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Your trauma is valid even if you were groomed to like the abuse at the time.

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working on Ahri crystal tails sometime this weekend. super excited! making all 9 of them, wish me luck :') will be posting progress pics!

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I know this is a controversial hot take but being bi is not a bad thing. You don’t have to try and preface it by saying you prefer one gender over another. I’m very sorry that people treat bi people so poorly that it feels necessary that does suck. But preferring one over the other doesn’t make you both. 

A bi man who prefers men isn’t a bi gay. He’s just bi. A bi woman who prefers women is still bi. Not a bi lesbian. That’s all I have to say. 

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I don't want to be the "two-faced gemini" stereotype but I've been so traumatized my brain created multiple people so

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things that made me stop wanting to die that require no effort whatsoever

change the color used to highlight text on your laptop

move the pictures on your wall

stack whatever clutter is in your room into piles even if you don’t have time to clean it all

slightly vary your commute, even just by one street

change where you sit and scroll aimlessly on your phone even if it’s only to the chair in your room instead of your bed

drink water or juice out of a wine glass in the morning because nothing is real

shower with the lights off, without music

buy $3 flowers at trader joe’s—they look bad next to the more expensive ones but they look so good in your room

start typing things you don’t post into your notes. your thoughts can be worth documenting even if you don’t deem them worth sharing

wake up super early just once. you don’t have to make it a habit it’s just extra satisfying to go to bed that night

listen to the entirety of your favorite album from 2015

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saving this for later!!

DO YA'LL WANT SOME FANTASY AND SCI-FI BOOKS/SERIES/AUTHORS TO REPLACE HP/JKR? THEN BOY DO I HAVE SOME RECOMMENDATIONS FOR YOU!

TAMORA PIERCE HAS 8 SERIES (9 IF YOU INCLUDE HER MOST RECENT ONE) ABOUT LADY KNIGHTS AND A DEMIGOD WITH ANIMAL MAGIC AND A COP WHO CAN TALK TO THE DEAD AND THERE'S 4 MAGES WITH A MAGICAL PSYCHIC BOND AND ONE OF THEM IS A BLACK LESBIAN AND THERE'S A SPY WHO HELPS WITH A REVOLUTION AND THEY'RE AWESOME. (there's some attitudes that are a little outdated but TP started writing in like the 80s so)

BRIAN JACQUES (OBM) WROTE THE REDWALL SERIES WHICH IS ABOUT ANIMALS WHO LIVE IN AN ABBEY CALLED REDWALL AND THERE'S HEROES AND WARRIORS AND PIRATES AND BADGERS WHO LIVE IN VOLCANOES AND SAILORS AND OVERTHROWING TYRANTS AND DEFEATING VILLAINS AND GENERAL BADASSERY AND THEY'RE JUST REALLY COOL OKAY? GO READ THEM

NEXT UP WE HAVE KA APPLEGATE WHO WROTE ANIMORPHS. I DIDN'T READ THEM BUT APPARENTLY THEY'RE GOOD BOOKS WITH RELEVANT THEMES AND KIDS TURNING INTO ANIMALS. ALSO KA APPLEGATE ISN'T A TERF.

RICK RIORDAN. YOU LEARN ABOUT GREEK MYTHOLOGY AND ROMAN MYTHOLOGY AND EGYPTIAN MYTHOLOGY AND NORSE MYTHOLOGY IN AN EASILY COMPREHENSIBLE WAY. ALSO THERE'S A FAIR AMOUNT OF BIPOC MAIN CHARACTERS AND QUEER CHARACTERS AND DIVERSITY AND HUMOR.

ARTEMIS FOWL BY EOIN COLFER. I LOVED THAT SERIES GROWING UP. MORALLY COMPLEX MAIN CHARACTERS AND THEMES OF OVERCOMING SEXISM AND MAGIC AND TIME TRAVEL AND I'VE ONLY READ THE FIRST 5 BOOKS BUT THEY'RE GOOD. EOIN COLFER ALSO HAS ANOTHER BOOK THAT'S ABOUT FIXING YOUR MISTAKES AND I LIKED IT A LOT.

THE ENCHANTED FOREST SERIES BY PATRICIA WREDE. MAYBE IT'S JUST BC I'M ACE AND I THEREFORE LOVE DRAGONS BUT IT'S A GREAT SERIES ABOUT SUBVERTING TRADITIONAL FAIRY TALES AND JUST BEING AWESOME IN GENERAL.

A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS. FATE USES 3 ORPHANS AS ITS PUNCHING BAG BUT IT'S KINDA EDUCATIONAL AND FUNNY IN A DRY WAY AND HAS A VERY GOOD REDEMPTION FOR THE MAIN ANTAGONIST. 13/10 WOULD RECOMMEND.

YOUNG WIZARDS BY @dduane. FOLLOWS TWO WIZARDS WHO SAVE THE EARTH/UNIVERSE OVER AND OVER AND OVER. HAS AN AUTISTIC CHARACTER. ONE OF THE MAINS IS HISPANIC/LATINE (I'M NOT SURE WHICH IS THE CORRECT TERM SORRY). REALLY COOL BOOKS.

UGLIES BY SCOTT WESTERFIELD. IT'S GOT 4 BOOKS ABOUT A SOCIETY OBSESSED WITH PHYSICAL BEAUTY AND THERE'S REVOLUTION. ALSO SCOTT HAS A SERIES ABOUT VAMPIRES THAT'S REALLY COOL.

THE HUNGER GAMES SERIES. LITERALLY ABOUT CLASS OPPRESSION AND REBELLION AND THERE'S GOOD DEPICTIONS OF TRAUMA AND WAR AND PTSD AND ALL THAT GOOD STUFF (/s). REALLY GOOD.

WARRIOR CATS. NEVER READ THEM BUT IT'S CATS WHO ARE WARRIORS. HOW COOL IS THAT.

Anyway that's all I can think of off the top of my head. Feel free to add on.

PEOPLE. WHEN I MADE THIS POST, IT WAS MY INTENTION TO NOT INCLUDE BIGOTED WORKS/AUTHORS. PLEASE RESPECT THAT IF YOU WANT TO ADD RECS. THANKS.

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I had 911 called for me at work earlier. I fainted and was completely unresponsive and the whole thing is fuzzy to me. apparently it was just due tk vertigo, but my boyfriend and I are pretty sure I overworked myself and it was caused by fatigue. I have the weekend off but I feel like I need to go in still. I'm not goinv to but damn if I'm not gonna feel guilty for staying home.

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I love getting irrationally angry at people who have good pulls!!!

aka, my bf has 3 5 star characters and multiple 5 star weapons, someone in the genshin server pulled a double childe, and I got qiqi who I don't really want but I'll take her ig

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Self Care tips:

Coping after Trauma

Coping with Traumatic Stress Reactions | Cómo Afrontar las Reacciones de Estrés Traumático Discusses active ways to cope with traumatic stress, with tips for coping with specific PTSD symptoms.

Negative Coping and PTSD Ways of coping with PTSD that cause problems and should be avoided.

Self-Care After Disasters Discusses ways to cope when you have been through a disaster.

Self-Help Options

Lifestyle Changes Recommended for PTSD Patients Discusses changes in your way of life that can help with PTSD.

Mindfulness Practice in the Treatment of Traumatic Stress Discusses changes in your way of life that can help with PTSD.

Mindfulness Coach Grounding yourself in the present moment can help you cope better with unpleasant thoughts and emotions. The Mindfulness Coach app will help you do this.

Peer Support Groups Describes peer support groups and gives suggestions on how to locate a group to help those diagnosed with PTSD or caring for someone with PTSD.

Dogs and PTSD Describes dogs as pets, service animals, and emotional support animals and discusses what is known about the role of dogs in PTSD recovery.

PTSD, Work, and Your Community Explains why people who do not understand PTSD may treat you differently (stigma). Read about how you can use community services or a job to change their minds.

Coping with flashbacks & nightmares

Because we become upset and avoid thinking about the trauma, the brain has not been able to process and file the memory away, so any trigger tricks the brain into thinking the even is happening again, right now, and we re-experience all the feelings and sensations as thought it really was happening right now.

Use these coping strategies and grounding techniques during a flashback: Grounding Techniques & Coping with Flashbacks

Use this Discrimination Worksheet PDF before a flashback, so that you can be better prepared to reassure your brain that the event is NOT happening again right now.

Set aside some time every day, maybe 15-20 minutes, to think about the traumatic event and write down some notes.  Try to make it the same time each day, which might be evening time if you have nightmares.  Finish this time by writing down a positive coping statement such as “I survived”, “I’m taking back control of my life”, “I have ……  who/which supports me”.

Develop Coping Strategies for dealing with stress and anger, e.g.

STOPP

Mindful Breathing

Coping with Flashbacks

HELP FOR ANXIETY - NOW !

Distract !

Mindfulness

NOW

STOPP

Overcome Avoidance - use the Avoidance worksheet

Fact or Opinion

Emergency or soothe box

Relaxation techniques

Colour Breathing

Imagery

Defusion

Positive Coping Statements

Thought Challenging  or The Court Case

The Helicopter View

The Mind Bully

Flexible Thinking

Music

Anger Self Help

Stress Self Help

PTSD Self Help - this page as PDF

More Self Help for PTSD

Coping with Flashbacks

HELP FOR ANXIETY - NOW !

Distract !

Read:  Trauma & the Brain

Read:  Trauma Metaphor

Read Anxiety Self Help

Practise Mindful Breathing

Practise STOPP

Overcome Avoidance - use the Avoidance worksheet

Read Fact or Opinion

Read About Automatic Thoughts

Emergency or soothe box

Practise completing the Vicious Cycle & Alternatives

Use the PTSD Thought Record Sheet

Use the Discrimination Worksheet (Differentiating then & now) to prepare for flashbacks

Work your way through the 7 Step CBT Self Help Course:  substitute the PTSDThought Record Sheet for the generic Thought Record/Challenge Sheet

Use the self help MP3s

Self Help Books

Overcoming Traumatic Stress: A Self-Help Guide Using Cognitive Behavioral Techniques The PTSD Workbook: Simple, Effective Techniques for Overcoming Traumatic Stress Symptoms Overcoming Trauma and PTSD: A Workbook Integrating Skills from ACT, DBT, and CBT The Everything Guide to Overcoming PTSD: Simple, effective techniques for healing and recovery

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❗AVOID THESE PEDOPHILES AT ALL COSTS! ❗

I was scrolling through Tumblr and came across a post of KNOWN PEDOPHILES ON TUMBLR (many of which have or want to rape actual children/minors)

THERE ARE ACTUAL PEDOPHILES ON TUMBLR TRYING TO GET IN TOUCH WITH MINORS ON TUMBLR

PLEASE SIGNAL BOOST THIS LIST AND KEEP OUR MINORS SAFE

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r/DIDcringe is a disgusting subreddit and I’ll do nothing but laugh when it gets banned.

All those people on that subreddit do is harass mentally ill folks who’ve endured severe childhood trauma because they have nothing better to do with their pathetic lives. Those people need to get a life and stop harassing us, the DID/OSDD community gets enough shit as it is.

I encourage that everyone who sees that subreddit report it immediately.

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Why some systems have "cringey" alters - and why they're not actually cringey.

I'm talking about edgy alters, fictives (fictional introjects), and non-human alters...

1. DID is formed during childhood. While a new split can happen at any time after that, a lot of alters are created within a child's mind (or within the mind of a preteen or teenager). As kids a lot of us associate "edgy" with being tough and capable of protecting us.

2. Same as above applies here, but even as adults it's perfectly normal to become attached to certain characters. A lot of people with DID are also neurodivergent and therefore even more likely to latch onto fiction as a coping mechanism.

3. As our therapist says, it takes a lot of creativity for the brain to cope with trauma by forming a system. It makes sense that someone would have non-human alters. There's no wrong way to have a system.

- RJ

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Saw this somewhere else and felt the need to post it cause no one else ever really tells you this stuff

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I'm tired of having nightmares. my psych had me try otc sleep meds and gave me a prescription for prazosin, but nothing's working. I don't even care about waking up in a panic, or being afraid to sleep anymore. it's the thrashing or scooting close or tossing around that wakes my boyfriend up multiple times a night that concerns me. I know he doesn't mind too much, but it's really irritating knowing that none of these meds help with keeping me more still at night and there's nothing I can do about it.

anyone have any tricks of the trade they can offer? I'm willing to try pretty much anything at this point.

**EDIT I MEANT PRAZOSIN NOT PREDNISONE**

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since the whole parent tantrum thing I'm having ANOTHER flare that's causing me really bad pain and affecting my mobility. hopefully it's over soon. if it's not then I am FUCKED because I have to move and stand for work no matter what