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This is my familiar hell: to bite on things and never tell. I become so full of feeling sorry for myself, there's no room for anything else. That which is unfamiliar will always be the same, for a life lived unbothered is all I'll have to my name. You don't have to get the picture, you can always sell the frame. Misrepresent intent and you play a loser's game. You think thumbtacks are a quick fix, and that's really who I am, but I am in the business of shifting all my plans. Maybe I'll hang these photos, maybe I've got to go. Maybe one day I'll be privy to the things I oughta know.

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5 years, same shit.

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November 2021

Reimagining stoicism without total disconnect. Heart and mind align to remain objective in respect. I wait for time to pass to know I’m fine right where I am, with nothing but my hands I am changing what I can. I don’t need your fire, I layer up for warmth. I know if things got dire, you’d leave me in the north. Where resources are cherished, you think ‘enough’ is poor. I would be embarrassed to be always wanting more.

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You have a lighter that runs on gasoline. You light everything from cigarettes to fireworks and in-between. If you had a heart to give, you'd give it to me. Although inflammable, I scar for free. If that was a moment meant to pass - a fleeting memory, spent tank of gas - then I'm okay with looking back at discolored skin, and what the present lacks. You carry a lighter half full of gasoline, at any moment you'd pour out to me. A criticism fraught with rivalry, as if I could have been the enemy. So take your lighter filled with gasoline, use it up, use it down, but not on me.

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I'm a survivor of a violent crime, another number in a widely unknown yet devastating statistic, and I'm luckier than most. I carry the sometimes unbearable weight of my suffering, and wrestle with the hopelessness and the sorrow I feel for those who haven't seen a speck of justice. Those who have not and may never get to tell their story, or see a brighter day. I hurt for every woman and girl who never got to feel hope, and for them I am going to start talking.

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Like new skin - a flesh start, but on the surface missing heart. Love something new like something old, but you are skin and I am bones. We could let it rattle like a nearly dead truck, we race at odds against our luck. I don't bend much before I break, and these sharp edges lacerate. While there is no bandage like a ticking clock, if you don't bleed the poison these bones will rot.

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Cold

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