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Leebeebee

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my oats are being felt.

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This little faggot is eating KIMCHI

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ctrl+f, why are you not an actual thing in life?

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There were bees on my Hydrangea on sunday ☀️🐝

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Good Morning

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let’s be enough for each other

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Recto verso - Budapest Zoo, 11 May 2025

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my only two moods.

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XIV. Oroszlánszagú Leó.

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i’m so tired of… being tired.

for years now - honestly, probably a decade - i haven’t had a proper night’s sleep. falling asleep? never been the issue. staying asleep? absolutely cursed. i can’t even remember the last time i woke up after 7 am.

and because of that, i’m always a little tired. and because i’m always tired, i’m always a little grumpy. i don’t want to be grumpy. i just wanna be my happy self. i miss him.

i’ve tried everything. meditation. melatonin. valerian tea. no screens before bed. hot baths. jerking off. jerking off again. nothing works. nothing.

even this weekend - wine tasting (so my body had booze in it (and i can't hold my liquor)), six people crashing in the same room, zero chance of actual rest - even then, i still woke up at 6 today. on my day off. nothing urgent. no alarm. just my cursed internal clock saying: rise, peasant.

(“i said i would buy the flowers myself,” she says, holding back a breakdown.)

i think i’m going insane. just slowly. politely. sleep-deprivedly.