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Emotional abuse is real. Emotional abuse is traumatizing.

You suffered. You’re allowed to know that. You’re allowed to treat your suffering as what it was, abuse. Even if it was never physical, it was still abuse.

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the worst part is that i'll never completely know what really happened

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showering as an sa survivor <<<<<

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it feels like there are walls in my memories

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sometimes i fantasize about my trauma and it makes me so sick i want to kill myself!

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I'm so tired of this ptsd shit

it just feels lonely even though I'm not alone

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Psychosis feels like the line between your thoughts and experiences is thin, or nonexistent. You can't tell if it actually happened, or is happening, or if it's a delusion again.

Psychosis feels like not being able to trust if you're experiencing something "real"- even if it tangibly is by nonpsychotics.

Psychosis feels like something is "off" constantly- maybe in the air, maybe intrinsically within you -that other people don't notice.

Psychosis feels like everyone else has their shit together but you- and they're refusing to tell you how.

Psychosis feels like the entire way you view yourself is distorted. It feels like being disjointed, out of proportion, discoloured. Like a fever dream you can't understand.

-> Of course, this is based on our own experiences. Other people may not feel the same.

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memories feel like weapons

would've, could've, should've, taylor swift/ @come1nalone/the hurting, rupi kaur/unknown/@/geloyconcepion on instagram/would've, could've, should've, taylor swift/ @come1nalone/unknown/praying, kesha/ @hel7l7/would've, could've, should've, taylor swift

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clonazepam & lorazepam | free to use with credit

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my fault for expecting things to go right tbh

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i be like "i'm okay" then show signs of psychosis

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New hearted, an incest survivor flag

Pink: hypersexuality

Cyan: sex repulsion

Cobalt: sorrow

Indigo: dissociation

Navy: guilt, bad memories

Broken heart: feeling of betrayel

Gradient heart: healing and strength

Free to use without credit, do not use this for shipping wars or drama. Id rather not have this flag associated with that stuff.

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A thing I made

Open Up

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- Osamu Dazai, Self-Portraits, Female