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i made a music video for my song BURNITDOWN. it comes out tomorrow. it’s really simple but Im really proud of it. I feel like Im learning so much having to do so much shit in my own. It feels great to be productive. it feels great to shit. the amount of extra fat ive been able to shave off over the last several months is extremely refreshing. anyway, brand new song on monday. cant wait for you guys to hear. might even make a video for this one too.

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NEXT SONG

presave now

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BURNITDOWN OUT EVERYWHERE NOW

i wrote this song in like early 2020 out of nowhere. im pretty sure i did it all in one go, making the instrumental in one day, and i was so stoked about the beat that everything that came out as lyrics was just like a stream of consciousness. i remember feeling really excited about the response we were getting as a band, and having all these stan accounts interact with us online, it felt like we were on the brink of becoming famous (LOL). the next few months proved otherwise, however it was really interesting to capture that feeling in a bottle, or (more or less) a song. The fear that comes with being seen and perceived all the time, the fear of judgement from strangers for anything that you do, especially the fear of judgement when your whole persona is based on not caring about what others think. I definitely cared about my loved ones being affected by any type of success that may come to me. I also cared about not being socially aware, or empathic to what people were going through. I was weary about being overwhelmed by everything and getting lost in partying and drugs, because a lot of my friends found themselves in the midst of that just dealing with everyday life. I wrote the song (like most other songs at the time) to pitch to my band to release as a band song, however it seemed to resonate much more personally than with everyone else. This song alone made me want to pursue a solo career, and made me realize that i really do have such a particular and unique sonic palette, and I genuinely think this is the most raw representation of how I hear music and hip hop. I want to push the limits, I want to be honest, and I want to be understood. I actually lost the original file to this song, so I was never able to go back and make any edits to this song, so everything you hear was recorded the day I made it, all the way down to the mix and master of it. I want Pepperjack to inspire people to be themselves unapologetically.

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made this song with my friend mia. she’s so good and i love producing rock music so much. check it out if you like anything grungey

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LET IT RUN ITS COURSE

back in california finishing some songs ive been working on. got to do a couple sessions, and then im back on the road again to see some family. i really love making art in little bursts. editing a music video for my partner while we're traveling, while also getting some shots for BURNITDOWN. been running into distribution dilemmas, ultimately forcing me to keep taking deep breaths and not rush the process. The first song I produced on after I moved to New York just came out this weekend. Feeling like I am finally making strides towards the things ive been wanting to do. The more im posting these demos, the more love im getting and the more traction on social media. Feeling really confident about putting my ideas out there and coming to terms with life these days. cant wait for summer time in new york and cant wait to book the next show. loving the people im meeting and creating new things. new vibes on the way

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excellent show this past weekend. hart bar was lit the fuck up!!!! im so glad i did all the extra rehearsal. really starting to feel the live element lock into place. i cant wait to take this show on the road with Josie live painting. here’s a few flicks

taken by merit gentile

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aura maxxing

-pepper

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met this nice man on the train who asked to take my photo. he had just moved from la around the same time as I did. he does street photography and sells film photos on a donation basis. we spoke about music for a bit and the scene in LA. we both preferred it here, even tho he had lived in LA for over 15 years. feeling inspired by him

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first solo song coming out in 5 days i need to finish this video smh

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INSPIRATION

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everything is peaceful love

doing a bunch of inventory, cleaning up, paying bills, gathering photos, listening to new music (bon iver the choice for today). really enamored by the choices on production and jime stacks contributions to the album. soooo fucking good. also love the neu blume album. my homie colson is a wiz and a really solid dude. really want him and his bandmate mo to get their flowers. super talented musicians and writers. ive been working with a bunch of different people on production. the first song i really produced on in new york is coming out in a few weeks. my friend mia lorelai let me cook up on her song "second best" and im really excited for people to hear it. i just got a master back for my song "pretend" that's coming out next month, and i just uploaded my song "BURNITDOWN" to dsp's. it's not mixed or mastered, but it's a demo ive had for forever that i feel like really encapsulates my sound. at least for now. i think it's a great jump off point for putting pepper into the world. i got a bunch of photos back from my disposable, i'll post some of them on here over the next few weeks. im practicing my set for the show on the 26th today, which i cant wait for. it's really fun to be able to play whatever i want. songs that i know are coming out this year of mine, and some that i wanna sit on for a bit. need to practice my own set enough to be able to call audibles and shit. have everything in my head. going back to la next month to work for some more production work, and im gonna try and finish a song that i started from last time i was there. im having a lot of fun writing with other people as a feature and for their own projects. making shit is cool. im back in the beats this week. i got a session with my homie steven tomorrow. im seshing on thursday with my lady. life is SICK. i love new york -pepper

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prepping for the show on the 26th. editing my tracks and throwing new tricks in there. really excited to integrate my DJing into my live set more. Ive gotten much better and I love it as an art form or instrument in relation to hip hop. plus i cant wait to perform some of these new demos. -pepper

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fuck it we ball

i have now entered the "fuck it we ball" mentality

i found this old music video i made back in august of 2019 and decided to upload it to my new youtube channel for all the pepperjack work. it was such a fun time in life. i remember being really depressed, yet somehow felt like i had already made it as a famous musician. i had just quit my deli job and was about to go on my first tour with the band. 2 months prior to this video we had signed to new management, who was making all these plans for us. so everyday before tour we were spending all day getting high and making music. it was also right before we all came out to new york for the first time. such a surreal moment, and somehow brings everything full circle. anyway, in the mood to start dumping a bunch of music on the internet for the love of the game. in the name of rap music, here is "THE BLUES (2019)"

oh yeah and subscribe to that youtube channel ho

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happy birthday brother. you turned 25 today. not a day goes by that i dont think about you. it took me a few years, but i finally feel like i wrote something for you that encapsulates what it felt like to lose you. fly high, my boy. i’ll see you on the other side

lyrics:

face gettin pale

made it thru hell

tried to escape from the holiday

tooth and a nail

still i prevailed

echoed the words that my momma say

keep a email

with the details

i get replayin that awful day

read it and wail

feels like it’s braille

way it still touchin my heart today

4 years and counting

still i aint found all the words

just to say what i wanna say

4 years and counting

still i aint feel like i honored your soul in the proper way

4 years had gone by between the time we had last spoken and when you got locked away

wonder if all of the pain that i feel for you passin is ever gon wash away

wonder if all of the pain that you felt in this life is somethin i can tolerate

cause sometimes i feel like im on the way

it aint a debate you can moderate

and still it’s too late for the solemn face

all that i need is a time and place

all that i needs your advice again

to tell me to quit w that cryin face

still i get bitter that I had changed

and this shit’ll hit like some tidal waves

and make me dismiss my entire day

i guess i just miss you

yeah brodie i miss you

said brodie i miss you

we were like 4 feet somethin

just tormented punks runnin down 24th street

runnin each fade like it’s sport out of boredom when I took a L you’d support me

you showed me the ropes,

i watched how the girls always loved you, but you would endorse me,

whenever i was into a shorty

but she took a liking to you way before me,

you showed me what loyalty is,

when everyone liked you way more than me,

i never had any friends,

before you that saw me get pummeled and stuck by my side, you told me put em your fists,

showed me how to fight,

and when they tried clowning you for it

you always threw down for the kid,

you knew what was right,

you did what you could without violence when you were surrounded by it,

And hide it, whenever your mama would beat you,

you always told me that you loved her regardless,

a child but still you could see thru,

the pain that she took out on you,

and you guarded

your fam with your life,

some shit you imparted on me too,

when CPS visited school, had me always buggin i wasnt gon see you

and bro you survived,

for so long,

taught me that shit could be worse

when the people you loved went and treated you so wrong,

taught me to keep my chin up thru adversity

homie, just breathe and then hold on,

taught me to see my own worth when nobody could see it,

and gee were they so wrong,

wish I could tell you to hold on,

wish I had took a lil time to check in on you bro cause i thought of you often,

when I was too caught up in all my own bullshit to pick up the phone and just call then,

i know you’d be proud I let go of the guilt that I felt for not being involved when,

they put you away in that cell,

but i couldnt help i was feelin so lost then,

I’ll always be missin you Austin,

I promise you wont be forgotten,

your spirit and soul are so locked in,

to my every lyric Ive jot since,

and every year I go back listen to that one song that we did we were like ten,

just to hear your voice again,

my best friend,

all the time we spent

aint a word that capture what it meant

all the shit you went thru

yet you never wouldnt let me vent

all the love you had for both your sisters, what you represent,

making people smile with every wall life had you pressed against,

heavent sent, never let the pessimism get to you,

always tryna right your wrongs, searchin for a better you,

when i started writing songs, you lent a ear and said the truth,

gave me confidence to go and earn all the respect I knew,

that I deserved,

you helped me find my light, i guess you saw it too,

feel your DNA ingrained in every single thing I do,

walkin home from school, hangin out like every afternoon,

arizona teas from m&m mart just to get us thru,

arizona heat and boredom, when I recollect my youth,

dreamin bout our future lives and all the shit we’re gonna do,

Sitting in my room and cry bout all the shit we’d never do,

sitting here at 25 and you never saw 22,

never got your 21st,

never got to break the curse,

so im dedicating every verse until i leave this earth

every moment live it for the one that cannot be reversed,

every smile I wear just what I owe you till youre reimbursed,

forever hurts,

yeah,

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real love baby pepperjack cover

i am feeling caged by many things right now. i am too broke to do a lot of the things i want to do. i make a lot of things for fun, and sometimes just to make me feel better. my partner was out of town right before valentines day, so i decided to make this cover for her; one of our favorite songs. consequentially, it eased some of the pain i felt about other things, and reminded me how lucky i am to share a love so pure in trying times. i hope it can do the same for you

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ive been making beats everyday since i moved to brooklyn. on some early 2000s ye shit. not really sticking to a style, but on the days where i feel defeated, hope is reinforced. belief in myself persists. ive been writing so much since i officially got off my LA lease in january. the growing pains are heavier. im back in therapy. im about to be back on meds. im in the worst financial rut ive ever been in. most days im able to still put a happy face on. especially in the presence of others, im always able to recognize that things could be much worse for me. the cathartic feeling from creating by myself always leads me to the realization that the things i create are much bigger than me. whether they reach people while im here or not. or how many. it doesnt matter. keep pushing. keep pushing. -pepper

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ruminating

thinking about putting out a track soon.. hmm how's monday???? im sitting on too much to let it go stale. the kitchen is hot. this shit is long overdue. im always cooking. what's up???