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geordie kieffer’s Red Line is hitting particularly hard since this weekend

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actually very proud of my state rn

there was a candidate running who actually had a fantastic platform. very well spoken and super great issues they were pushing for change in(main priority was to work on implementing free healthcare for all state residents during his term, also lots of emphasis on accessible education) i almost decided to vote for him.

then i realized he was outspokenly roman catholic(which in and of itself is not wrong do not come for me catholics) AND made no real emphasis on the protection of abortion rights so i changed my tune real fast bc free healthcare means nothing if women don’t have control over said healthcare for themselves

i was scared tho honestly thought he may come close especially in my specific area bc he was the only candidate to really go hard on healthcare like that and this area is one of the most progressive in the state

AND HE CAME IN LAST PLACE!!!! he literally only won two small rural sections of the state and that made me very happy

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guuugjfjghgj knew it had to happen eventually this is life

but my therapist is going on maternity leave next month(which she has done before) but i don’t think she’s coming back to the practice afterwards this time

i am spiraling a little

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you ever see shit that makes you think “i know i’m very online but i’m not online enough for this one”

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realizing i’m probably gravitating towards nd feeling mac so much rn bc i recently turned the age he was when he passed nnnngggg

just keep thinking abt how much i still want to do and experience rn and how sad and ready to die i used to be and how he existed for the same amt of time ive now existed and he didnt get to experience any more of it and it doesn’t feel real bc i feel like i have NOT experienced anywhere near enough of life like akdkskfkedkkee i want him back he deserves to be back

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i listen to mac and i BAWL

“to everyone who sell me drugs

don’t mix it with that bullshit

I’m hopin’ not to join the 27 club”

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If you accidentally hurt someone or cross their boundaries and they make you aware of this, literally all you have to do is apologize and stop. You don't have to beat yourself up internally for months. You don't have to hate yourself for fucking up. You don't have to feel like a horrible person. No one benefits from any of that - and at worst, such an extreme reaction will make the person in question less likely to speak up around you in the future, cause even if your negative reaction is directed at yourself and not at them, it's still unpleasant for everyone involved.

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no matter how many times i beg my mom to stop buying garbage from shein she will not stop

i give her so many reasons and she absolutely refuses solely bc “you can’t beat those prices!!!”

this is a woman who would not have to work another day in her life if she didn’t want and would still be incredibly comfortable until she died, and she still won’t buy stuff from decent places

so today i have to pick up one of her shitty packages, pressed up against my chest bc i was carrying other things. and when i bring it in her house i realize it’s covered in smoke resin??? chocolate sauce???? idefk something very dark and weirdly sticky. i’m just hoping with all hope it wasn’t someone’s bodily fluid. and now that is all over the nice white dress i was wearing for the first time. i never buy new clothes and now it’s covered in this shit company’s possibly literal shit

so i call her bc ya im pissed. and i tell her this about the package. AND SHES NOT EVEN PHASED!!! like she has no issues whatsoever with the fact that half the outside of her package is covered in sticky brown mystery goo. what fucking world am i living in how can you keep supporting a company like that when you have other options i can’t i don’t want to be here i don’t want to be here

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Uhhhhhhhh that seems bad

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crying and screaming and crying and screaming bc i was making text signs for my farm crops in stardew valley, and im not allowed to write the word “grapes” for all my grape vines

it literally censors the middle out and leaves the g and s, with **** <— those in between

which is so wild to me because does that not just bring attention to the word they want to censor??? grape is a common fruit and flavor, is it not more likely i’d actually be referring to literal grapes in this FARMING GAME???? i wasn’t even thinking about the word rape until they censored it so..????

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i think it should be illegal for pedro pascal to be cast in any advertisement

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YALL i have never been so excited in my life ngl

i totally forgot it was the 28th and i’ve been going out to different stores for my exposure therapy recently so i hop in the car and go to target

i park and am like hm seems really slow today which is weird bc the honkeys around here LOVE target it is always packed esp on a friday

so whatever i park and walk in and this place is dead. could count on my hands how many ppl were shopping in that place and it hits me. ITS THE BLACKOUT DAY!!! and omfg people are actually doing it. to the point where i can visibly see a difference.

and i know that’s not what it’s about. but sometimes it really does feel so good to be able to SEE the effort instead of having to just tell myself it’s happening

so ofc i turned my ass around and walked out and idk this is so exciting. i know it’s small but it is a start and even in my area where ppl just really care so much about themselves and it is always so fast paced ppl are actually participating and yeah.

this is just the beginning we can do this

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One of the things that annoys me about English is the way we use the same word for very different things.

Take humility and pride, for example.

Someone might use humble to mean that they don't think they're better than others; another person might use it to mean that they recognize that they're not going to single-handedly fix the world and don't expect to be the best at something the first time they try Meanwhile, a third means that they're worse or less important than others.

Pride, pride I was taught was a sin. Well, what kind? The pride some people have where they think they're better than others? That they'll never make a mistake, never fail at something? Or the kind where you did something difficult and hard, and you stuck at it, and now your self esteem is just a little bit higher? Or the kind were you hold yourself to a standard of behavior and take care of your possessions so they're nice and last longer?

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Young people can have back pain. Young people can have joint pain. Young people can require a cane to get around. Young people can have memory problems. Young people can get migraines. Young people can lose their eyesight. Young people can lose their hearing. Young people can lose their teeth and require dentures. Young people can have neurological disorders. Young people can go through menopause. Young people can have heart attacks. Young people can have strokes. Young people can go through all kinds of things you think only happens to older people and they don’t deserve to be invalidated or bullied just because you have never heard of it.

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change petitions rlly are so funny bc i’ll get one email that’s like sign this petition to help make this very dangerous street safer or to halt an innocent inmates execution or other serious and important things

and then i get one that’s like sign this petition to rename the nashville international airport the dolly parton international airport

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Vanity Fair March 1987 - Isabella Rossellini & David Lynch by Annie Leibovitz