Heart Lines, p. 268

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annie's x clio peppiatt: the midnight dress

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Late Victorian and Edwardian fashion in portraits by Giovanni Boldini (Italian, 1842-1931)

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@ardenla 😊🫂

@ardenla do u want me 2 write u a poem? Or rather, would u be delighted a fraction of how delighted I would be if I were to write a poem for u?

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Imagine if getting core mental trauma was somehow audible or visible. Like you're already having a bad day and you're trying to wrangle two toddlers and a bag of groceries and work was ass and then you hear the sound of something shattering and you just know that one of your kids' emotional core and sense of basic safety just fucking broke and you can't even tell which one it was.

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Head Held High Where None Can See

Sometimes there’s nothing left of an experience but horror,

The striking fist of a moment that falls,

If not quickly, hard.

That is what we remember: the debris of what is left, new,

Compressed into a diamond, cutting bright.

We see little else.

I have always liked to be in the dark, where life takes hot shape.

I could make a million diamond rings,

And sleep, sound, on them.

Take the snow, take the mountaintop, take the valley’s waterfall.

Retreat to the cave where you mint memories

And pray with them, slow.

I’ll never forget the moment, years ago – you were so small –

I had to carry you, shaking, from your

First cave.  Three years old.

Fluttering, invisible bat wings, the dripping minerals –

Your flailing legs, your muted, terse whimpers –

Claustrophobia.

Now, a decade plus later, you seek out the dark, the water,

Take the good with the bad, truncate demons.

Never been prouder.

@ardenla if you don't like it or have suggestions for changes, I'll write more. thanks for giving me material to stoke my imagination and give rise to new forms.

@ardenla do u want me 2 write u a poem? Or rather, would u be delighted a fraction of how delighted I would be if I were to write a poem for u?

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I understand feeling embarrassed about something conspicuous, extreme, unusual, etc that could be judged negatively. I think I also have similar feelings about a lot of things. But honestly, the weirdness will sink in until it feels like a field of grass instead of Yoda poking out his head with a stick. It will be grounding, because it's your voice and your meaning and your experience. Congratulations on starting to build your literary home

Sometimes I wonder what I was thinking (in both the hell yeah, and the what the hell...) when I write stuff.

I mean like:

"Feeling violated and hopeless, I crawl into a corner. I have no plan, no family, no home and I’m probably being carted to my death."

Its a great line, but its also extremely weird out of context.

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Do not

get between me and my baby food

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wait— you’re telling me this guy is REAL?

🎥: @ mist3ri0us.kaii

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what good is all this talk of wings when there is nothing left above?

by tokenofeden

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Flirting telepathically tonight so if you get nightmares its just me

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it's too bad the conservatives have "representation" from Ben Shapiro, Jordan Peterson, Donald Trump, Candace Owens, etc. Yeah they are winning as far as loudness but they are as unscrupulous and haranguing. Better reps for the trads etc, please, world. better reps. get a publicity agent lol