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i hope you guys heal from the things you don't talk about. btw

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i dont want to fall in love as its very painful

i have always been the one to take the leap of faith

and face planted onto the ground

twice to be exact.

but another side of me wants to be hugged so bad it drives me nuts

to be cared about like genuinely

as i care about others

chat is this normal

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i want it to end. end. please. help. help me. this is too much. too much for me. too much . please help me. i want to get out. out.

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it's all fun until you get 10/20 points on the second exam and your father is disappointed and you want to kill him and kill yourself

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second finals test was a fluke and a half. fuck

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day 1 of 4 for the finals!! 2day it's an italian written test and possibly the easiest of the bunch. wish me luck Aplenty,,

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@forflightlessbirds and the Guy you had from the Musical, or, what, ever

that was how i headcanoned you in m,y head

Me core

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fuck. i hate this. i need my anxiolytics. i'm feeling terrible. my head is sick.

whenever i read anything about sa from the victim themselves i physically get the urge to throw up and dig my fingers in my throat until i bleed

i want to fucking die. everywhere i look on social media there's sa victims and psych ward recoverees venting their heart out and it makes me want to relapse so bad. the world fucking sucks

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whenever i read anything about sa from the victim themselves i physically get the urge to throw up and dig my fingers in my throat until i bleed

i want to fucking die. everywhere i look on social media there's sa victims and psych ward recoverees venting their heart out and it makes me want to relapse so bad. the world fucking sucks

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my work schedule has led me to not taking my anxiolytics for several days in a row, which would explain the numerous depressive, delusional and manic episodes i have when i'm on my own

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school is over!! at long last! which means a whole new chapter of my life begins, but i won't be able to exchange dastardly glances with the girls on the bus. oh, the bliss of the unknown [grieving]

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pear. hi

i have come to bother you as i so often do.. but not as often recently. Exams hate me and they kill my whimsy

michael update!

Exams

ouh

two year anniversary :)

Ecams

ouh

keep almost kissing one of my friends. boyfriend is supportive i an confused . Prett y guy wants to maybe kiss me wtf

i am gonna. Grab you and spin you and turn you into a billion fragments of glass and mirror and glitter and stars and so many things

i hope you're ok pal. i like you very much hi hi hello

M8CHEL OFMMY GOD! SJSHI im so going to punch! you! deliver me from boredom

i will also have ekams in a couple of weeks..

ouh

HAPPY TWO YEARS! ANNIVERS! ARY! on account of my only ever romantic relationship being an emotional codependency with a transmasc friend that lasted a month before fading into nonexistence i find you and your pardner's dedication admirable. you get a 👍 <- snumbps up

ouh. tension... follow ur heart!! kiss!! oraybe dont because you're not into that what do i know. in the meanwhile if you want to grab me and spin me and break me apart in a gorillion glitters amd crispy crystals yeah do that. pleas e

i am NOT okay! but i am playing pokemon on tha 3ds. blaziken my beloved. we are one and the same in every universe

thank you for the latest patch notes guy. sending much love your way! and possibly your family too. and your partner also gets a -> 👍👍 <- hearty dose of upthumb 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

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the delirium of sitting around at work doing nothing because there is nothing to do is the mother of all good tumblr posts. but not all tumblr posts birthed by sitting around at work doing nothing because there is nothing to do are good. a vexing logic problem

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my transfem friend recently got circumcised, which leaves me wondering.. couldnt she just have ducked at the right time and get bottom surgery for free??

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i think that a hug would be enoigh to flood my face with tears and make my problems vanish. sighs

i need to be molded by the hands of an expert lover

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it's not everyday you see a special attack sweeper chi-yu make such imaginative remarks on its being

like i exist but as an afterthought, time and time again and again

which was a step up from like straight up denying that i exist

ice cream incident williams common room incident hume incident

this post should be left in the tumblrspace and i will probably delete it tmr!

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what do you guys know about having to buy steam cards from physical stores because you don't have a credit card yet? now THAT is the real struggle