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everything a girl just shouldnt feel

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my roommate always leaves the kitchen a mess like bro we just cleaned this!! a plate with a half eaten egg sandwich has been sitting for days and now there’s a bunch of garbage when i just took out the trash so the bin is empty and ready to go!!! and when i try and talk to them about it they just do the “well we both use dishes” I CAN ASSURE YOU I DO NOT IM NOT EVEN EATING RN BUT I STILL WANT SHARED SPACES TO BE CLEAN UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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hard to tell if im struggling with music theory classes bc its hard or bc of the restriction

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i faced my fear and weighed myself last night…and im almost at the weight i was when i first developed my ed. that was horrifying, but it’s also making me realize just how much ive been binging. i mean i did weigh myself at night after eating all day so idk how accurate it is but im afraid to look this morning too

for a while i was in the gain 10, loose 10 lbs cycle and now im just gaining. but i just….i just gotta stay on track this time. i might even lift my calorie restriction to something a lil higher even if that means weight will be lost slower.

im just so uncomfortable in my body

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august 31,

breakfast

homemade pumpkin spice chai // 160cals (high ball estimate)

lunch

going out to eat so i don’t know exactly but im gonna get the vegan quesadillas, estimating 500 cals. we’ll see if i eat all of it

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August 29th,

breakfast - monster zero // 0cal

snack - light string cheese, fairlife protein // 230cal

lunch - half can of soup // 100cal

total:

330

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we'll be there! 💖

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can't believe i went from "I promise I'll never do dr*gs!" to "I'll take anything, just give me something"

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trying at least 4 weeks of intermittent fasting to try and break this binge cycle and get back to a “normal” bmi!!! first three days were a breeze but tonight…….i want to just consimeeee

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Hi! In a previous post of urs, u said u missed being able to sh on ur wrists? Why aren’t you able to? Sorry if this is too personal!!

well technically i can still sh there but not without big consequences that i don’t wanna deal with!! they’re a lot harder for me to hide and stuff >.<

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im so done with not losing weight!!! im caught in this binge cycle and im so upset

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first 5 faceless emojis are how your summers gonna go

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Juxtaposition

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women love me for my eye bags and dead eyed stare

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you should be able to leave bite marks on somebody else's blog

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